I was reading a thread about kissing and it hit me again, I just can’t imagine a world where I do anything good in life, let alone ascend. I suspect by 20 years old at the latest my body will be somewhere floating after falling from the Ed Koch bridge here in New york or with its brains blown out somewhere. When I was younger I had some hope that I would ascend and was just going thru the “incel phase” that many guys seem to go through nowadays but I’ve but here seen I was 15 or 16 at this point, been close to 3 years now 
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3 years going on forever [instrumentation by redMOSK]
LYRICS: [Verse 1] weeks to months and months to years with substances to fight the tears somewhere to here i lost my fears my days stagnate and disappear my past it once was crystal clear now thru mud
