Serious (Probably) The Final Post on the Aftermath of the Fitxfearless Humilation.

[Sasukecel]

I said I would make last posts many times, I don't know the future. I think this will be the last post on it, because it is getting repetitive obsessing over it. There has to be a plan/solution that I follow to adapt to this big failure.

I'm aware my plan might sound "cringe" to a normie.

I'm not going to rope and I'm not going to go ER.

I was thinking "The people at my University campus all see me as an embarassment. My old classmates, the public." But I could just avoid all of them. I don't have to talk to any of my classmates, I don't even have to go to the lecture hall because the recordings are online. I don't have to go to parties, I don't have to go to events. I can hide from the public irl, and I will hide from the public irl for the rest of my life. What does the public have to give me? Humilation? Then just avoid the public. I had no friends from grade 9 - 12, so I just won't have friends now.

"Hiding in real life, present online", is my motto because I haven't given up on the goals I had when I was 16. I'm just adapting to the situation. Avoid the public, but still go to the gym, still keep applying to jobs and start learning skills on the side to moneymax, still study and stay in University, but just avoid the general public because the permanent consequences are I'm a public humilation. Stay inside unless I "have to" go outside. With a new identity or new country, I'm still a public humilation, so hide from the public in whatever country I am. Go undercover for the rest of my life.

I naturally have a goofy/immature personality, which I'm trying to suppress. Because I want to reject happiness if happiness is a cope. To change my personality, I have a regime I want to follow. Work on something and use watching gore as a reward, sleep, repeat.

That sounds cringe and stupid, but watching gore gives me motivation to do work I don't want to do. Yesterday I was studying calculus, then after every 1 hour, I would look at gore for 5 minutes as a reward, then I would study for an hour, then read about suicides. That's weird but if I do that for a long enough period of time, I will desensitize my brain to never smile or laugh which is my goal, and I'll make progress in the goals I have. I don't want to wake up in the morning, when i wake up in the morning, so I scroll gore on reddit as a reward. I get ready, I look at gore. I study, I look at gore. I work out, then I look at gore. I use watching gore as a reward for doing work needed to pursue my goals. "Waching gore is a waste of time", but it gives me strong motivation because I hate doing work, but looking at gore gives me as much as a high as looking at porn making me strongly motivated to do the work needed quickly so I can look at gore. I plan to follow the regime of "Do work, then watch gore, repeat" daily, and I believe through desensitizing myself by watching gore daily, it will desensitize my brain to emotions and make me more sociopathic over time, which is what I want because I want to have only hateful and serious thoughts. I want to be completely change my personality from the one on the FItxfearless call.

TLDR: The aftermath of the situation is I accept the fact that I'm a global humilation, so I'll simply avoid the public IRL for the rest of my life. I didn't give up on the goals I had, and for motivation to do the work, I'll watch gore as a reward for doing work. I will also change my personality, to ensure that I never experience positive emotions because I don't want to be happy when happiness is a cope because living is still torture and unfair. To be happy in a situation of unfairness, is basically accepting that unfairness.

I'm well aware that it might sound "cringe" or "Schizo", but that's the genuine plan to adapt to the situation I'm in. I don't want to be the same person I was on the Fitxfearless call, so I'm changing my personality to be a serious militant emo who never smiles, avoids the public and just works and looks at morbid things all day. Even if I move to a different country, I'll still hide from the public because the consequences of going on that call is to forever go undercover in real life for the rest of my life.

This is the genuine plan that will not change until my death.

 

[InsidiousMerchant]

Reading this.

 

[LGBTKoala]

nigga order kratom rn you need to see things from a diff perspective

 

[InsidiousMerchant]

The aftermath of the situation is I accept the fact that I'm a global humilation, so I'll simply avoid the public IRL for the rest of my life. I didn't give up on the goals I had, and for motivation to do the work, I'll watch gore as a reward for doing work. I will also change my personality, to ensure that I never experience positive emotions because I don't want to be happy when happiness is a cope because living is still torture and unfair. To be happy in a situation of unfairness, is basically accepting that unfairness.

I think you're overdoing at this point, brocel.

 

[SubhumanGamer]

Kill him

 

[InsidiousMerchant]

I'm not going to rope and I'm not going to go ER.

I was thinking "The people at my University campus all see me as an embarassment. My old classmates, the public." But I could just avoid all of them. I don't have to talk to any of my classmates, I don't even have to go to the lecture hall because the recordings are online. I don't have to go to parties, I don't have to go to events. I can hide from the public irl, and I will hide from the public irl for the rest of my life. What does the public have to give me? Humilation? Then just avoid the public. I had no friends from grade 9 - 12, so I just won't have friends now.

