Discussion What do you struggle with? How do you cope?

[The Enforcer]

I am 5'7, I feel like my entire life is over just by that alone. I have basically no future since I was too autistic too get good grades in school. I struggle to get friends and the ones I do have I am always overshadowed, I feel like a loser even in my own friendgroup. I have no talents even if I put countless hours in, no matter how hard I try I can't even come up to an average level. I struggle a lot with jealousy, I get jealous extremely easily and it destroys my relationships with people, I can't even count the amount of people I have lost due to it. I try to cope with drugs and shit but it makes me feel shit as well. Nothing works, I just rot. I feel like I have no one to talk to about my problems, never, and when I do it just drives people away. I just want a best friend since I have never had one, well I have but the feelings have never been mutual with anyone. If people can't even like me enough to be their best friend I can't even begin to imagine a girl liking me. My life is over and I am a jealous loser.

Should be routes for you if you're worried about academic stuff. Fuck school tbh. If you can find something that interests you, see if you can get some qualifications in that. At the very least it might be something to occupy yourself with. See what comes with it and whatnot.

I get jealousy. It's brutal. I dont know why people shame rejects or disaffected people for being jealous. It's understandable why one would be in such a fucked up situation. I'd do anything to have the life that regular people have. Drugs work fine for me, best things in existence for me, but I know they dont really seem to work for everyone. Hopefully you can find something that does though.

I'm much the same with all the friends/gf stuff. I know it'll never happen for me. Sadly I understand that making 1 friend isn't just that. People make out like it's just gaining the approval of one person but i never is. You have to also have the approval of (most of) that person social circle and friends too. If thats not the case then they're sadly not going to be very willing to spend their time on you. In my experience if there's a girl in that group at all, I've no chance. Even the friends I had years ago ended up being effectively banned from hanging out with me by their eventual girlfriends because they thought I "looked like a freak"... It's an absolute sabotage.

 

[lemon21]

Man thats brutal , for me its a fucking given to have a clean toilet / shower , proper air conditions and a relative bed to sleep in . Still it dosnt matter , if your born Ugly and your Mentally Slow " or not Neurotypical .

My Father died since i was 11 , and it dosnt help you either , having a Key Point in Raising a Child , be dead that early .

This World really is a Slot Machine at that Point , not only you have to get lucky Genetic wise , you have to be lucky enough to be Human AND have a Good Circumstance .

My Days Become Very Repetitive aswell , thanks for being Poor in a 1. World Country ,

That sucks to hear about your father. My father was not that present as a father figure either, he teached me how to scream away your problems basically. He was there but it's almost the same as if he wasnt. It's not like i can confide in him nor do i want to at this point.

But yeah having a nice place to live(nice being normal) it's the first step in being well mentally. Having a shitty place means your psyche will be fucked somewhow. Life is and will be a gamble.

It's fucked tbh. I'll never understand the people that just automatically assume that family are always good to you. What a nice life they must have to genuinely believe that shit. Hopefully you can get away from there sometime

Yeah, i've gotten a lot of the "muh you should appreciate your parents", "muh you're just selfish and ungratefull". Meanwhile comparing myself to those same people, they were blessed by good genetics by their parents, a good environment, nice things and overall a good quality of life. If that's the case how can you be anything but gratefull? It's easy to say be gratefull when there's not that many things to be gratefull about.

I don't know if i'll be able to get out of here, it's not like i have that much drive nor motivation. Maybe i'll get a good job someday but who knows, i'm not a lucky person. Also living paycheck to paycheck dosn't seem ideal either.

My condolensces. I didnt know that your family was this messed up. I always thought you were fine in that department due to the positiveness or lack of angryness in your posts.

Thanks. It's not like they're bad people per se, it's just that they're fucking mentally ill and those mental illness affect me a good deal. Imagine coming from a rich grandmother but your uncle gets all the benefits while you're living like poor people. Also not having a good place to live and having to make excuses as to why people can't come into my house.

I just became too numb to my situation already, someday i may get out or may not. for now i just cope away like everyday

 

[The Enforcer]

Yeah, i've gotten a lot of the "muh you should appreciate your parents", "muh you're just selfish and ungratefull". Meanwhile comparing myself to those same people, they were blessed by good genetics by their parents, a good environment, nice things and overall a good quality of life. If that's the case how can you be anything but gratefull? It's easy to say be gratefull when there's not that many things to be gratefull about.

