Everywhere I go I see the same glances ,I just know it ,every single interaction I just know what's up ,every single place I go to buy something the normalfags wage slaving there just have flabbergasted look on their faces and I know they're bullying me in the subtle way their ape minds are programmed to ,the job I Wageslave at involves going at far places to make the job ,so I'm literally having to deal with new normalfags seeing my face everyday and my face isn't just the tolerable kind ,I'm not just a guy that his face can be seen and be brushed away and forgotten or just an ugly guy ,I'm ugly to a degree that normalfags just can't help but to actively try and sabotage me even if they just met me a few minutes ago , I'm barely holding myself to not cut their head open with something I have in my backpack (in Roblox) ,toilets nevER seem to tolerate me ,their firmware just have an innate hatred to my face (I never approach nor text any whore anymore) ,today on the subway when I got on I literally saw a toilet glaring at me -her ape mind can't just grasp how somebody looking like this can navigate life just like her- ,last time I tried to go out with normalfags it just went horribly terrible as per usual (only went on the glimmer of hope I might have a slightly positive interaction) but no of course not ,the normalfags I got introduced to were literally shocked that I was supposedly their age and looked like this,one HTN tried to act like whatever but I could sense and feel how hard he found it to look at my face ,how shocked he really was that I actually live with that face ,it reeked off his eyes , normalfags can't hide their intentions from their eyes (or maybe I just can grasp it), i literally get shat on all the time whole walking the streets or going anywhere (I don't go out unless necessary) the side eyes ,the indifference from toilets ,I literally cry on public transport when it sets so heavy on my heart ,I literally start physically stretch and make signs if anger on seeing a toilet or a couple ,I'm too fragile (because self esteem and muh confidence are built from external factors although normalfags get shat in in general but the few positive interaction they get every few days just help them keep going -they're mostly bluepilled so they're ignorant to the reality of things,if I have to get near a group of toilets ,once in a blue moon,the classic step back as a reflex to rejecting me is the default reaction for them ,at this point i don't really have any sort of self esteem left in me,forget about toilets it's over at conception,even scraping by normalfags and living your life alone seems so hard fron the sheer amount of shunning and sabotage i have to endure at the easiest task,the slightest inconvenience or social situations that's considered water from normalfags genuinely makes me want to cut my throat open and end it all , my cunt relatives know it's over for me ,the way my whore cousin looks at me just tells me everything, anything i do in public seems to shock them,their ape minds can't just believe how someone looking like this navigate the same world as us ,and they're right , we're factually not navigating the same world , I'm literally living in another dimension to them, walking the street and literally seeing your poor neighbours' kids who are in early teens on track to be HTN/CL and another who has a fully white skin and blonde hair (both taller than me and i'm older than them by 4 yrs min) while I'm brown and barely average height in my third world country (a.k.a manlet to toilets and manlet in any developed world), I'm considering killing myself tbh it's setting so heavy in my heart im getting destroyed and break down every few weeks and destroy my room from sheer anger alone ,i can't just stand up to normalfags for indirectly bullying me and i don't want to get involved with lady justice cuz in the end she's a whore as well , the first normalfag or toilet that just blatantly does it would be the leaat lucky ,someone is going to pay for this , I'm not leaving without a few normalfags and toilets with me
