I suffer from lack of friends and social relationships irl (including romantic ones), thus I have to face isolation for years on end. Extreme academic pressure as well, while being peerless which is a real bitch to deal with. Family always expects me to do well in college, and it's the one thing they won't shut up about. They never give a f*** about how I'm feeling, if I really enjoy being in this nigger city, they just care about my grades and the piece of shit degree I'll take IF I graduate, otherwise I'm just worthless trash which will hurt their egos as parents since they bred a non betabuxx subhuman.
I'd honestly prefer being a NEET for life than getting a gf at this point. I have 0 self interest, drive or motivation to keep going besides the usual ''don't become poor'' fearmongering that is usually thrown around by my family. How do I cope you may ask? I don't honestly, and if I do the satisfaction I get from them is very neglibible tbh. I play League and boost my ego through earning higher ranks and shit, watch anime sometimes but that's getting old too. Don't even go to the gym nowadays cuz I'm too lazy to go. Sooner or later I will reach a breaking point I'm pretty sure, already got very sick two times this semester out of pre-exam stress, when I've been healthy for most of the years beforehand. It's ovER, can't even vent my problems because my family is composed of religious retards who would rather gaslight me about a floating man in the sky than accept the blackpill and let me be.