Llama
“Im the bad guy? I did everything they told me to”
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i already know that im incel, i dont have the energy to talk about it on here because it seems like no one cares. irl, no one cares. even with the 2 or 3 online friends i have, they dont care. so tired of shit i cant change. height, face, all of it. wish i could just go to sleep and not wake up i guess.
i go through a cycle of work then going to bed. i hate seeing couples at my job. none of my copes are working, everything but laying down and rotting feels like a chore, even things that i usually like to do. i wake up at 4m usually, i just got my learners permit and im fucking 17, meaning ill be driving when im 18 and missing out entirely on high school driving. i have no connections or memories in high school, no one cares about me or my problems and i dont even care about them. any chance i take to change these problems do nothing. it fucking sucks. ive started having bad dreams again, like the necro type ones again and i dont want to go to sleep anymore.
dont know what to do, im just angry tired and hopeless now.
i go through a cycle of work then going to bed. i hate seeing couples at my job. none of my copes are working, everything but laying down and rotting feels like a chore, even things that i usually like to do. i wake up at 4m usually, i just got my learners permit and im fucking 17, meaning ill be driving when im 18 and missing out entirely on high school driving. i have no connections or memories in high school, no one cares about me or my problems and i dont even care about them. any chance i take to change these problems do nothing. it fucking sucks. ive started having bad dreams again, like the necro type ones again and i dont want to go to sleep anymore.
dont know what to do, im just angry tired and hopeless now.