Warning: long overly personal boring read !!
I will share my experience as an autistic retard trying to become a normie and ascend, it's going to be a bit long but i just want to share my experience with self improving and claims like "get a hobby", "get a passion" "lose weight" and other common stuff normies says and how it actually impacted my life.
For a bit of context i recently turned 20 which is still an age many would still have some hope and i started all the self improvement when i was 15.
The main reason i started self improvement was because of fear of missing out on parties and seeing all normies having cool lives while i rotted on discord with my few online friends, i wanted to have a taste of being considered normal and being loved.
I am non NT which mean i did very retarded stuff in my school years that got me bullied and an overall bad reputation which i would need to clean up and gain back.
First part, acting like i was a normalfag.
The main reason i was an outcast was being non-NT and acting out of social norms, i used to intentionally avoid other people and say retarded stuff to them because i didn't know anything about what i was supposed to do with people so to learn that i started getting close to people.
Most of the conversation i started were janky asf but surprisingly it was pretty easy to talk to normies. Or so i thought, because they always tried to get away from me, i don't believe i was making bad jokes nor being annoying, i was just doing casual talk about school shit like they would do. To make it short, i was tolerated but not appreciated, even after getting closer to some of the normies in my class i was still never spoken to, never invited to parties and such, always last in PE etc.
The only good thing is that i can get actual conversations with people and women and i can somewhat get physical language.
I think i would have more luck on that part if i just got into another school, but i live in a small city so i didn't really have any choice + my parents drove me to school and they didn't want to drive to the next school.
Second part, from obese loser to fit loser.
Another one of my main problem was being a fat fuck, like 90kg for 5ft3 fat. It was also the skinny fat type of fat, the absolute fucking worst body type and i knew it was something i needed to change. Bluepilled hope really gave me the will to actually lose weight, down to 65kg. I've also done weightlifting and calisthenics to not be a twig and have physical capabilities.
I never really was picked on because of my weight, but i knew that having a bloated face was fucking ass and that i could get at least half a point of face, and i was often mocked for my face because it looks childish and i always look like i'm way older and my height doesn't help.
I didn't really observe any changes between how people treated me when i was fat and when i was fit, i just get ignored more often than mocked but as i said i was more mocked for being weird asf. I did manage to arm wrestle mog a litechad in front of his gf one time while trying to get closer to normies, felt good man.
Third part, "the reason no women want you is because you are boring"
I totally agree with this statement, i was boring, so it's something i have worked on by getting some other hobbies other than vidya and saying the nword on internet. First hobby i tried was digital art, i always wanted to draw because i wanted to draw funny stuff for the internet groups i was in (and for porn) and also because many of the people i met were drawfags. I wouldn't say i'm good at it but i wouldn't say it's too bad, it's not really something i used i just learned some drawing when i was bored asf like anatomy, shading, basic stuff.
Nowaday i don't really draw because i don't have any will to do it, i just don't really care and i don't have any fun doing it anymore.
I'm going to quickly list out other things i've learned to be less boring:
Piano, Music composition (mostly vidya remixes, maybe should have gone for something more normie-ish but fuck it), Poetry, singing and voice acting.
Fourth part, touching grass 15 years after
The thing normies are right with is that women will never approach you if you don't approach them, which is almost correct because if you are chad you will be approached. So it was now time to graze the grass and see what it actually does.
Spoiler: It does nothing!
Most women outside are minding their own business, they really aren't looking to get interrupted, especially by any incels even if you are being polite or a fucking douche, theres a reason PUA hate exists, it's because it just doesn't work if you are genetically malformed.
The best chances i've had with women was ironically by sitting my ass on my computer chair on discord trying to get e-girls to play with me (don't worry i don't do that now and i've never paid anything to any e-whore). But in the end it's always the same script "i'm taken" "i'm not interested" "we can be friends". I will not talk about how my discussions with foids ended when i showed my face because we all know how it ended, sadly.
So, what changed?
With normies things have changed a bit, i had to move in a new school for my studies and i had a fresh start, and it's an all men class so it's pretty cool for once, they are chill and aren't trying to prove anything by bullying randoms, really happy on this because at least school is bearable now, i really wanted to drop out before because of litechads niggers.
But i still rot in my room because they live far so i can't do shit.
However i wouldn't say anything have changed with women, no matter the amount of interest they just wouldn't care. Though now i have the confirmation that nah, i never really stood any chance anyway, but it stills anger me to know that i was doomed from the start.
I would still be at the same point if i did nothing of that self improvement bullshit, and i would have fed less foid ego.
Boring shit and precisions
Thank you if you read this shitty vent, i just wanted to show normies that no, your self improving bullshit is not some miracle solution that will solve every incel problem, if the problem was to "treat women with respect" i would have got a gf before this bullshit because i never was rough torward women, i am rough with women now because why would i care about people who never cared? Even when doing everything right? incels are not retarded they are not going to insult women and treat them like objects ad a first interaction, i was listening to women problems on discord without questioning if their problems was a big deal or not.
"I am not in their shoes, how could i be sure of their feelings after all ?" Is what i blindly followed a couple of years before, unknowing that they didn't give two shits about my life.
most of incels are people who had no success in dating (duh) despite trying everything. The main reason why incels are showing hatred torward women is because they are just fed up and being edgy, most people would react like that if they were treated like subhumans their whole lives, even more so if they were proven right to what was their fear, the fear of being not like the others, a fucking outcast.
