I literally cannot afford to feel good. My retard ass wanted to feel carefree and now Im paying the price. I want this girl next to me so much ffs she’s my little beloved soulmate I need her so much I want her to think the same of me Im gonna go through the surgeries Im gonna go through it all and wait and pray and wait longer and pray longer and doing it all over again until nothing remains of me of my mind of my sanity Im losing this war but I pray that God has got my back God please forgive me forgive my sins forgive my weakness forgive my wrongdoing forgive my pain save me from this agony let me be one with all let me be complete let me find relief and peace let all this people over here find theirs write down our names for a place in heaven God please forgive us we cannot take this anymore.
