It's very frustrating that I can't satisfy this need of mine to: be really interested in something > become good at something > create something

[Deleted member 7448]

I don't know why it's so hard for me to find an interest. I've been in this situation of not finding anything worth pursuing for so long now. I spent so much time trying to find something, it's incredibly frustrating.

I just want to find something that will allow me to spend a lot of hours on it, so I eventually get better at it, so I can actually create something.

Is my brain rotten or what? I really think I screwed up my brain, first with MMOs for countless hours a day since I was a kid, then with all those alcohol blackouts, then with rotting at my PC again.

 

[Gyros_Pretcel]

You are the specialist. What do you ask us. I still need to answer your om, but same problem.

Are you sure you have no latestage depression, autism special interest or adhd?

 

[Deleted member 4760]

I used to draw but I stopped over 2 years ago.

 

[Deleted member 7448]

You are the specialist. What do you ask us. I still need to answer your om, but same problem.

Are you sure you have no latestage depression, autism special interest or adhd?

I've been depressed since ~13 and it got worse for a while but now I'm just dead inside, I do have some form of undiagnosed autism, and while I my attention span is shit and all that, I don't think I have adhd. So... 2/3.

I have tons of ideas, characters etc but I just can't sit down and start writing or beginning to draw. I am an incorrigible procrastinator, largely due to being a chronic masturbator.

I can't even masturbate much any more, once in 2-3 days is all I can muster nowadays. Aging sucks.