Deleted member 33560
The Shitting Overlord
-
- Joined
- Mar 11, 2021
- Posts
- 3,334
At this point, i’ve kind of come to realize that the last like, 4-5 years of my life, if not my entire teenage life, have been worse torture than any kind of pain I would feel from suicide. Problem is that i’m a fucking pussy and I have a phobia of death so i’m involuntary being pushed through the torturous route. I really hate my life and just about everything it’s amounted to. Plus I hate so many things that go on in the world these days.
one of my biggest fantasies in life is killing myself and then watching my family as a ghost and being vindicated by the fact that my death meant absolutely nothing to them and I was nothing other than a liability. I actually want to see how their lives would be better if I was dead. Strange fantasy ngl but at this point I value vindication above all else
one of my biggest fantasies in life is killing myself and then watching my family as a ghost and being vindicated by the fact that my death meant absolutely nothing to them and I was nothing other than a liability. I actually want to see how their lives would be better if I was dead. Strange fantasy ngl but at this point I value vindication above all else