I’m an aspie and I don’t get along with people, troubles happen when I do and I get attached, and I never got attached to a girl like I did for this one.
She’s so special to me in a way I can confidently say nobody else feels, whatever she’s up to, nobody loves her like I do, it’s been years and it feels like one hour ago, as I just turned my back away last time, without looking twice cause in that moment she was gone from my world, from ever existing, all the reasons that kept me going in the morning and kept me awake at night, my descent into blackpill and inceldom, the forums, threads, all started from this cute, quiet, sincere miss that I couldn’t get my heart away from.
I truly fell in love with her in the purest biblical form of love itself, not a single straightforward explanation to justify, yes she is cartoon character hot, but it goes beyond her image, even if it sounds made up. I would have cared for her whatever, even if she lost her qualities, I want to give so much care into this life, I was made to be a kind considerate man, a hardworking husband, but it isn’t going to that direction and it never will. I started to believe in God after her, but I also think the Blackpill is a necessary measure for God to define pathways of life, winners and losers, genetic determinism.
But I will make something out of her anyway, my love will be put into a creation, a solitary project that is gonna carry the unrequited feelings I had for her, to which I will dedicate my life in silence. I’m gonna dedicate my life for this one person, I already did it for a good amount of it. She won’t even know, she’s gonna carry on with better assets and better men than what I’ll ever be. But I don’t move on, not me. People like me never do “move on”. What I felt rewired my brain and stays for a lifetime.
I will honor her with an act of love, Lord knows, men who cared always changed the world.
She’s so special to me in a way I can confidently say nobody else feels, whatever she’s up to, nobody loves her like I do, it’s been years and it feels like one hour ago, as I just turned my back away last time, without looking twice cause in that moment she was gone from my world, from ever existing, all the reasons that kept me going in the morning and kept me awake at night, my descent into blackpill and inceldom, the forums, threads, all started from this cute, quiet, sincere miss that I couldn’t get my heart away from.
I truly fell in love with her in the purest biblical form of love itself, not a single straightforward explanation to justify, yes she is cartoon character hot, but it goes beyond her image, even if it sounds made up. I would have cared for her whatever, even if she lost her qualities, I want to give so much care into this life, I was made to be a kind considerate man, a hardworking husband, but it isn’t going to that direction and it never will. I started to believe in God after her, but I also think the Blackpill is a necessary measure for God to define pathways of life, winners and losers, genetic determinism.
But I will make something out of her anyway, my love will be put into a creation, a solitary project that is gonna carry the unrequited feelings I had for her, to which I will dedicate my life in silence. I’m gonna dedicate my life for this one person, I already did it for a good amount of it. She won’t even know, she’s gonna carry on with better assets and better men than what I’ll ever be. But I don’t move on, not me. People like me never do “move on”. What I felt rewired my brain and stays for a lifetime.
I will honor her with an act of love, Lord knows, men who cared always changed the world.