"Hiding in real life, present online", is my motto because I haven't given up on the goals I had when I was 16. I'm just adapting to the situation. Avoid the public, but still go to the gym, still keep applying to jobs and start learning skills on the side to moneymax, still study and stay in University, but just avoid the general public because the permanent consequences are I'm a public humilation. Stay inside unless I "have to" go outside. With a new identity or new country, I'm still a public humilation, so hide from the public in whatever country I am. Go undercover for the rest of my life.

Good.

I naturally have a goofy/immature personality, which I'm trying to suppress. Because I want to reject happiness if happiness is a cope. To change my personality, I have a regime I want to follow. Work on something and use watching gore as a reward, sleep, repeat.

I'm a slave to my personality. I can't change it. I just wear different faces for different people. Nobody has to understand me. I'm not special.

That sounds cringe and stupid, but watching gore gives me motivation to do work I don't want to do. Yesterday I was studying calculus, then after every 1 hour, I would look at gore for 5 minutes as a reward, then I would study for an hour, then read about suicides. That's weird but if I do that for a long enough period of time, I will desensitize my brain to never smile or laugh which is my goal, and I'll make progress in the goals I have. I don't want to wake up in the morning, when i wake up in the morning, so I scroll gore on reddit as a reward. I get ready, I look at gore. I study, I look at gore. I work out, then I look at gore. I use watching gore as a reward for doing work needed to pursue my goals. "Waching gore is a waste of time", but it gives me strong motivation because I hate doing work, but looking at gore gives me as much as a high as looking at porn making me strongly motivated to do the work needed quickly so I can look at gore. I plan to follow the regime of "Do work, then watch gore, repeat" daily, and I believe through desensitizing myself by watching gore daily, it will desensitize my brain to emotions and make me more sociopathic over time, which is what I want because I want to have only hateful and serious thoughts. I want to be completely change my personality from the one on the FItxfearless call.

I'm not sure what to make of this, Sasuke. Can you let me know if it has any merits a month from now in PMs?

This is the genuine plan that will not change until my death.

 

[Kina Hikikomori]

Everyone copes in their own way.

 

[psyop]

 

[Orzmund]

"Hiding in real life, present online", is my motto

Work on something and use watching gore as a reward, sleep, repeat.

I believe through desensitizing myself by watching gore daily, it will desensitize my brain to emotions and make me more sociopathic over time, which is what I want because I want to have only hateful and serious thoughts.

Yes. To unlock the power of the sharingan you must embrace hatred in its fullest affect. Once you accomplish this, true force of will shall be yours to command.

 

[daydreamER]

Good luck on your plan, brocel, though I am sure it will experience changes later on.

You are obviously very mentally unstable. If you want to ever talk you can message me.

 

[Esoteric7]

this guy has officially lost the plot

 

[Incline]

Dose on benzos and supervillianmaxx in ur school

Dark triadmaxx


View: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=r_nYf8dgbRw

 

[Sasukecel]

nigga order kratom rn you need to see things from a diff perspective

There is no other perspective.

I'm a wordwide public humiliation. The answer is to hide from the irl public for the rest of my life.

 

[LGBTKoala]

There is no other perspective.

I'm a wordwide public humiliation. The answer is to hide from the irl public for the rest of my life.

why arent you considering moving elsewhere? why not just go all in and live a crazy fucked up life instead of rotting in your house or hiding from everybody? go move to thailand or something

 

[Sasukecel]

I think you're overdoing at this point, brocel.

Because my life is genuinely over. It's either this or killing myself, but I'm never going to kill myself or go ER.

Rewatch the videos over and over again, until you realize how humiliating that I'm exposed to the entire public as a humilation. "I've done fucked up." There's no point in going in public now.


View: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hFDs4-bSO8U


View: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GQIv2VEbxrw


I'll forever hide from the in real life public. There's no point in even going to my University Campus.

 

[Sasukecel]

this guy has officially lost the plot

If I didn't, I would have killed myself. No rational person gets humiliated for millions to see, then doesn't kill themselves. It's psychological torture to be mocked and humilated in front of millions and millions of people.

I won't lie. I am fucking crazy, but because my life is fucking over. That's why I have to hide from the irl public for the rest of my life. I will always be undercover.

 

[Sasukecel]

Good.

I'm a slave to my personality. I can't change it. I just wear different faces for different people. Nobody has to understand me. I'm not special.

I'm not sure what to make of this, Sasuke. Can you let me know if it has any merits a month from now in PMs?

It's a permanent plan I've thought of. I'll let you know in a month.

