I feel invisible. I feel like a deteriorating plant. My existence is almost completely ignored now. I try to make conversation with family and they ignore me. It feels like my life as a whole is somehow getting worse. My mental capacity has collapsed to the extent the quality of my posts here have significantly decreased leading to less positive responses. Due to reasons I won't share I haven't been able to get barely any sleep. Every day is this hell. This horrible hell. I hate it
