always a shietbag nigger messing it up for us good niggers jfl...
it's fucking over
Exactly, plus whatever porn you watch probably closely fits your taste, and the real thing doesn't quite match up in that regard.
I did the toilet thing all three times
.Yeah, I'm only now glad, since I've found it to be a learning experience about myself. But, as I've said previously you are probably more mature than me, since you are thinking like this already after your first try. I was feeling
after my first disaster.Yeah, it will most likely help being familiar with both her and the place, as dumb as it sounds to someone not struggling with anxiety.
1 hour all three times. Maybe I would have booked for longer if I felt like paying more.
You absolutely have to get aroused first. Viagra will not help you there. It will only keep you hard. I've read about that, and I can confirm.
The last time I told her to kiss me and lick my nipples, as it both felt nice and prevented her from looking at me trying to desperately get my limp dick up. It took away some of the anxiety. I'm telling you this so you can maybe find it useful and try it the next time. This was way better than the toilet method.
Six months between first 2, and around one month between second and third, which was two days ago.
Every time was better that the last, so I know I'll feel less anxious the next time.
You got this. Looking forward to updates.
So you paid £80 to see a girl naked?
I don't see the purpose of any sexual activity with a condom on, especially a blowjob. I'd get 0 pleasure out of it whatsoever, I'd rather fuck my hand. I'd ask her if she will do no condom stuff for extra money if you both provide recent STI tests-- but then that would be a big risk for you and certainly not worth that risk. If nothing else she'll almost certainly have HPV. You should have had give you a normal massage or given her one. I'd like to give a girl a massage and touch her hair etc, be creepy and weird but who cares.
You need to lose weight bruh. I'm a whale as well but I'm too old for it to matter. You likely couldn't get hard because your brain is fried on porn.
I don't see the purpose of any sexual activity with a condom on, especially a blowjob. I'd get 0 pleasure out of it whatsoever, I'd rather fuck my hand. I'd ask her if she will do no condom stuff for extra money if you both provide recent STI tests-- but then that would be a big risk for you and certainly not worth that risk. If nothing else she'll almost certainly have HPV. You should have had give you a normal massage or given her one. I'd like to give a girl a massage and touch her hair etc, be creepy and weird but who cares.
You need to lose weight bruh. I'm a whale as well but I'm too old for it to matter. You likely couldn't get hard because your brain is fried on porn.
Man it actually sounds kind she was pretty nice about everything. Like didn't make fun of you and wasn't rude. Don't be too hard on yourself about it. If you're dealing with anxiety and awkwardness I think u made a big step even being naked in front of a foid and letting her touch you. I want to have intimacy so badly, I haven't escortceled but I think whenever I do manage to finally do it (i.e. travel to Europe) or if I ever manage to get with a foid otherwise I'll just be internally freaking the fuck out in anxiety.So went to see the escort today boyos. Suffice to say it was a complete disaster. Escort was a pretty 25yr Romanian. Couldn't find the flat which was cringe as fuck so she had to direct me.
She could tell I was inexperienced as I was shaking when I was paying her, then I told her I was. She suggested 1/2 hour and I thought fuck it. She then asked me to take off my clothes - I don't think anyone has seen me fully naked. I didn't mind getting undressed, it was a little awkward but not as bad as I thought it was gonna be. She got undressed herself which didn't arouse any feeling at all. She was really fit but I didn't feel anything. She then told me to lie on the bed and got out some wet wipes and a condom. She mentioned the fact I was lying there like I was at the doctors as I was so rigid, and tried to get me to relax. She started to caress my dick which again was awkward as fuck. Absolutory flaccid. She then said that I shouldn't be afraid to touch her so I started touching her leg and ass.
She then put the condom on and started to blow me but I was completely limp, no arousal at all. She started moaning but it didn't help. I told her to stop as it wasn't going anywhere and she sat up and started to rub my belly. Being 240lb and have stretch marks on my body made me awkward, but she said she liked bigger guys JFL. She asked me if I felt confident in myself and I said kinda, that I didn't really know how to answer the question. She then talked for like a minute about how I should love myself
I thought about going to the toilet to try and get myself up but I left 5 minutes early as it wasn't going anywhere at all.
She then told me that I should try and find a girl in a club, before I try an escort
Drove 90 MPH the whole way home and started fucking screaming because it was so bad.
Fuck me mang I want to push forward and try again but goddamn. I don't care about the money. At least it's given me a taster of what I could have. At least I know I could potentially fuck foids if I want.
I must admit I didn't take viagra as it's prescription only and it didn't arrive in time - maybe it would have made a huge difference...