I have to change my personality, because if I don't, I'll probably kill myself, because my emotional state will fluctuate too much, but if I always feel shit, then it's predictable. If I pretend to be happy, then I'll have more mental breakdowns. But if I accept that I will never be happy, always on edge, never smile ever, then when I am depressed, it's the same as my natural state, so it's predictable therefore controllable.

It makes logical sense, because I'm a global public humilation. What rational reason is there to go out in public? I'm going down this edgelord emo path, what rational reason is there for happiness, when my life will get worse over time?

It doesn't make sense to change my mind.

This is the consequence of my stupidity, for listening to the people telling me to go on that call. I am a global public humilation, and I can never be happy again, so I will hide from the public irl. There's no parties, events, friendships, "university experience" because this is the consequence of my own stupid actions.

 

[Sasukecel]

Everyone copes in their own way.

Correct. This is a cope, but the most rational one in my point of view. I could go ER, but I would just be a further disappointment. I could rope, and it would lead to nothing. I could try to forget it happened, pretend to be a normie, and get humilated even further.

Or I can accept the consequences of going on that call, and never go out in public ever again, and when I do go in public, I'll always be undercover. Hiding from the in real life public for the rest of my life is the path I have to take.

 

[Sasukecel]

Yes. To unlock the power of the sharingan you must embrace hatred in its fullest affect. Once you accomplish this, true force of will shall be yours to command.

I do have to embrace hatred in full effect. Pretending to be happy is irrational in an unfair world. Am I happy about the fact that I'm a public global humilation who's ugly and had a shit life? Obviously not, so why would I pretend to be?

I don't have power. If I had power, I would go out in public, trying to change society. But that's impossible. So instead, I'll avoid society. I'm like a redpilled seed becoming more blackpilled over time. I accept the facf that the public will never accept a public humilation "no matter how much I try" so avoid the public. My classmates will always laugh at me so avoid my classmates. Avoid the people at my University.

Go undercover in real life and avoid everyone I know for the rest of my life is the conclusion.

 

[Sasukecel]

Good luck on your plan, brocel, though I am sure it will experience changes later on.

You are obviously very mentally unstable. If you want to ever talk you can message me.

What would change? I'll always be a public humilation, so I should always hide from the public in real life. That makes rational sense in my head.

I am mentally unstable. "Talking about it", "Therapy" is all a scam, because it won't change reality. The truth is no matter what "mental health procedure I do", no matter how hard I try, the world is unfair and I'll always be a public humilation who's forced to hide away from the in real life public. I don't want to be humilated then fade out of obscurity, which is why I want to document my life on the internet because I'll have no friends or family to talk about me after my death. The only information about me and my goals and my struggles will be on the internet, after I die.

That's why I'll hide in real life and be public online, because if I hide in real life and hide online, then I'll be a humilation who faded into obscurity and I would probably rope because I would be insignificant trash who's experienced a world of pain and died whilst being laughed at by the entire world. I'll still be known, because I don't want the fitxfearless video to be the only thing that represents me, that would be hell, but no one who I knew in real life would see me irl.

 

[Sasukecel]

Dose on benzos and supervillianmaxx in ur school

Dark triadmaxx


View: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=r_nYf8dgbRw

Darktriadmax outside of my school.

I'm not going to even go to my University unless I have to go to maintain a grade so I can pass. I don't want to bring attention to myself in real life, I'll only go out in public when it's absolutely necessary and I'll always be undercover, not wearing bright clothes, trying to blend in so no one recognizes me.

I'm completely skipping the "University experience", and people will still know me in my University from the FItxfearless video, but they'll have trouble finding me in real life.

 

[Chang.Beijing]

I said I would make last posts many times, I don't know the future. I think this will be the last post on it, because it is getting repetitive obsessing over it. There has to be a plan/solution that I follow to adapt to this big failure.

I'm aware my plan might sound "cringe" to a normie.

I'm not going to rope and I'm not going to go ER.

I was thinking "The people at my University campus all see me as an embarassment. My old classmates, the public." But I could just avoid all of them. I don't have to talk to any of my classmates, I don't even have to go to the lecture hall because the recordings are online. I don't have to go to parties, I don't have to go to events. I can hide from the public irl, and I will hide from the public irl for the rest of my life. What does the public have to give me? Humilation? Then just avoid the public. I had no friends from grade 9 - 12, so I just won't have friends now.

"Hiding in real life, present online", is my motto because I haven't given up on the goals I had when I was 16. I'm just adapting to the situation. Avoid the public, but still go to the gym, still keep applying to jobs and start learning skills on the side to moneymax, still study and stay in University, but just avoid the general public because the permanent consequences are I'm a public humilation. Stay inside unless I "have to" go outside. With a new identity or new country, I'm still a public humilation, so hide from the public in whatever country I am. Go undercover for the rest of my life.

