Venting Why Should I Attempt to Pluck That Which I know Bears Bitter Fruit?

[Carter…]

I am haunted by the fact that I cannot recover the lost days of my childhood. Even then, a simple logical construction allowed me to arrive at the conclusion that looks where a dominating element in life. As an adult, I have no natural outlet, and everything seems to be a fruitless endeavor. All paths seem to lead to darkness in these cold chilly autumn nights. I travel through life on a broken wing, companionless and questioning what does my purpose hold?

I tried dating apps, but why should I attempt to pluck that which I know bears bitter fruit?
When the stars rush out, and during gentle rains, sometimes there seems to be a neutralization of my contradictory attitudes. However when it stops, I'm just miserable.
I've given up on ever being with woman. If she is not attracted to you, then there is no real love.

 

[AtrociousCitizen]

Being lonely really drains you and makes everything in life feel bleak and meaningless. It's like the world goes on despite my existence becoming grey, boring, dull and joyless. I'm not sure if I'll be able to recover from all the psychological issues this loneliness has caused me.

 

[Carter…]

Being lonely really drains you and makes everything in life feel bleak and meaningless. It's like the world goes on despite my existence becoming grey, boring, dull and joyless. I'm not sure if I'll be able to recover from all the psychological issues this loneliness has caused me.

im going to steal that line from you. "My existence becoming grey".

 

[Knajjd]

Your post reminds me of the novel In Search of Lost Time by Marcel Proust.

You said in a few lines what Proust needed 4,000 pages to elucidate.

 

[Starfish]

Happy birthday!

 

[Carter…]

Happy birthday!

Young man, it’s not my birthday.