Those people are truly deluded and live in a different reality tbh. They're ridiculous. Funnily enough they're usually the same people who would screech about "muh victim blaming", when they actively participate in it.

 

[Nikalas]

Where you live?

Sweden

 

[Nikalas]

5'7" ain't that bad right? I'm 5'7" too btw

I live in sweden, everyone here is 5'11 - 6'1

 

[NorthernWind]

I struggle with the fact that I need to wageslave in jobs I don't like ( also can't stand normie collectives ). It's very hard to cope with this. If I think about suicide sometimes, it's because of the wageslaving which brings me so much stress and I hate it with all my heart.
The other things I struggle with, are: attraction to female body. I sometimes want to have female so badly but the only options are escortcelling and forced sex and both are against my Church upbringing. ( and ugly mentally I'll females don't evoke any sexual desire in me ).
I also struggle with the inability to lead a Christian life. Rationally I understand importance of having faith and behaving in a right manner but my desires are very 'unchristian'.
This also lead to splitting in personality and maybe hypocrisy since I don't act according to my beliefs in society with different values.

 

[Ahnfeltia]

I live in sweden, everyone here is 5'11 - 6'1

I live in the Netherlands, so it should be comparable

 

[Ahnfeltia]

I struggle with the fact that I need to wageslave in jobs I don't like ( also can't stand normie collectives ). It's very hard to cope with this. If I think about suicide sometimes, it's because of the wageslaving which brings me so much stress and I hate it with all my heart.
The other things I struggle with, are: attraction to female body. I sometimes want to have female so badly but the only options are escortcelling and forced sex and both are against my Church upbringing. ( and ugly mentally I'll females don't evoke any sexual desire in me ).
I also struggle with the inability to lead a Christian life. Rationally I understand importance of having faith and behaving in a right manner but my desires are very 'unchristian'.
This also lead to splitting in personality and maybe hypocrisy since I don't act according to my beliefs in society with different values.

Wageslaving is pretty brutal yeah. Esp. because it takes up so much time. Normie colleagues are indeed a huge contributor to it being so godawful. Is the work itself souldraining as well in your case?

Being attracted to something you'll never truly have (or want due to their personalities) hits home as well. I imagine being Christian exacerbates your struggles fewfold. Altho I ain't Christian, props for not losing faith. I myself forsook some of the things I theretofore believed in a few years ago -- what nihilism and philosophical pessimism do to a mofo.

 

[Mrugly420]

By watching serial killer docs. In vr

 

[텍스트]

accumulate my hate

 

[Cuckoja]

I struggle with everything, winter, money, health, rage, depression, only cope I have are video games.

 

[Nikalas]

I live in the Netherlands, so it should be comparable

Over

 

[Spyro]

My motivation is terrible and I don't see my self gaining the capable will to do anything about it. Its a miracle I can get up nearly everyday and lift. My energy is extremely difficult to maintain. But this with the combination of a job schedule is a spiral.

 

[PLA1092]

Have you ever gone on vacation?

 

[sonnyside]

my own biological mother coming into my room and jerking me off when i wasn't even in my double digits yet. i like to pretend it didn't happen.

 

[Scerus]

Just making friends and talking with people really. The meagre social infrastructure I had at school with my like 1 or 2 close friends no longer exists and no one seems interested when I make overtures, something as basic as sending messages. All of it seems like a sunk cost really.

I have "online friends" but we only really ever type to each other and it has started really getting to me. At work, I've sort of been cast out of the in-group and is painfully obvious. Any positive interaction I have is fleeting.

I also noticed virtually everyone has girlfriends, has had sexual encounters when I haven't - sure, I'm 22, but I am so desperate for social interaction, any social interaction. Even when I invest my time and money I scarcely get anything in return. I am 22 years old and having nothing to show for it, no proper job, no girlfriend, no drivers license, I'm totally dependent on my mother and have virtually no prospects at all.

It's hard to accept that maybe people just don't want to be friends with me. I'm too uninteresting, I'm too emotionally stunted, I'm too prone to being offended or saying socially unacceptable things. I'm so lost as a person right now, a Quarter Life Crisis is putting it mildly.

It's almost like I can't fit in anywhere, even here. Because I am a greycel after all.