I naturally have a goofy/immature personality, which I'm trying to suppress. Because I want to reject happiness if happiness is a cope. To change my personality, I have a regime I want to follow. Work on something and use watching gore as a reward, sleep, repeat.

That sounds cringe and stupid, but watching gore gives me motivation to do work I don't want to do. Yesterday I was studying calculus, then after every 1 hour, I would look at gore for 5 minutes as a reward, then I would study for an hour, then read about suicides. That's weird but if I do that for a long enough period of time, I will desensitize my brain to never smile or laugh which is my goal, and I'll make progress in the goals I have. I don't want to wake up in the morning, when i wake up in the morning, so I scroll gore on reddit as a reward. I get ready, I look at gore. I study, I look at gore. I work out, then I look at gore. I use watching gore as a reward for doing work needed to pursue my goals. "Waching gore is a waste of time", but it gives me strong motivation because I hate doing work, but looking at gore gives me as much as a high as looking at porn making me strongly motivated to do the work needed quickly so I can look at gore. I plan to follow the regime of "Do work, then watch gore, repeat" daily, and I believe through desensitizing myself by watching gore daily, it will desensitize my brain to emotions and make me more sociopathic over time, which is what I want because I want to have only hateful and serious thoughts. I want to be completely change my personality from the one on the FItxfearless call.

TLDR: The aftermath of the situation is I accept the fact that I'm a global humilation, so I'll simply avoid the public IRL for the rest of my life. I didn't give up on the goals I had, and for motivation to do the work, I'll watch gore as a reward for doing work. I will also change my personality, to ensure that I never experience positive emotions because I don't want to be happy when happiness is a cope because living is still torture and unfair. To be happy in a situation of unfairness, is basically accepting that unfairness.

I'm well aware that it might sound "cringe" or "Schizo", but that's the genuine plan to adapt to the situation I'm in. I don't want to be the same person I was on the Fitxfearless call, so I'm changing my personality to be a serious militant emo who never smiles, avoids the public and just works and looks at morbid things all day. Even if I move to a different country, I'll still hide from the public because the consequences of going on that call is to forever go undercover in real life for the rest of my life.

This is the genuine plan that will not change until my death.

Beyond non nt. Intellau celistic tier mental

 

[Chang.Beijing]

There is no other perspective.

I'm a wordwide public humiliation. The answer is to hide from the irl public for the rest of my life.

No you’re not. People are gonna forget about it eventually, and those who will remember will laugh it off as a joke. Just enjoy life right now and I wish the best for you. What’s really stopping you is being autistic and short.

 

[SamuelJackson]

It really isn't that deep

 

[Sasukecel]

why arent you considering moving elsewhere? why not just go all in and live a crazy fucked up life instead of rotting in your house or hiding from everybody? go move to thailand or something

It doesn't really matter what country I live in because I'm a global public humilation. If I go to the USA right now, there's still comments under the Fitxfearless videos laughing at me. If I go to China, i still get humilted. If I go to Thailand, Africa, it doesn't matter where I go, I am forever a global public humilation.

Therefore, I should hide from the in real life public wherever I go. Go undercover until my death.

If you mean gambling, partying, having fun, things of that sort, that would be a cope, because "having fun" is a cope. The world is forever unfair and my life will forever be shit. "Pretending to have fun" as a truecel is cope. I acknowledge that fact, so I force myself to be unhappy because I know I will die unhappy.

I'm not rotting, but hiding from the in real life public. I permanently fucked up my life, therefore I will not be seen in the real life public.

 

[Sasukecel]

Beyond non nt. Intellau celistic tier mental

I'm well aware I'm crazy. It's the consequence of ruining my life by going on that call. I want to become sociopathic, to the point where I never smile or laugh, just accepting the brutal unfair nature of this world infinitely.

I want to be as unhappy as possible, because pretending to be happy is cope, when the world is unfair, and my life is forever ruined and I will forever be a public humilation.

 

[Chang.Beijing]

I'm well aware I'm crazy. It's the consequence of ruining my life by going on that call. I want to become sociopathic, to the point where I never smile or laugh, just accepting the brutal unfair nature of this world infinitely.

I want to be as unhappy as possible, because pretending to be happy is cope, when the world is unfair, and my life is forever ruined and I will forever be a public humilation.

You don’t need to. Just cope till u cant anymore. If this cope works for you then good, But it sounds like shit.

