It's Over Cant get over oneitis. Cant get a job. I think ive hit the wall.

[Targus700]

Summary

• Had a oneitis from school.
• Before meeting oneitis, exposed to photoshop fakes and cum tributes at the age of 8
• Do said things on oneitis during peak teen.
• stop around early 20s after getting rejected by oneitis
• unfollowed all her social media to try to get over her
• worked for good 3 years
• realise she go to same place i go for college now, feelings+lust came back like it never left
• realise she now with chad.
• "maybe im not built for foids"
• local ai was booming. certain popular peach background imageboard introduced me to comfyui
• been 3 years. cant stop genning oneitis. learned everything about local stuff. contained, safe, no one to peep.
• tried doing it on some other foid. doesnt feel good as doing it to oneitis

As it stands now:

• got some life changing college exams going on.
• cant lock the fuck in and study all day when all i think of is her
• have got to a point where i involuntarily blurt out her name out loud during any task.
• already failed 3 exams.

fail one exam = no job
no job = no move out from family
no moff = stuck with oneitis for eternity.
if i fail next exam, i think its truely over, folks.

 

[RuudVanNistelrooy]

Why don't you deliver food as a temp job?

 

[Targus700]

Why don't you deliver food as a temp job?

I've thought of that. But i got no moped to deliver food + family thinks it embarrasses them in front of everyone (its alr embarrassing for them) + will eat up the only productive study hours i could use before my dick starts thinking of the next session.

+ pay is shit for gig work in curryland+ dont wanna be even more nigger than i am from the sun


Only real way out is to clear out those failed exams and get a real job so i could buy a 5090 and do even more freaky shit with it and die