I will share my experience as an autistic retard trying to become a normie and ascend, it's going to be a bit long but i just want to share my experience with self improving and claims like "get a hobby", "get a passion" "lose weight" and other common stuff normies says and how it actually impacted my life.
For a bit of context i recently turned 20 which is still an age many would still have some hope and i started all the self improvement when i was 15.
The main reason i started self improvement was because of fear of missing out on parties and seeing all normies having cool lives while i rotted on discord with my few online friends, i wanted to have a taste of being considered normal and being loved.
I am non NT which mean i did very retarded stuff in my school years that got me bullied and an overall bad reputation which i would need to clean up and gain back.
First part, acting like i was a normalfag.
The main reason i was an outcast was being non-NT and acting out of social norms, i used to intentionally avoid other people and say retarded stuff to them because i didn't know anything about what i was supposed to do with people so to learn that i started getting close to people.
Most of the conversation i started were janky asf but surprisingly it was pretty easy to talk to normies. Or so i thought, because they always tried to get away from me, i don't believe i was making bad jokes nor being annoying, i was just doing casual talk about school shit like they would do. To make it short, i was tolerated but not appreciated, even after getting closer to some of the normies in my class i was still never spoken to, never invited to parties and such, always last in PE etc.
The only good thing is that i can get actual conversations with people and women and i can somewhat get physical language.
I think i would have more luck on that part if i just got into another school, but i live in a small city so i didn't really have any choice + my parents drove me to school and they didn't want to drive to the next school.
Second part, from obese loser to fit loser.
Another one of my main problem was being a fat fuck, like 90kg for 5ft3 fat. It was also the skinny fat type of fat, the absolute fucking worst body type and i knew it was something i needed to change. Bluepilled hope really gave me the will to actually lose weight, down to 65kg. I've also done weightlifting and calisthenics to not be a twig and have physical capabilities.
I never really was picked on because of my weight, but i knew that having a bloated face was fucking ass and that i could get at least half a point of face, and i was often mocked for my face because it looks childish and i always look like i'm way older and my height doesn't help.
I didn't really observe any changes between how people treated me when i was fat and when i was fit, i just get ignored more often than mocked but as i said i was more mocked for being weird asf. I did manage to arm wrestle mog a litechad in front of his gf one time while trying to get closer to normies, felt good man.
Third part, "the reason no women want you is because you are boring"
I totally agree with this statement, i was boring, so it's something i have worked on by getting some other hobbies other than vidya and saying the nword on internet. First hobby i tried was digital art, i always wanted to draw because i wanted to draw funny stuff for the internet groups i was in (and for porn) and also because many of the people i met were drawfags. I wouldn't say i'm good at it but i wouldn't say it's too bad, it's not really something i used i just learned some drawing when i was bored asf like anatomy, shading, basic stuff.
Nowaday i don't really draw because i don't have any will to do it, i just don't really care and i don't have any fun doing it anymore.
I'm going to quickly list out other things i've learned to be less boring:
Piano, Music composition (mostly vidya remixes, maybe should have gone for something more normie-ish but fuck it), Poetry, singing and voice acting.
Fourth part, touching grass 15 years after
The thing normies are right with is that women will never approach you if you don't approach them, which is almost correct because if you are chad you will be approached. So it was now time to graze the grass and see what it actually does.
Spoiler: It does nothing!
Most women outside are minding their own business, they really aren't looking to get interrupted, especially by any incels even if you are being polite or a fucking douche, theres a reason PUA hate exists, it's because it just doesn't work if you are genetically malformed.
The best chances i've had with women was ironically by sitting my ass on my computer chair on discord trying to get e-girls to play with me (don't worry i don't do that now and i've never paid anything to any e-whore). But in the end it's always the same script "i'm taken" "i'm not interested" "we can be friends". I will not talk about how my discussions with foids ended when i showed my face because we all know how it ended, sadly.
So, what changed?
With normies things have changed a bit, i had to move in a new school for my studies and i had a fresh start, and it's an all men class so it's pretty cool for once, they are chill and aren't trying to prove anything by bullying randoms, really happy on this because at least school is bearable now, i really wanted to drop out before because of litechads niggers.
But i still rot in my room because they live far so i can't do shit.
However i wouldn't say anything have changed with women, no matter the amount of interest they just wouldn't care. Though now i have the confirmation that nah, i never really stood any chance anyway, but it stills anger me to know that i was doomed from the start.
I would still be at the same point if i did nothing of that self improvement bullshit, and i would have fed less foid ego.
Boring shit and precisions
Thank you if you read this shitty vent, i just wanted to show normies that no, your self improving bullshit is not some miracle solution that will solve every incel problem, if the problem was to "treat women with respect" i would have got a gf before this bullshit because i never was rough torward women, i am rough with women now because why would i care about people who never cared? Even when doing everything right? incels are not retarded they are not going to insult women and treat them like objects ad a first interaction, i was listening to women problems on discord without questioning if their problems was a big deal or not.
"I am not in their shoes, how could i be sure of their feelings after all ?" Is what i blindly followed a couple of years before, unknowing that they didn't give two shits about my life.
most of incels are people who had no success in dating (duh) despite trying everything. The main reason why incels are showing hatred torward women is because they are just fed up and being edgy, most people would react like that if they were treated like subhumans their whole lives, even more so if they were proven right to what was their fear, the fear of being not like the others, a fucking outcast.
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