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I'll try to make this short and understandable, and not a giant textwall.
I thought I was going to be the martyr who showed his face in public after getting humilated by the entire world, but nah, fuck that.
I'm hiding in real life, for the rest of my life. Hoodies, glasses, I'll always be undercover IRL. I went to a High School in a different neighborhood to the people I went to middle school with, and I know they saw the video because they were following me on Instagram (probably as a joke), but I unfollowed them. I missed them for 4 years, but fuck them. I'm not going to go to my little brother's graduation or any of his events. I'm not going to any parties or events at my University. I'm not going to any clubs, I'm not going to attempt to make friends, I hate my family. I don't have family or friends, nor do I want to and that misanthropic mindset will make my life hell but my life already was hell. As for why, the virality of the Fitxfearless video truly ruined my life as it was complete and utter public humilation, so I'll always hold a low profile in public.
It was the redpill circlejerk which was the start of ruining my life because I believed at 16, if I worked hard, I could achieve anything so like all the other Hamza Cult Members, I started making self improvement videos, but I realize now most normies have private instagrams. They're present in public and hidden online, whilst I was the dumbass who doxxed myself at 16 by trying to be a self improvement youtuber. If I never used social media, my life now would be very very different.
But I did, and I'm fully outed to the public via humilation. If I lived fully in the real world, and didn't use the internet/social media, and left .is, youtube, x, instagram, etc my life probably would be better and I would have more time to do school work and whatever, but I don't want to do that. My life was hell, I deserve to be known. The normies are present in public and hidden online, whilst I'll be hidden in public and present online. I have no friends and no family, because I want to keep a low profile irl but continue to use social media, because I view it as hiding to not use social media. I'm never going to delete my online presence because I deserve to be known. I refuse to be laughed at by millions then just disappear.
I thought I was going to be the martyr who showed his face in public after getting humilated by the entire world, but nah, fuck that.
I'm hiding in real life, for the rest of my life. Hoodies, glasses, I'll always be undercover IRL. I went to a High School in a different neighborhood to the people I went to middle school with, and I know they saw the video because they were following me on Instagram (probably as a joke), but I unfollowed them. I missed them for 4 years, but fuck them. I'm not going to go to my little brother's graduation or any of his events. I'm not going to any parties or events at my University. I'm not going to any clubs, I'm not going to attempt to make friends, I hate my family. I don't have family or friends, nor do I want to and that misanthropic mindset will make my life hell but my life already was hell. As for why, the virality of the Fitxfearless video truly ruined my life as it was complete and utter public humilation, so I'll always hold a low profile in public.
It was the redpill circlejerk which was the start of ruining my life because I believed at 16, if I worked hard, I could achieve anything so like all the other Hamza Cult Members, I started making self improvement videos, but I realize now most normies have private instagrams. They're present in public and hidden online, whilst I was the dumbass who doxxed myself at 16 by trying to be a self improvement youtuber. If I never used social media, my life now would be very very different.
But I did, and I'm fully outed to the public via humilation. If I lived fully in the real world, and didn't use the internet/social media, and left .is, youtube, x, instagram, etc my life probably would be better and I would have more time to do school work and whatever, but I don't want to do that. My life was hell, I deserve to be known. The normies are present in public and hidden online, whilst I'll be hidden in public and present online. I have no friends and no family, because I want to keep a low profile irl but continue to use social media, because I view it as hiding to not use social media. I'm never going to delete my online presence because I deserve to be known. I refuse to be laughed at by millions then just disappear.