 

[NorthernWind]

Wageslaving is pretty brutal yeah. Esp. because it takes up so much time. Normie colleagues are indeed a huge contributor to it being so godawful. Is the work itself souldraining as well in your case?

Work is pretty simple. For me being around normies is much more stressful than work itself.

 

[universallyabhorret]

Heightpill is a very brutal pill tbh

Rotting is comfy though. I dont see prostitutes, just not for me but for those that it's a good cope for I say go for it. Dopaminemaxx. And yeah I try to avoid going out nowadays too, not just due to couples and whatnot. I just dont like all the stupid looks and dirty comments people give me. It ruins going out and is just demoralizing

What kind of looks do people give you and comments do they make? For me it's generally subtle but there's always some hint of disgust, discomfort or mockery after seeing me. Like frowns or people avoiding eye contact but I do occasionally get people repeatedly glancing at me or staring if they think I am not watching them. Never had anyone directly mention my looks that I could clearly hear though they may have said it under their breath or or inaudible like some guy on drugs who seemed high and had a slur.

 

[Ahnfeltia]

my own biological mother coming into my room and jerking me off when i wasn't even in my double digits yet. i like to pretend it didn't happen.

 

[Ahnfeltia]

Just making friends and talking with people really. The meagre social infrastructure I had at school with my like 1 or 2 close friends no longer exists and no one seems interested when I make overtures, something as basic as sending messages. All of it seems like a sunk cost really.

I have "online friends" but we only really ever type to each other and it has started really getting to me. At work, I've sort of been cast out of the in-group and is painfully obvious. Any positive interaction I have is fleeting.

I also noticed virtually everyone has girlfriends, has had sexual encounters when I haven't - sure, I'm 22, but I am so desperate for social interaction, any social interaction. Even when I invest my time and money I scarcely get anything in return. I am 22 years old and having nothing to show for it, no proper job, no girlfriend, no drivers license, I'm totally dependent on my mother and have virtually no prospects at all.

It's hard to accept that maybe people just don't want to be friends with me. I'm too uninteresting, I'm too emotionally stunted, I'm too prone to being offended or saying socially unacceptable things. I'm so lost as a person right now, a Quarter Life Crisis is putting it mildly.

It's almost like I can't fit in anywhere, even here. Because I am a greycel after all.

If you've never had a gf at 22, it's likely never gonna happen boyo. Unless you get rich go the betabuxx route, which I personally wouldn't recommend (the betabuxxing part that is; getting rich is obviously advantageous if possible).

Apropos of being a greycel, I never got called "GrAYcel" all that often. Maybe it was different when you joined?

 

[The Enforcer]

I struggle with the fact that I need to wageslave in jobs I don't like ( also can't stand normie collectives ). It's very hard to cope with this. If I think about suicide sometimes, it's because of the wageslaving which brings me so much stress and I hate it with all my heart.
The other things I struggle with, are: attraction to female body. I sometimes want to have female so badly but the only options are escortcelling and forced sex and both are against my Church upbringing. ( and ugly mentally I'll females don't evoke any sexual desire in me ).
I also struggle with the inability to lead a Christian life. Rationally I understand importance of having faith and behaving in a right manner but my desires are very 'unchristian'.
This also lead to splitting in personality and maybe hypocrisy since I don't act according to my beliefs in society with different values.

I dont know how people wageslave tbh. Especially when theres little incentive. Attraction is a bastard though, it's cruel. Yet rejects are expected to suppress natural attraction and never display any such desire.

Religion is pretty brutal sometimes too tbh

 

[The Enforcer]

By watching serial killer docs. In vr

Vr sounds cozy

 

[The Enforcer]

I struggle with everything, winter, money, health, rage, depression, only cope I have are video games.

I just wish life would get better tbh

 

[The Enforcer]

My motivation is terrible and I don't see my self gaining the capable will to do anything about it. Its a miracle I can get up nearly everyday and lift. My energy is extremely difficult to maintain. But this with the combination of a job schedule is a spiral.

Motivation is hard to have when failure is a constant and there's no real reward at the end. THe incentives nowadays are fleeting. Its understandable tbh.

 

[The Enforcer]

Have you ever gone on vacation?

not exactly.

