
AshamedVirgin34
Sexlessness survivor
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I sometimes have suicidal fantasies, I fantasize about throwing myself from a high building or a bridge, or also killing myself from hanging, and I feel I want to kill myself SPECIFICALLY BECAUSE I'm a 21year-old virgin and I know I'm never going to get laid.
That's it, that's the reason I feel I want to end with my life, just for being involuntary sexless in a sexualized world full of multiple kinds of sex I'll never have access to, it's not because of financial problems, problems in my family, illness, etc., it would actually be easier to experience any of those things than having to suffer this frustrating involuntary celibacy. I hate how sexhavers live in a paralel universe, they are so habituated to what I can only dream about, the difference between what they can get in life and what I can get in life is disgusting, this inequality of life experiences is just too disgusting and nauseating for me, the fact that sex is ""normal"" for them while sex for me doesn't exist... I just can't accept it.
This involuntary celibacy justifies my insecurities, it proves that all those negative thoughts that told me I was not good enough were right, I'm not good enough and all women agree on that and that's why no woman chooses me.
I'm not going to actually kill myself, I'll do my best to be happy and cope and all that, but sometimes I have these suicidal fantasies and I just wanted to vent because these fantasies are due to my sexlessness.
That's it, that's the reason I feel I want to end with my life, just for being involuntary sexless in a sexualized world full of multiple kinds of sex I'll never have access to, it's not because of financial problems, problems in my family, illness, etc., it would actually be easier to experience any of those things than having to suffer this frustrating involuntary celibacy. I hate how sexhavers live in a paralel universe, they are so habituated to what I can only dream about, the difference between what they can get in life and what I can get in life is disgusting, this inequality of life experiences is just too disgusting and nauseating for me, the fact that sex is ""normal"" for them while sex for me doesn't exist... I just can't accept it.
This involuntary celibacy justifies my insecurities, it proves that all those negative thoughts that told me I was not good enough were right, I'm not good enough and all women agree on that and that's why no woman chooses me.
I'm not going to actually kill myself, I'll do my best to be happy and cope and all that, but sometimes I have these suicidal fantasies and I just wanted to vent because these fantasies are due to my sexlessness.
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