autisticmanchild
Freak of naturecel/ Bugmancel
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Looking at successful autists like Elon musk or mark Zuckerberg, they don't strike me as grotesque and disgusting. I have a sneaking suspicion that less ugly autists live normal lives. Ugly autists are gaslit that their social skills are bad, when really its because no one wants to talk to them because they are disgusted by looks.
Im done jumping through hoops to please anyone. My face dictates my life, and while autism may have affected my face, its ugliness primarily that destroyed me. Ive jumped through every hoop to socialize well, and the one time I got feedback it didn't even get the facts right, I was objectively more sociable than anyone else in that situation yet I was still accused of not being personable.
Thinking back throughout my life there was always one recurring theme, that people would hint that I'm ugly, but I never realized that was the real reason that was holding me back. I thought I needed to grow more and improve, then I would allowed to be normal. I didn't realize my face forced me to continue being autistic.
My face ruined my life and its not getting better. Im not even allowed to clean toilets without being bullied, cant crack jokes without people assuming the worst, thats why I will be homeless soon. Obviously cant get a roommate. But who knows, maybe this will make roping easier if it comes to it.
Im done jumping through hoops to please anyone. My face dictates my life, and while autism may have affected my face, its ugliness primarily that destroyed me. Ive jumped through every hoop to socialize well, and the one time I got feedback it didn't even get the facts right, I was objectively more sociable than anyone else in that situation yet I was still accused of not being personable.
Thinking back throughout my life there was always one recurring theme, that people would hint that I'm ugly, but I never realized that was the real reason that was holding me back. I thought I needed to grow more and improve, then I would allowed to be normal. I didn't realize my face forced me to continue being autistic.
My face ruined my life and its not getting better. Im not even allowed to clean toilets without being bullied, cant crack jokes without people assuming the worst, thats why I will be homeless soon. Obviously cant get a roommate. But who knows, maybe this will make roping easier if it comes to it.