 

[The Enforcer]

my own biological mother coming into my room and jerking me off when i wasn't even in my double digits yet. i like to pretend it didn't happen.

Thats brutal tbh. This seems to be something that happens to a fair amount of incels i've met sadly.

 

[The Enforcer]

Just making friends and talking with people really. The meagre social infrastructure I had at school with my like 1 or 2 close friends no longer exists and no one seems interested when I make overtures, something as basic as sending messages. All of it seems like a sunk cost really.

I have "online friends" but we only really ever type to each other and it has started really getting to me. At work, I've sort of been cast out of the in-group and is painfully obvious. Any positive interaction I have is fleeting.

I also noticed virtually everyone has girlfriends, has had sexual encounters when I haven't - sure, I'm 22, but I am so desperate for social interaction, any social interaction. Even when I invest my time and money I scarcely get anything in return. I am 22 years old and having nothing to show for it, no proper job, no girlfriend, no drivers license, I'm totally dependent on my mother and have virtually no prospects at all.

It's hard to accept that maybe people just don't want to be friends with me. I'm too uninteresting, I'm too emotionally stunted, I'm too prone to being offended or saying socially unacceptable things. I'm so lost as a person right now, a Quarter Life Crisis is putting it mildly.

It's almost like I can't fit in anywhere, even here. Because I am a greycel after all.

Yeah friendships not so easy when one is a reject either. It's not just gaining the approval of one person. its near everyone surrounding them. People who are deemed to be a social net-negative are often ousted from socialization sadly. Yet are expected to just suck it up and deal with it.

Online friends are all I have nowadays. But I atleast like that the option is there for that. It gives me some sort of interaction with other people that i'm effectively banned from having in the real world.

Missing out on common milestones is a common grievance for those that miss out on them tbh. I dont understand why the majority of people dismiss this stuff when we express sadness over it, yet in the same vein, they're the same people who mock us for having missed out on said milestones. Their failure to understand this is astounding. I do suspect many of them however, are aware of this but due to social status quos, just keep the cycle on repeat.

Hopefully you can make some good friends around these spaces and better cope with life

 

[The Enforcer]

What kind of looks do people give you and comments do they make? For me it's generally subtle but there's always some hint of disgust, discomfort or mockery after seeing me. Like frowns or people avoiding eye contact but I do occasionally get people repeatedly glancing at me or staring if they think I am not watching them. Never had anyone directly mention my looks that I could clearly hear though they may have said it under their breath or or inaudible like some guy on drugs who seemed high and had a slur.

Its *that* look. Identical to the look that people give when they see piles of vomit or dogshit on the ground. Its the look of pure disgust and disdain for whatever it is they're looking at. The comments are always looks based tbh, or a derivative of such. Some people are fairly creative with them, to date I think the ones I find funniest are being told I have a "rapist face" or that I have "pedo eyes"

 

[Ahnfeltia]

I dont know how people wageslave tbh.

When the alternative is rotting in the gutter, the choice is obvious for most people.

What about you btw? You reply to everyone yet your jeremiad appears nowhere to be found (or am I blind?)

 

[The Enforcer]

When the alternative is rotting in the gutter, the choice is obvious for most people.

I know some people are lucky enough to be able to just get NEETbuxx or somesort. Its a brutal unfair world. But I think more and more men will end up using neetbuxx soon

What about you btw? You reply to everyone yet your jeremiad appears nowhere to be found (or am I blind?)

that's quite the list aha, and tbh I always seem to repeat myself and go over stuff that bothers me and how I cope with it. It's probably one of my very few topics of conversation because it's literally my life at this point, little much else. Some of it's all listed in my replies here though. I relate to a lot of people here I guess.

 

[Ahnfeltia]

But I think more and more men will end up using neetbuxx soon

Provided the government will extend it to them. Either way, there's turbulent times ahead.

I relate to a lot of people here I guess.

Yeah me too. At least partially. On the hand I wanna say that it's hardly surprising given the demographic this forum is meant for and attracts, yet on the other hand there are way more ways to be a pariah than to be normative, so in that sense it is surprising. What say you? Surprising or no?

 

[The Enforcer]

Provided the government will extend it to them. Either way, there's turbulent times ahead.

If not then I just see the suicide rates rising even more than they already will tbh. But maybe that's part of the plan. Get the excess males to cull themselves.

