Epedaphic
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I'm trying to make more efforts to be outside more often, even just going to the store. Ideally I would like to go to the gym a few times a week.
The problem is the rage I feel when seeing all of the normies going about their everyday lives, laughing and having fun, with friends, family, and significant others. This especially happens in the gym where I see couples sometimes, and I am forced to be in their vicinity or to look at them if I am on the treadmill. Or if I decide to pick up food from outside, I'll see them all sitting at tables at the restaurant with their friends or whatever, talking and laughing. Why did they deserve such a nice life and so much companionship, while I rot in loneliness and solitude? I know the answer - they were not born looking ugly, but these kinds of questions aside, it's very difficult to tolerate being outside for long because of this without feeling irate and having it completely ruin the rest of my day, and most of the time, multiple days afterwards. And I don't think I can deal with being in the gym working out for 30 minutes with feeling this way along with feeling self conscious about how I look compared to others as a beginner.
Does anyone else experience this and what do you do to tolerate this? I usually don't like walking around with headphones in but this may be something to try. I try to just look straight forward and to not make eye contact with anyone but it becomes difficult to maintain this all the time.
The problem is the rage I feel when seeing all of the normies going about their everyday lives, laughing and having fun, with friends, family, and significant others. This especially happens in the gym where I see couples sometimes, and I am forced to be in their vicinity or to look at them if I am on the treadmill. Or if I decide to pick up food from outside, I'll see them all sitting at tables at the restaurant with their friends or whatever, talking and laughing. Why did they deserve such a nice life and so much companionship, while I rot in loneliness and solitude? I know the answer - they were not born looking ugly, but these kinds of questions aside, it's very difficult to tolerate being outside for long because of this without feeling irate and having it completely ruin the rest of my day, and most of the time, multiple days afterwards. And I don't think I can deal with being in the gym working out for 30 minutes with feeling this way along with feeling self conscious about how I look compared to others as a beginner.
Does anyone else experience this and what do you do to tolerate this? I usually don't like walking around with headphones in but this may be something to try. I try to just look straight forward and to not make eye contact with anyone but it becomes difficult to maintain this all the time.