 

[jbwbeliever]

I hope u can get pass humiliation u suffer boyo, its your head that make u feel this way. maybe one day u can stop thinking about the vid and be able to live normally again

 

[Sasukecel]

No you’re not. People are gonna forget about it eventually, and those who will remember will laugh it off as a joke. Just enjoy life right now and I wish the best for you. What’s really stopping you is being autistic and short.

"as a joke."

I am seen to the world as a global joke, a global humilation.

"Enjoy life right now is cope", because I am a truecel who has been humilated by the entire world. I accept the blackpill in which someone in my circumstance could never be genuinely happy, therefore I reject happiness because I know happiness is cope.

If you pretend to be happy, that means you're happy with your situation. Am I happy with the fact that I'm a global public humilation and the world was unfair to me? No. So why pretend. What's stopping me from being accepted from the public is being nonNT, short, ugly, global humilation. I accept the brutality of the world, which is why I'll hide from the public and never pretend to be happy.

 

[Sasukecel]

I hope u can get pass humiliation u suffer boyo, its your head that make u feel this way. maybe one day u can stop thinking about the vid and be able to live normally again

I can never live normally ever, because the world is brutal. I fucked up, I'm a global humilation, ugly, short, autistic, the blackpill is brutal.

I accept pain and unhappiness because they're the only genuine emotions I can feel. With my shitty life, it's rational to feel shit. Happiness and laughter are cope and lies therefore I refuse to accept copes like happiness and laughter.

It's not my head, but objective reality. To hide from the in real life world for the rest of my life is the consequence.

 

[daydreamER]

What would change? I'll always be a public humilation, so I should always hide from the public in real life. That makes rational sense in my head.

I am mentally unstable. "Talking about it", "Therapy" is all a scam, because it won't change reality. The truth is no matter what "mental health procedure I do", no matter how hard I try, the world is unfair and I'll always be a public humilation who's forced to hide away from the in real life public. I don't want to be humilated then fade out of obscurity, which is why I want to document my life on the internet because I'll have no friends or family to talk about me after my death. The only information about me and my goals and my struggles will be on the internet, after I die.

That's why I'll hide in real life and be public online, because if I hide in real life and hide online, then I'll be a humilation who faded into obscurity and I would probably rope because I would be insignificant trash who's experienced a world of pain and died whilst being laughed at by the entire world. I'll still be known, because I don't want the fitxfearless video to be the only thing that represents me, that would be hell, but no one who I knew in real life would see me irl.

Brother, no one remembers the fitxfearless video. No one recognizes you. This sounds bluepilled but ignore that video and move on with your life. Just have a normal university experience. Try NTmaxxing, try making friends. No one remembers that video man.

 

[Orzmund]

Go undercover in real life and avoid everyone I know for the rest of my life is the conclusion.

Unclouded intuitions like this will instigate superior jurisprudence and comprehension. There's no hope in flattering others in an attempt to befriend them, or even persuading them of the injustices and indecency observed thus far. Living as a hermit is the optimal solution to the social problem as it stands in modernity. Yet, compulsion to ask the most prying question defiles the purest intentions for such inquiry: what will you do with your solitude?

 

[Orzmund]

Brother, no one remembers the fitxfearless video. No one recognizes you. This sounds bluepilled but ignore that video and move on with your life. Just have a normal university experience. Try NTmaxxing, try making friends. No one remembers that video man.

No, I believe him now. I have gone through something similar before... His contemporaries definitely remember his foolish ordeal, and should he persist in vainly trying to clear his name they will encourage his stupidity for their cruel amusement. Self-alienation is the only recourse he has.

 

[Undervalued]

What would change? I'll always be a public humilation, so I should always hide from the public in real life. That makes rational sense in my head.

I am mentally unstable. "Talking about it", "Therapy" is all a scam, because it won't change reality. The truth is no matter what "mental health procedure I do", no matter how hard I try, the world is unfair and I'll always be a public humilation who's forced to hide away from the in real life public. I don't want to be humilated then fade out of obscurity, which is why I want to document my life on the internet because I'll have no friends or family to talk about me after my death. The only information about me and my goals and my struggles will be on the internet, after I die.

That's why I'll hide in real life and be public online, because if I hide in real life and hide online, then I'll be a humilation who faded into obscurity and I would probably rope because I would be insignificant trash who's experienced a world of pain and died whilst being laughed at by the entire world. I'll still be known, because I don't want the fitxfearless video to be the only thing that represents me, that would be hell, but no one who I knew in real life would see me irl.

People forget things very quickly. Don't worry. You'll be fine after a few years.

Because my life is genuinely over. It's either this or killing myself, but I'm never going to kill myself or go ER.

