The mind's an interesting place, the biological intricate nature will always remain a part of us no matter what we do.
You want to travel with a girlfriend, possibly around the world. That's a perfectly valid goal.
I could (I will) give you advice to help you distract your mind from your innate desires, but they'll still resurface no matter what we do.
Take sexual repression through pursuing a period of abstinence from any masturbation or sexual thoughts - commonly known as r/NoFap. If you're young and living a healthy lifestyle, you shall have at least 1 nocturnal release during your abstinence period. Why?
That's our biological nature. Subconsciously our body still creates sperm and overtime release needs to happen and a minor stimuli (perhaps even none), is enough to cause that.
This serves as a reminder of our sexual desires as a human being.
Similarly I will advise you that you find "copes" to divert your mind from situation. Some users purchase the newest gadgets, some people resort to religion, some people commit time to games, some people resort to the gym or other activities. You just need to fill your life with so many coping methods that you won't have time to dwell on how subhuman you are.
You are ugly. You are subhuman. You can't change that, you just need to divert your minds attention from that, however just as I stated with the nocturnal release science above, you'll be constantly reminded of your heartily desires. This can not be avoided, sadly that will remain within us until our Psychological, Mental or Physical being perishes.