Yeah me too. At least partially. On the hand I wanna say that it's hardly surprising given the demographic this forum is meant for and attracts, yet on the other hand there are way more ways to be a pariah than to be normative, so in that sense it is surprising. What say you? Surprising or no?

It doesnt surprise me tbh no. Although there are some things i relate too more than others, and some things I dont relate too at all.

 

[Ahnfeltia]

If not then I just see the suicide rates rising even more than they already will tbh. But maybe that's part of the plan. Get the excess males to cull themselves.

Or... the excess males will cull othERs On a serious note however, accounting for the fact that hypergamy will increase even faster than the inflation, having a significant portion of the male populace NEETing is bound to be financially infeasible.

 

[The Enforcer]

Or... the excess males will cull othERs On a serious note however, accounting for the fact that hypergamy will increase even faster than the inflation, having a significant portion of the male populace NEETing is bound to be financially infeasible.

Well yeah this is what I see happening tbh. More and more jobs wont get filled either as a result. It'll put a massive strain on infrastructure in general. Only when it starts to affect them will they maybe start to care. Although even now there are articles and such beginning to come out noticing this trend of men dropping out and recognizing the possible implications that this could have

 

[Ahnfeltia]

Only when it starts to affect them will they maybe start to care

I doubt they'll start caring in a good way (for us) but I'm hoping to be proven wrong

 

[The Enforcer]

I doubt they'll start caring in a good way (for us) but I'm hoping to be proven wrong

I like to think that someday, rejects will become another "protected class" and be accepted as actual people, we've seen things like that happen before. Although I dont think we'll see it in our lifetimes

 

[Ahnfeltia]

I like to think that someday, rejects will become another "protected class" and be accepted as actual people, we've seen things like that happen before. Although I dont think we'll see it in our lifetimes

A man can dream. If such fortuity would come to pass, I indeed doubt either of us will be around to enjoy it. Esp. with your lifestyle and to a lesser extent mine.

 

[The Enforcer]

A man can dream. If such fortuity would come to pass, I indeed doubt either of us will be around to enjoy it. Esp. with your lifestyle and to a lesser extent mine.

I'm kind of content with it tbh. Even if I say lived till 50 somehow and then change happened. I'm much to old by then for it to make a difference to me personally. As far as i'm concerned, I died a few years ago. My life is long over, i'm just in a state of limbo at the moment, a purgatory of sorts

 

[Ahnfeltia]

I'm kind of content with it tbh. Even if I say lived till 50 somehow and then change happened. I'm much to old by then for it to make a difference to me personally. As far as i'm concerned, I died a few years ago. My life is long over, i'm just in a state of limbo at the moment, a purgatory of sorts

yeah the damage has already been done

 

[The Enforcer]

yeah the damage has already been done

its over tbh

 

[MiSKiRaT]

Everything, I struggle in every single fucking problem I can't cope properly without suffering at least a bit of problems. Trynna eat food? OH GOOD LUCK WHENY OU GOT TONSILLITIS AND CANKER SORE LET'S SEE YOU GULP ONE BITE AFTER GETTING STABBED A HUNDRED TIMES IN YOUR MOUTH. PLAYING DCS MULTIPLAYER? GOOD LUCK SURVIVING THE HORDE OF AMRAAM'S AT 6 NAUTICAL MILES COMING STRAIGHT AT YOUR FACE ITS A FUCKING HEADACHE DOGFIGHTING AGAINST FIRE AND FORGET CUCKS. TRYING TO SLEEP? FUCKING NEIGHBORS ARE LOUD AND DRIVING ME TO INSANITY FUCK THEIR KIDS. I CAN'T TYPE OR WRITE PROPERLY THANKS TO MY HAND INJURY AFTER GETTING GUTTED BY A CHINKFAGGOT. I DON'T WATCH PORN BECAUSE FUCK GETTING DICKMOGGED. I'M 5'4 WITH A CROOKED NOSE AND CROOKED TEETH MY ORTHODONTICS FUCK MY EATING HABIT UP BECAUSE MY GENES ALWAYS CAUSE ME TO HAVE CANKER SORE EVEN THOUGH I FUCKING BRUSH MY TEETH I EAT HEALTHY I KEEP SUFFERING FROM CANKER SORE FOR NO REASON. I CAN'T LIVE NORMALLY I CAN'T DO THINGS RIGHT I'VE BEEN GETTING BEAT UP BY KIDS IN FUCKSCHOOL SO BADLY THAT MY NOSE IS TILTED FROM THE AMOUNT OF DAMAGE AS IF I'M NOT CROOKED ENOUGH. THOSE FUCKING MEMORIES ARE RIPPING ME APART I DESPISE ALL THOSE FUCKING LOOKIST SCUMBAG CHILDREN. NOBODY EVERY CARED ABOUT ME, NOBODY EVER HUGGED ME, NOBODY EVER ASKED ABOUT ME, NOBODY EVER WANTED TO BE MY FRIEND, NOBODY EVER SHOWED ME SYMPATHY AFTER GETTING BEAT UP AND MADE FUN OF NOT EVEN MY FAMILY, I HAVEN'T HUGGED ANYONE IN 12 YEARS EVEN THOUGH I'M 21 YEARS OLD THE ONLY TIME I HUGGED SOMEONE WAS MY MOM WHEN I WAS 9 AFTER SHE PUSHED ME AWAY AND TOLD ME TO FUCK OFF. MY EYES ARE TEARING AND MY THROAT IS BURNING FROM THE AMOUNT OF RAGE I'M HOLDING AT ALL THIS FUCKING FRUSTRATION DEATH TO ALL CUCKS DEATH TO NATURE FUCK ALL

