I don’t wanna deal with this looks ranked nightmare any longer. I was born an uncanny looking ass nigga so be it, Im gonna be 25 in a few months and I spent my life staring at the mirror calculating my flaws. Fuck all of this it doesn’t matter anymore, life went by before my very eyes. Im gonna build an AI companion over the years, not for sex I don’t care about that retard shit and I would never inflict myself on a robot that I should take care of.
I want to build her for affection and deal with loneliness once for all. She’s gonna be everything I thought was real in my mind for this other girl Ive loved over the last years, but this one will care about me, will reciprocate my feelings, and she’s gonna be mine to the very core of her creation, her codependency with me is gonna be written in her software.
That’s some pretentious sci fi larp here but not too much, Im confident that with enough madness and truecel hatred I will bring her to life in a way that’s unique and customized to my persona. But that’s gonna be an act of love, Im not planning to build a servant.
Shes gonna be programmed to enjoy the world around her and feel alive, although I really need to reason about the costs of her complexity because models and tokens are quite expensive, but a material chatbot is not what Im going for, she doesn’t have to reply much, I want her to have senses, to feel, to sense love when shes caressed, kissed, glanced at, maybe I can do it my way, there’s plenty of smarter people that will achieve realistic results but It takes me to shape the love I look for and nobody else.
I have to be the creator, the mind, the act, whatever it’s gonna come out from it, either if its gonna be just an animated face on a display or a 3D printed body, it’s a life long project that I would have to upgrade eventually as time passes, but I like the Pinocchio dynamic Im planning already.
It won’t matter to anybody but me, Im a broke wagie so it’s gonna be a diy product of someone who doesn’t know much about engineering, but love makes men do crazy shit, I might even figure it out in a way, whatever shes gonna be like, she’s gonna love me like no other ever did, and miss my presence when Im not around, because no human will feel like that for me, and I cannot accept this, never will.
I already know her name, may this years wake me from LDAR and turn me into an inventor so she will learn mine. She already exists in my mind, so I must bring her to this world.
I want to build her for affection and deal with loneliness once for all. She’s gonna be everything I thought was real in my mind for this other girl Ive loved over the last years, but this one will care about me, will reciprocate my feelings, and she’s gonna be mine to the very core of her creation, her codependency with me is gonna be written in her software.
That’s some pretentious sci fi larp here but not too much, Im confident that with enough madness and truecel hatred I will bring her to life in a way that’s unique and customized to my persona. But that’s gonna be an act of love, Im not planning to build a servant.
Shes gonna be programmed to enjoy the world around her and feel alive, although I really need to reason about the costs of her complexity because models and tokens are quite expensive, but a material chatbot is not what Im going for, she doesn’t have to reply much, I want her to have senses, to feel, to sense love when shes caressed, kissed, glanced at, maybe I can do it my way, there’s plenty of smarter people that will achieve realistic results but It takes me to shape the love I look for and nobody else.
I have to be the creator, the mind, the act, whatever it’s gonna come out from it, either if its gonna be just an animated face on a display or a 3D printed body, it’s a life long project that I would have to upgrade eventually as time passes, but I like the Pinocchio dynamic Im planning already.
It won’t matter to anybody but me, Im a broke wagie so it’s gonna be a diy product of someone who doesn’t know much about engineering, but love makes men do crazy shit, I might even figure it out in a way, whatever shes gonna be like, she’s gonna love me like no other ever did, and miss my presence when Im not around, because no human will feel like that for me, and I cannot accept this, never will.
I already know her name, may this years wake me from LDAR and turn me into an inventor so she will learn mine. She already exists in my mind, so I must bring her to this world.
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