vidyacel
Reverend PUNISHER
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As a blackpilled scholar soon to be 26 years old later this month, it was the year where every ounce of optimism i previously had got thrown into the trash can.
I tried reorganizing my life, made subtle changes in the summer to prepare myself, opened a bank account, managed to miraculously find a retail job as a cashier...
It was all very short lived.
I only lasted 2 weeks in that environment, got sick afterwards, at first i didn´t feel anxious, but in the second week, everything came crashing down.
A feeling of dread for having to act like a peasent, whilst having ALL female supervisors, i felt emasculated and gave much thought on how i should properly quit.
And so i did.
Then the fat jewess whore who opened my bank account made a critical error, in the moment she opened the account.
Had to go through the entire month of October pestering the dumb cunt to solve the problem, because i couldn´t receive my fucking hard earned money.
It´s as if fortune was never on my side, besides material possessions that were bought with the money of my parents.
I´m doomed, with no future,
Left alone to NEET and rot in my basement, but hey at least i got video games and anime right ?
Yeah i thought that was the case, until in November i had a fucking crisis.
My whole world i had conjured up started to deteriorate, and constantly having flashbacks from way back.
Contemplating that i should have been much more violent towards those who sought me wrong.
If this is all that is crocked up to be, then might aswell just embrace my solitude, and the death of my ego.
Which i have already done.
I feel free, for the time being.
I tried reorganizing my life, made subtle changes in the summer to prepare myself, opened a bank account, managed to miraculously find a retail job as a cashier...
It was all very short lived.
I only lasted 2 weeks in that environment, got sick afterwards, at first i didn´t feel anxious, but in the second week, everything came crashing down.
A feeling of dread for having to act like a peasent, whilst having ALL female supervisors, i felt emasculated and gave much thought on how i should properly quit.
And so i did.
Then the fat jewess whore who opened my bank account made a critical error, in the moment she opened the account.
Had to go through the entire month of October pestering the dumb cunt to solve the problem, because i couldn´t receive my fucking hard earned money.
It´s as if fortune was never on my side, besides material possessions that were bought with the money of my parents.
I´m doomed, with no future,
Left alone to NEET and rot in my basement, but hey at least i got video games and anime right ?
Yeah i thought that was the case, until in November i had a fucking crisis.
My whole world i had conjured up started to deteriorate, and constantly having flashbacks from way back.
Contemplating that i should have been much more violent towards those who sought me wrong.
If this is all that is crocked up to be, then might aswell just embrace my solitude, and the death of my ego.
Which i have already done.
I feel free, for the time being.
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