 

[uglyshiitman]

I'm a student from China.School sucks,I got bullied a lot for my shitskin,everybody laughs at me and call me a monster.Currently I'm working on Ukrainian language,because I hope I can be there to enjoy the beautiful view,or blowed up unluckily by bombs.

 

[The Enforcer]

I'm a student from China.School sucks,I got bullied a lot for my shitskin,everybody laughs at me and call me a monster.Currently I'm working on Ukrainian language,because I hope I can be there to enjoy the beautiful view,or blowed up unluckily by bombs.

World is fucking shit tbh. That's shit to hear. Kind of base ukraine plan though aha, even if the latter goal is sad. I get it.

 

[The Enforcer]

Everything, I struggle in every single fucking problem I can't cope properly without suffering at least a bit of problems. Trynna eat food? OH GOOD LUCK WHENY OU GOT TONSILLITIS AND CANKER SORE LET'S SEE YOU GULP ONE BITE AFTER GETTING STABBED A HUNDRED TIMES IN YOUR MOUTH. PLAYING DCS MULTIPLAYER? GOOD LUCK SURVIVING THE HORDE OF AMRAAM'S AT 6 NAUTICAL MILES COMING STRAIGHT AT YOUR FACE ITS A FUCKING HEADACHE DOGFIGHTING AGAINST FIRE AND FORGET CUCKS. TRYING TO SLEEP? FUCKING NEIGHBORS ARE LOUD AND DRIVING ME TO INSANITY FUCK THEIR KIDS. I CAN'T TYPE OR WRITE PROPERLY THANKS TO MY HAND INJURY AFTER GETTING GUTTED BY A CHINKFAGGOT. I DON'T WATCH PORN BECAUSE FUCK GETTING DICKMOGGED. I'M 5'4 WITH A CROOKED NOSE AND CROOKED TEETH MY ORTHODONTICS FUCK MY EATING HABIT UP BECAUSE MY GENES ALWAYS CAUSE ME TO HAVE CANKER SORE EVEN THOUGH I FUCKING BRUSH MY TEETH I EAT HEALTHY I KEEP SUFFERING FROM CANKER SORE FOR NO REASON. I CAN'T LIVE NORMALLY I CAN'T DO THINGS RIGHT I'VE BEEN GETTING BEAT UP BY KIDS IN FUCKSCHOOL SO BADLY THAT MY NOSE IS TILTED FROM THE AMOUNT OF DAMAGE AS IF I'M NOT CROOKED ENOUGH. THOSE FUCKING MEMORIES ARE RIPPING ME APART I DESPISE ALL THOSE FUCKING LOOKIST SCUMBAG CHILDREN. NOBODY EVERY CARED ABOUT ME, NOBODY EVER HUGGED ME, NOBODY EVER ASKED ABOUT ME, NOBODY EVER WANTED TO BE MY FRIEND, NOBODY EVER SHOWED ME SYMPATHY AFTER GETTING BEAT UP AND MADE FUN OF NOT EVEN MY FAMILY, I HAVEN'T HUGGED ANYONE IN 12 YEARS EVEN THOUGH I'M 21 YEARS OLD THE ONLY TIME I HUGGED SOMEONE WAS MY MOM WHEN I WAS 9 AFTER SHE PUSHED ME AWAY AND TOLD ME TO FUCK OFF. MY EYES ARE TEARING AND MY THROAT IS BURNING FROM THE AMOUNT OF RAGE I'M HOLDING AT ALL THIS FUCKING FRUSTRATION DEATH TO ALL CUCKS DEATH TO NATURE FUCK ALL

