Why is my life like this? I fucking hate my life and i wish i could just end it all but im too much of a pussy to go through with it. Ive had a shitty life filled with nothing but pain and sorrow. My experiences are always bad. People assume the worst judt becuse of how i look. I cant stand it anymore, why am i cursed to suffer with this ugly body. If there even is a god out there then i renounce it. Becuse my life is just a never-ending cycle of the same idiotic bullshit that leads to me crying alone in my room like a pathetic idiot. Every time i go outside and see normies and nt's living life ok easy mode i get the violent urge to just punch myself in the head repeatedly that way i may go to a hospital and stay in bed there like a vegetable. I fucking cant take it anymore. Im crying as im writing this becuse its too much. I was just a young boy with dreams and now look where i am. All becuse of genetics, im plagued to live like this and to suffer at the hands of others for something thats out of my control. Im stuck with being treated as a second class citizen all becuse of my looks. I hate being ostracized for the simple fact that im ugly. I hate everything around me and nothing brings me joy. Im just a sad sack of shit with nothing good going on. I hope i die soon so that i dont have to life through this perpetual struggle of a life.