Rewatch the videos over and over again, until you realize how humiliating that I'm exposed to the entire public as a humilation. "I've done fucked up." There's no point in going in public now.


View: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hFDs4-bSO8U


View: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GQIv2VEbxrw


I'll forever hide from the in real life public. There's no point in even going to my University Campus.

Damn. You sound like a twerp. This probably how I come off to others.

Facially you aren't the worst, though. And you have the face of a tall person if that makes sense. If you are tall, try cold approaching. I'm going to get raped for saying this, but there are some MTBs you could get. You've gotta remember foids in your generation were stuck at home for 3 years (lockdown period). Some could have glowed down and become less sure of themselves.

 

[forwhombell]

Everyone copes in their own way.

This is the best cope someone can possibly have. Trying to start a real movement to change things.

 

[Sasukecel]

People forget things very quickly. Don't worry. You'll be fine after a few years.

Damn. You sound like a twerp. This probably how I come off to others.

Facially you aren't the worst, though. And you have the face of a tall person if that makes sense. If you are tall, try cold approaching. I'm going to get raped for saying this, but there are some MTBs you could get. You've gotta remember foids in your generation were stuck at home for 3 years (lockdown period). Some could have glowed down and become less sure of themselves.

The internet is forever, so the video will always be up. Even in 5 years, the video will be getting views. The consequences are permanent, so I'll forever hide from the real life public.

I sound like a twerp because it's a public humilation, that proves my point of how humiliating the video was. It doesn't make sense for me now to go out in public which is why it makes sense to hide from the irl public for the rest of my life.

I'm 5'7, and the thing is I became more of an "incel" after Fitxfearless made that video. Because before I was ugly, unknown, but now I'm ugly and a global humilation in front of millions of people. If I got into a relationship now, hypothetically, it wouldn't take long for her to see the viral video which takes only 2 words to find on Youtube. Now I'm really fucked in all areas, social, financial, so it completely fucked up my life.

There's no point in going out in irl public so hiding from the public is the most rational path to take.

 

[Defetivecuckachu]

Beyond non nt. Intellau celistic tier mental

I wouldn't go that far. At least nigga here knows how to have a respectful conversation in English. Intellau communicates solely thru the medium of roblox forum screenshots. Nobody else is operating anywhere near his level, he's in a class of his own.

 

[kay']

I said I would make last posts many times, I don't know the future. I think this will be the last post on it, because it is getting repetitive obsessing over it. There has to be a plan/solution that I follow to adapt to this big failure.

I'm aware my plan might sound "cringe" to a normie.

I'm not going to rope and I'm not going to go ER.

I was thinking "The people at my University campus all see me as an embarassment. My old classmates, the public." But I could just avoid all of them. I don't have to talk to any of my classmates, I don't even have to go to the lecture hall because the recordings are online. I don't have to go to parties, I don't have to go to events. I can hide from the public irl, and I will hide from the public irl for the rest of my life. What does the public have to give me? Humilation? Then just avoid the public. I had no friends from grade 9 - 12, so I just won't have friends now.

"Hiding in real life, present online", is my motto because I haven't given up on the goals I had when I was 16. I'm just adapting to the situation. Avoid the public, but still go to the gym, still keep applying to jobs and start learning skills on the side to moneymax, still study and stay in University, but just avoid the general public because the permanent consequences are I'm a public humilation. Stay inside unless I "have to" go outside. With a new identity or new country, I'm still a public humilation, so hide from the public in whatever country I am. Go undercover for the rest of my life.

I naturally have a goofy/immature personality, which I'm trying to suppress. Because I want to reject happiness if happiness is a cope. To change my personality, I have a regime I want to follow. Work on something and use watching gore as a reward, sleep, repeat.

That sounds cringe and stupid, but watching gore gives me motivation to do work I don't want to do. Yesterday I was studying calculus, then after every 1 hour, I would look at gore for 5 minutes as a reward, then I would study for an hour, then read about suicides. That's weird but if I do that for a long enough period of time, I will desensitize my brain to never smile or laugh which is my goal, and I'll make progress in the goals I have. I don't want to wake up in the morning, when i wake up in the morning, so I scroll gore on reddit as a reward. I get ready, I look at gore. I study, I look at gore. I work out, then I look at gore. I use watching gore as a reward for doing work needed to pursue my goals. "Waching gore is a waste of time", but it gives me strong motivation because I hate doing work, but looking at gore gives me as much as a high as looking at porn making me strongly motivated to do the work needed quickly so I can look at gore. I plan to follow the regime of "Do work, then watch gore, repeat" daily, and I believe through desensitizing myself by watching gore daily, it will desensitize my brain to emotions and make me more sociopathic over time, which is what I want because I want to have only hateful and serious thoughts. I want to be completely change my personality from the one on the FItxfearless call.