The genepill is brutal too tbh. Being genetically disadvantaged is utterly brutal. Relatable tbh. I've not had a hug since I was in nursery and even that was a sort of faux hug when I just grabbed another kid out of excitement about something. But that was about 28-29 years ago now. It's truly over

 

[InternalJizzz]

i struggle with my looks and physical flaws. I cope with porn, weed, food sometimes, and working to make money.

 

[The Enforcer]

i struggle with my looks and physical flaws. I cope with porn, weed, food sometimes, and working to make money.

Looks is relatable for sure. Any room for looksmaxxing at all? Weed is good ngl

 

[CountBleck]

one big challenge that i face is that i am a hopeless romantic. ever since i began experiencing feelings of attraction towards girls, i remember being so focused on searching for someone that i could fall in love with. it doesn't really help that i grew up watching lots of romantic media like Your Lie in April and Your Name. those anime were basically poison to my thoughts lol.

but i know that those fantasies are impossible for a 5'6 asian ricecel like me.

as for coping? i study math at a highly reputable school and i'm interested in pursuing a career in quantitative finance. Also, i do have friends. i know some incels here like to think that i'm not an incel if i have friends. i'm KHHV.

i guess i'm just trying to have a decent future financially and spending my free time with friends or hobbies.

 

[The Enforcer]

one big challenge that i face is that i am a hopeless romantic. ever since i began experiencing feelings of attraction towards girls, i remember being so focused on searching for someone that i could fall in love with. it doesn't really help that i grew up watching lots of romantic media like Your Lie in April and Your Name. those anime were basically poison to my thoughts lol.

but i know that those fantasies are impossible for a 5'6 asian ricecel like me.

as for coping? i study math at a highly reputable school and i'm interested in pursuing a career in quantitative finance. Also, i do have friends. i know some incels here like to think that i'm not an incel if i have friends. i'm KHHV.

i guess i'm just trying to have a decent future financially and spending my free time with friends or hobbies.

Romance is brutal tbh. It seems fake nowadays but I always wanted a partner to spoil, make happy, look after and share a happy fulfilling life with. Those kinds of media sell lies. Its tragic tbh. Painful.

Based studycel though, hoping it all goes well for you and end up with a based outcome too. Lots of incels have friends tbh, not all, but many still do. Some even female friends. They're just never going to be considered important by most people. They're just sort of there. Wish you well in your future though tbh. Hope you can make a good life for yourself and cope as best you can

 

[Scerus]

On a side note, this sounds kind of pathetic - but I have created fake friend profiles on my social media in the past. It makes me feel good about myself when this "friend" interacts me with and my other peers see it. They see I have "friends" when that happens, even when they never really talk with me save one or two people.

I have said and done some dumb things in my group workchat. I thought I was being funny, but I'm really not. My humour just doesn't calibrate well.

 

[Ahnfeltia]

one big challenge that i face is that i am a hopeless romantic. ever since i began experiencing feelings of attraction towards girls, i remember being so focused on searching for someone that i could fall in love with. it doesn't really help that i grew up watching lots of romantic media like Your Lie in April and Your Name. those anime were basically poison to my thoughts lol.

I feel you, tho in my case my mind got poisoned by otome VNs and shoujo romance anime like inter alia Itazura na Kiss, Ookami Shoujo to Kuro Ouji, Kamisama Hajimemashita, Watashi ga Motete Dousunda and Skip Beat!

as for coping? i study math at a highly reputable school and i'm interested in pursuing a career in quantitative finance.

Financial mathematics huh. Even tho I have the perfect mathematical background for it, it never drew me. Do you find the subject itself interesting or are you purely in it for the money?