Everyone had it better socially than me, like in highschool; everyone had actual friends who didn't talk behind your back; EXCEPT me, I was always the punching bag and joke of the group even among some of my "friends" who were uglier than me(I'm still ugly), all for the sake of being ND, being ND(and ugly) has fucked my life up so much; that I cannot name every single thing that it has affected in my life. It has genuinely made everything shit, I was also every once in a while getting laughed at by the entire class when I said some retarded question; because I thought it was a good idea to become a clown to atleast get some attention from normies, wich in the end was worse because it was negative attention, and everyone probably started thinking lesser of me, worsening my already bad reputation that made it near impossible for others to see me as anything else than a joke.
After I left school because of the shame I had when I became somewhat self-aware of my behavior, I then lost contact with my "friends" after that, since they didn't really care to keep hanging out with me. After this wich was when I was around 16; I resorted to rotting in Youtube and games to pass the time, this was the same for the following years, till when I was 19 and found out about this forum; I still mostly spend time doing the same things as before but I also spend a lot of time lurking here, it's a nice way to pass the time, I wonder how many people here also had similar experiences about highschool, I actually think I was the ONLY person who was bullied in class, and I still hung around with the people who made fun of me because it was "better" than just being alone, I hope atleast someone here relates, nomgroids hate us for being ND; being ND is hell.
After I left school because of the shame I had when I became somewhat self-aware of my behavior, I then lost contact with my "friends" after that, since they didn't really care to keep hanging out with me. After this wich was when I was around 16; I resorted to rotting in Youtube and games to pass the time, this was the same for the following years, till when I was 19 and found out about this forum; I still mostly spend time doing the same things as before but I also spend a lot of time lurking here, it's a nice way to pass the time, I wonder how many people here also had similar experiences about highschool, I actually think I was the ONLY person who was bullied in class, and I still hung around with the people who made fun of me because it was "better" than just being alone, I hope atleast someone here relates, nomgroids hate us for being ND; being ND is hell.
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