TLDR: The aftermath of the situation is I accept the fact that I'm a global humilation, so I'll simply avoid the public IRL for the rest of my life. I didn't give up on the goals I had, and for motivation to do the work, I'll watch gore as a reward for doing work. I will also change my personality, to ensure that I never experience positive emotions because I don't want to be happy when happiness is a cope because living is still torture and unfair. To be happy in a situation of unfairness, is basically accepting that unfairness.

I'm well aware that it might sound "cringe" or "Schizo", but that's the genuine plan to adapt to the situation I'm in. I don't want to be the same person I was on the Fitxfearless call, so I'm changing my personality to be a serious militant emo who never smiles, avoids the public and just works and looks at morbid things all day. Even if I move to a different country, I'll still hide from the public because the consequences of going on that call is to forever go undercover in real life for the rest of my life.

This is the genuine plan that will not change until my death.

Good luck with that

 

[Sasukecel]

This is the best cope someone can possibly have. Trying to start a real movement to change things.

I didn't give up on the goals I have, but I have to adapt.

Maybe this is cope, but I might have more time, because the University experience, friendships, events, clubs, parties, I'm missing out on all of that because I disassociate myself with the people irl. I'm a public humilation, so I'm avoiding the public.

 

[Undervalued]

The internet is forever, so the video will always be up. Even in 5 years, the video will be getting views. The consequences are permanent, so I'll forever hide from the real life public.

I sound like a twerp because it's a public humilation, that proves how humiliating the video was. It doesn't make sense for me now to go out in public which is why it makes sense to hide from the irl public for the rest of my life.

I'm 5'7, and the thing is I became more of an "incel" after Fitxfearless made that video. Because before I was ugly, unknown, but now I'm ugly and a global humilation in front of millions of people. If I got into a relationship now, hypothetically, it wouldn't take long for her to see the viral video which takes only 2 words to find on Youtube. Now I'm really fucked in all areas, social, financial, so it completely fucked up my life.

There's no point in going out in irl public so hiding from the public is the most rational path to take.

Calm down. People your age will be job hunting soon and will progressively have much less free time as they get older.

No one watches him other than teens and young men in their early 20s. Almost zero chance the average woman will ever stumble across that video.

 

[Defetivecuckachu]

I was thinking "The people at my University campus all see me as an embarassment. My old classmates, the public.

"TLDR: The aftermath of the situation is I accept the fact that I'm a global humilation, so I'll simply avoid the public IRL for the rest of my life.

I like you man. But real talk: you have main character syndrome on a GRAND scale.

The average person in the street HASN'T seen these shitty negative video clips that exist in a certain corner of the chinktok watching zoomer sphere. You're NOT an infamous global sensation.

personality, I have a regime I want to follow.

Good shit man. An incel's own self is all he has, you are on the right path if you have a goal and you are continuing to work towards it.

Work on something and use watching gore as a reward, sleep, repeat.

Don't do that. Watching gore won't make you better.

 

[Sasukecel]

Calm down. People your age will be job-hunting soon and will progressively have much less free time as they get older.

No one watches him other than teens and young men in their early 20s. Almost zero chance the average woman will ever stumble across that video.

There's missing context points.

I was coerced to go on the Fitxfearless people by people in a discord server, they told me to ask him about plastic surgery and they told me to say I'm 21 because the livestream was 21 and up.

When I did the call I was 17, I turned 18 in July. The girls my age are sucking cock because they're 1st year University students, and the men my age are studying and going to parties probably.

When the video went viral, it was on everyone's instagram, women in their 60's, men, kids, it was globally viral. 4 - 5 million views is the total view count on all platforms, there's a chance the average woman where I live could see it, and someone could find it and easily send it to them, that's even if I get a woman in the future.

Facially you aren't the worst, though.

I'm also sub3. When I smile, I look like a faggot, which is why emomaxxing is needed, I should always have a serious face. I'm fucking ugly.

 

[Undervalued]

There's missing context points.

I was coerced to go on the Fitxfearless people by people in a discord server, they told me to ask him about plastic surgery and they told me to say I'm 21 because the livestream was 21 and up.

When I did the call I was 17, I turned 18 in July. The girls my age are sucking cock because they're 1st year University students, and the men my age are studying and going to parties probably.

Like I said, bro, wait a few years. Shit WILL die down.

When the video went viral, it was on everyone's instagram, women in their 60's, men, kids, it was globally viral. 4 - 5 million views is the total view count on all platforms, there's a chance the average woman where I live could see it, and someone could find it and easily send it to them, that's even if I get a woman in the future.

