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The question is: How can a man in his early 20s get these essential life skills? How can somebody avoid being scammed/robbed/beaten/etc.? How can a man become self-sufficient and street-smart? How can a man start to read others and understand them? How can somebody prevent getting into shitty situations or becoming a victim of crime? How can somebody toughen up? How can somebody evaluate a situation better? Are there any people here who started out as autistic, high-inhib failures and managed to get at least that aspect in order, if so I would be interested in how you did it.
I am incompetent in almost everything social. I was easily scammed by others and cannot tell when others are genuine or not, I automatically assume the worst of others now. I was never a self-sufficient person and always relied on others for decision making, I followed my parents and my only friend around as a child and as an adult I do the same thing with authority figures. I was also never a person with social competence, I never attended social meetings/gatherings because I always got into trouble with others, people treat me as an annoyance and have never invited me to any parties/gatherings, I cannot even use public transport or something like that because I was almost never in the city.
I know nothing about the place where I live, I unironically became a misanthropic recluse. Doesn't help that everywhere I go I am reminded of shit that was done to me in my town (bullying/destruction of my property/physical insults/harassment of me and my family). I was also never anywhere without parental guidance - except on my job. I fear/despise others/the outside in general and avoid interacting with it, the few times I tried I was scammed or worse stuff happened to me.
I withdrew deliberately from society after many bad experiences and realising that I am not on the same wavelength as others. With lockdown and home-office this grew to new extremes, it will probably result in 1,5 years of no (real) social interaction with others (considering when it will likely end) - the few skills I had are now completely eroded. For the entire timespan I didn't talk to anyone except my parents or people over the Internet. Even on a professional basis I am only barely functional and most of my coworkers trashtalk about me behind my back and see me as a milestone on their neck that is barely tolerated.
The thing is: I want to do travelmaxxing. Always wanted to see the world, the problem is the fact that I know it entirely from the Internet, articles and books. If I traveled alone I would probably end up being murdered considering the fact that I am a high-risk victim due to being physically disabled/small and autistic, traveling with these prerequisites is suicide under a different name. I am definetely not street-smart or something like that. Have tried gymmaxxing to physically toughen up at least (although the results are minimal due to having a physical disability). I am one of the people who is only alive because it's illegal to kill them, a complete magnet for everything shitty in life - and my response was complete avoidance and escape from humanity.
I am incompetent in almost everything social. I was easily scammed by others and cannot tell when others are genuine or not, I automatically assume the worst of others now. I was never a self-sufficient person and always relied on others for decision making, I followed my parents and my only friend around as a child and as an adult I do the same thing with authority figures. I was also never a person with social competence, I never attended social meetings/gatherings because I always got into trouble with others, people treat me as an annoyance and have never invited me to any parties/gatherings, I cannot even use public transport or something like that because I was almost never in the city.
I know nothing about the place where I live, I unironically became a misanthropic recluse. Doesn't help that everywhere I go I am reminded of shit that was done to me in my town (bullying/destruction of my property/physical insults/harassment of me and my family). I was also never anywhere without parental guidance - except on my job. I fear/despise others/the outside in general and avoid interacting with it, the few times I tried I was scammed or worse stuff happened to me.
I withdrew deliberately from society after many bad experiences and realising that I am not on the same wavelength as others. With lockdown and home-office this grew to new extremes, it will probably result in 1,5 years of no (real) social interaction with others (considering when it will likely end) - the few skills I had are now completely eroded. For the entire timespan I didn't talk to anyone except my parents or people over the Internet. Even on a professional basis I am only barely functional and most of my coworkers trashtalk about me behind my back and see me as a milestone on their neck that is barely tolerated.
The thing is: I want to do travelmaxxing. Always wanted to see the world, the problem is the fact that I know it entirely from the Internet, articles and books. If I traveled alone I would probably end up being murdered considering the fact that I am a high-risk victim due to being physically disabled/small and autistic, traveling with these prerequisites is suicide under a different name. I am definetely not street-smart or something like that. Have tried gymmaxxing to physically toughen up at least (although the results are minimal due to having a physical disability). I am one of the people who is only alive because it's illegal to kill them, a complete magnet for everything shitty in life - and my response was complete avoidance and escape from humanity.