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I’ve been back and fourth on getting a PROSTITUTE (escort is too nice of a term) but it’s hard to make a decision. Some days I know that I’m likely not gonna ever fuck a chick any other way consensually but then I know that I would never be able to get over the fact that my first time was paid for and nothing more than a business transaction. I can imagine myself being okay with that if it wasn’t my first time and I had sex with a woman or few that wanted to have sex with me before and I was just going through a dry spell like most normies. I do like to search local escort sites to see the girls I could possibly fuck if I had the money tho
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Based if we did
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fuck you get permabanned.
this forum is a junkyard full of fucking fakecels pretending while the real ones spend hours lurking here thinking these people are incels like them,the forum is over.
My first time was very similar. Although I did get some action.
It's just beginners steps. Considering I've had no activity prior then it's better than nothing. I'd rather do no condom and bareback but it's not worth the risk as you say. Also since a foid let me freely touch her ass and rub her leg I enjoyed that a whole lot more. I do get the messaging and touching their hair, I'd rather build up to the act by doing those things than straight to sex, but it was just to get a feel for things tbh.
Yeah I'm planning on losing weight. You're not too old - escorts take anyone as far as I can tell.
The porn really fucked any real life chances which didn't matter before, as I never considered escorts to be an option. This time though there is an actual practical target to work towards, as long as I can shift the PIED and manage the anxiety to a certain extent then it should be fine
I think your brain goes into overdrive and freaks the fuck out over this situation you've concreted in your head to never happen. It was a little awkward but I think the fact I had no arousel meant that I didn't give a fuck as much as I normally would. Totally different from a feeling of a oneitis where you are awkward, sweat, talk funny (more than usual) etc.
I'd recommend escorts, as its the only option most of us have.
The first time would give you an indication of whether you're fucked due to porn and therefore, providing you wish to continue escorting, need to cut porn out until you get aroused by real life foids.
There's someone like BlckPillPrs or Based Escortcel who say something along the lines of removing your ego from the whole thing. In your mind you want that normal first time but in reality it's just idealistic and a pipe dream. And you must be willing to distance yourself from dignity and see it for what it is - sex. At the end of the day whether you think yourself as a degenerate or similar or think others think of you this way, it doesn't matter. You would have still fucked. Stop thinking like a normie when you're not one. Give yourself a leg up when you can, like escorting. Sure in some peoples eyes its disgusting but who cares about them. If it works for you and you get some relief then do it. All of us are given such shit hands in life, it's really stupid to deny yourself something just because you have to pay.I’ve been back and fourth on getting a PROSTITUTE (escort is too nice of a term) but it’s hard to make a decision. Some days I know that I’m likely not gonna ever fuck a chick any other way consensually but then I know that I would never be able to get over the fact that my first time was paid for and nothing more than a business transaction. I can imagine myself being okay with that if it wasn’t my first time and I had sex with a woman or few that wanted to have sex with me before and I was just going through a dry spell like most normies. I do like to search local escort sites to see the girls I could possibly fuck if I had the money tho
Yeah seems different for everyone. You lucky bastard
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I escortmaxxed too but when i entered the apartment i wasnt used to seeing a woman in lingerie so the moment she closed the door i instantly started grabbing her breasts and she jumped back and asked for the money jfl. After i paid her she sucked my dick but when i tried fucking her (she couldnt ride me because her knees hurt or some bullshit) my dick kept slipping out and going soft. eventually i just left kek
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I don't give a shit about being a degenerate. We're all degenerates. There's a difference between being a degenerate and a loser. You can brag about degenerate behavior, you can't brag about loser behavior. I won't be able to think back to the time with fondness. I won't be able to show a picture of the girl to another guy and brag about fucking her knowing she's a prostitute. It's not about what other people think. It's about what I think because believe it or not it isn't ALL about sex for some incels. It's not about paying. It's not just about sex or else you could just rape a bitch. It's about mutual desire. You tell me to stop thinking like a normie when your advice is the typical "just do it who cares bro" normie advice
This and most people replying in this thread only confirms the obvious. Half this forum are still in the fkn closet
IF U CANT GET HARD IN FRONT OF A NAKED WOMAN YOU ARE A FAGGOT!!!
EXIT THIS FORUM AND INSTALL GRINDER!!
" I aint no homophobe btw, just wish u guys could be honest with urselves"
IF U CANT GET HARD IN FRONT OF A NAKED WOMAN YOU ARE A FAGGOT!!!
EXIT THIS FORUM AND INSTALL GRINDER!!
" I aint no homophobe btw, just wish u guys could be honest with urselves"
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This and most people replying in this thread only confirms the obvious. Half this forum are still in the fkn closet
IF U CANT GET HARD IN FRONT OF A NAKED WOMAN YOU ARE A FAGGOT!!!
EXIT THIS FORUM AND INSTALL GRINDER!!
" I aint no homophobe btw, just wish u guys could be honest with urselves"
How does pussy feel?
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When I go to a escort, I am hard the day before.
But not on the day of?
good luck also make sure to fuck her without a condom
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