What you said wasn't too bad. You haven't said anything you can't explain away. Looksmaxxing is a semi-viral thing now + the depression and not approaching thing is not uncommon. You just came off as a depressed, somewhat ugly Black guy.

 

[Wombles The Roastie]

You have a very slanted face

There's missing context points.

I was coerced to go on the Fitxfearless people by people in a discord server, they told me to ask him about plastic surgery and they told me to say I'm 21 because the livestream was 21 and up.

When I did the call I was 17, I turned 18 in July. The girls my age are sucking cock because they're 1st year University students, and the men my age are studying and going to parties probably.

When the video went viral, it was on everyone's instagram, women in their 60's, men, kids, it was globally viral. 4 - 5 million views is the total view count on all platforms, there's a chance the average woman where I live could see it, and someone could find it and easily send it to them, that's even if I get a woman in the future.


I'm also sub3. When I smile, I look like a faggot, which is why emomaxxing is needed, I should always have a serious face. I'm fucking ugly.

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[Sasukecel]

I like you man. But real talk: you have main character syndrome on a GRAND scale.

The average person in the street HASN'T seen these shitty negative video clips that exist in a certain corner of the chinktok watching zoomer sphere. You're NOT an infamous global sensation.



Good shit man. An incel's own self is all he has, you are on the right path if you have a goal and you are continuing to work towards it.



Don't do that. Watching gore won't make you better.

It's only 4 - 5 million total views. It's not billions of views, but the reason why I consider myself a global public humilation is because if you're bullied at school, the bullying is limited to people at your school, but I'm basically humilated worldwide because the internet is global. Someone from the USA can laugh at the video, someone in China can laugh at the video, someone in Australia, Canada, all around the world, I am humilated and laughed at making it a global humilation. It's global, not tied to any geographical location.
When I say global, I don't mean billions of people saw it, I mean that I'm globally a humilation anywhere I go.

I still have goals, but the way I see things is I have to adapt. Everyone at my University Campus saw/or is at least aware of the video, because the classmates from my old school are the ones who are in 1st year of the University I go to. I can't just pretend I'm not a humilation and go upto people who saw the video and be like "Woah guys, I'm a fucking embarassment, let's be friends."

So I'm going to hide from the public, not go to events, parties, clubs, and "be present online and hidden in real life."

This sounds glowie, but I don't just watch gore. I read about suicides, I look at school shootings, and I don't do it to get "better" because I'm more blackpilled now, self improvement is a scam unless you're normie and up, I want to be unhappy on purpose. I want to maximize misery because the world is unfair and hell. I view "happiness" as a cope, because being happy means you're satisfied with your situation. Am I happy with the fact that God made me fucking ugly, autistic, truecel, whilst Chads can fuck any girl they want and guys like Dan Bilzerian can make millions and ride jetskiis? The world is unfair, so I refuse to be happy, because I don't enjoy life at all.

 

[Sasukecel]

You have a very slanted face

I do, I have an asymmetrical jaw.

It's my theory, that I'm slightly facially deformed. Autism, lazy eye, asymmetrical face, weak jawline, large nose, protruding and mishaped ear, weird headshape. My parents are niggers so they never checked, but it wouldn't be asinine to think that I might be a bit facially deformed because some of the people with slight facial deformities mog me.

 

[Emba]

Down on the farm we got a saying...

 

[Sasukecel]

Unclouded intuitions like this will instigate superior jurisprudence and comprehension. There's no hope in flattering others in an attempt to befriend them, or even persuading them of the injustices and indecency observed thus far. Living as a hermit is the optimal solution to the social problem as it stands in modernity. Yet, compulsion to ask the most prying question defiles the purest intentions for such inquiry: what will you do with your solitude?

You talk in a more high IQ way, but that's right. There's no point in trying to make friends with other people or trying to persuade them, because it's objectively impossible to change society. The only thing I can do is adapt to my circumstances and adapt to society. The best way to adapt to my classmates viewing me as a humilation is to simply avoid my classmates.

I didn't give up on the goals I had, I'm just adapting by avoiding the public.

 

[Sasukecel]

Down on the farm we got a saying...
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That makes sense.

In an analogy, being coerced to go on the livecall would be being dared to jump into a big pile of shit. I'm walking but now I avoid other people because they kicked me due to the smell.

I'm a global public humiliation so I now avoid the public.

 

[Emba]

That makes sense.

In an analogy, being coerced to go on the livecall would be being dared to jump into a big pile of shit. I'm walking but now I avoid other people because they kicked me due to the smell.

I'm a global public humiliation so I now avoid the public.

Ok