It's a long story.
When I started liking her, we were in our final year at school before exams. We were studying in two different classes, but then they merged us into big one and separate us on professional groups. Even though, we were in different groups, the classes that weren't so important for the exams we've chosen, we had together. I wasn't interested in her at all. She first started to greet me everyday, then she was trying to build conversation with me, I had absolutely zero interest in her, to the point, when she asked, how I am, I just said ok, and went somewhere else. I'm polite usually, but I never even thought of asking about her back.
She started following me on social media, and at some point we had to participate in school's dance contest. I did it only cuz, my mom told me at the time, that I never participate in anything that happens at school, apart studies lol. I had no idea whom to choose as a partner, though I thought I can choose whoever I want, I was bluepilled back then. Our teacher wanted to pair me with the girl, whom I might define as a femcel. Nobody else wanted to dance with her, neither did I, but I already saw the teacher leading her towards me, and while, I have nothing against her, though nobody ever talked to her, so I didn't like her. Then I see that other girl standing alone as well, and I'm like: "Pssst, Hey! Come here! Quick!" We then participated in contest, and after, many different people complimented us, saying how cute we look together. We started to talk lot more often.
Year later, most of my classmates thought about choosing a pair for prom, instead of exams. I had no idea about choosing somebody, because I didn't really communicate with any girl in the class. Then I had "Aha!" moment, and decided to invite the girl, whom I danced at the contest. She said that it's kind of early to decide, and asked if I'm sure I wanna dance with her, coz I might change my opinion later during the year.
I thought she agreed, because she never said no, so I thought I can forget about the prom for now.
When other guys asked me, I told them who I'm going with. At some point one guy, started to argue with me, saying that she agreed to dance with him. This guy was from her half of the class. I had good relationship with the guy, we had common music interests, so I didn't want to argue and conflict, I just wanted to make things clear.
I texted her and it seems he actually asked her about that and she actually agreed. I remember that feeling. I can't say I was heartbroken, as I still didn't develop any interest in her. I felt betrayed like a friend. I really wrapped my mind about her going with me, though I am the problematic thing in this equation, as she clearly didn't ever agree, though I believed in that. I blamed her for that and thought she's a bad friend. I asked her about the agreement few times, but she never said she is about to go with another guy, and never even said that she can't go with me. When she texted she's going with him, I just said that, it would be better if she told me in advance, that she doesn't want, or have someone to go with rather than fooling me around, which is not very nice.
Like I said, I felt betrayed, I didn't had many friends at school, mostly enemies. But I thought, she is really cool and good with me, and she's my friend. I didn't want to see her and tried to avoid her for a while even though we had to meet almost every day. When we would encounter each other, I saw her upset and guilty expression, but at the time, I would just be on my way and act like she's invisible. I wanted her to consider herself guilty and maybe become better person.
Ironically, after all of this, for the next month, I've been thinking about her all time, and that I should figure out how to fix everything so that I can feel comfortable with her again. Some time passed.
Later, we had some kind of a party at school. The teachers let us come to school at 6 pm and stay till 6 am, we had new years celebration, kind of, dance, quests, contests, etc. I was nervous, still thinking about that bitch and couldn't just have fun, so I decided to go out for a sec, breath some fresh air outside. When I got back I didn't go straight to the hall, but circled the school a little, and encountered her. I wonder, if she was actually looking for me
She asked, if she can talk to me. I said ok, go on. She actually apologized about what happened.
. I said that there's no problem, and I forgot about that. She said she wants everything to be just as before, and I said ok. She hugged me.
And finally, after a month, I could have a deep breath, and settle this situation. I thought, we are cool now, and I really had great time after. We were dancing together for the rest of the night
. We ended up in an empty classroom, though I didn't even think about that. We were lying on an armchair together to relax a little bit. I wonder if I could have some then.
When everything ended, I decided to follow her to the block, we were standing there for more than an hour, in awesome snowy weather.
I figured I'm in love only when I came home and went to sleep.
Things went downhill from there. Stupid things I remember I did was to ask her to help me with some homework, while I was best in class lol. Funny thing, the day I decided I wanna tell her about my feelings, I discovered she had a tall chadlite bf. She actually came to prom with me. And later when I was depressed coz of all this bullshit again, she came to me and asked what's wrong. I didn't know if to tell her or punch her face. I threw million of hints at her, and all this time I thought she just dumb. I figure things bit by bit, coz I'm posting here now lol.
We used to still text, although I quit social media for some time. When I was back, she asked why I wasn't online. I asked her some stupid question and she left me on read. Well fuck her, though I still like her.
It's the most Chaddish and romantic experience I ever had. I still kissless virgin though.
But in the end went out with the chad.
Common thing for most posts in this theead
I was all beta and showered her with gifts from the 9th grade all the way to the 12th grade. Protected her from crap, made sure to watch whenever she left things behind and gave it to her to show that I cared about her. Even gave her gifts every Valentine's Day.
I thought, I'm the most bluepilled thing in the world, but you can have the award for yourself broski
End of 4th grade school year. She had to leave , she was moving to another country in a couple days. On our last day together , She with teary eyes, said she loves me and I told her that I love her too , It was my first time saying it out loud. On that night , under the stars , We kissed and we promised to each other that in the future , we’ll reunite and build a life together. Switching matching necklaces as a memory , We said goodbye to one another. It’s been 8 years since then , I haven’t seen her since then and we haven’t spoken since then
Proof or didn't happen
