Parents will not understand the situation of their ugly son for the life of them. They'll let it get to the point of violence.
And here goes the proof:
It was like 3 years ago, i was devastated in how i failed when hanging out with a female that i've meet in a club, weeks after, i have got the chance to fuck some of my cousin, something that i would regret months before.
The day have come, i meet my cousin at a park in the center of my city and we have planned the sex.
So we got in your way to the motel, at the hotel, everything was just fine but when she forced me to have sex without condoms i've failed at it, and put myself in a really dangerous situation because this cousin was living in a likely favela (guetto hood), so who knows who she fucked before, and till today i didn't made any blood exams.(but i will do it in this year)
So, we made sex and then we left the motel, in my way to home, my mom call me up on the cellphone and i denied it.
So she started to make calls again and again and my cousin said to me answer that.
I answered and then the same fucking talking shit comes again
Where you are? What you are doing?
I answered she that i was with a girl, and then my mom's replied me that it was fake, that i just hang out with men so i was likely doing drugs or something else. I put the phone to my cousin speak something but she only laughed at the phone call.
That day i became furious.
Right after leaving my cousin in a bus, i get my way to home ready to get angry towards my mom and speak to her mostly of my hate
i sended several SMS to my father explaining my hate towards my mom and towards society and about how society fucked up my life.
but unfortunaly i was expecting that my father was at home, but he wasn't.
So when i reached my house, i grabbed a knife and started to stab everything that i could penetrate it to show my mom HOW VIOLENT I AM
so after the "pre-show" i pointed my knife to my mom and she asked me to kill her.
I cannot even remember what was the things that i said to her in that day, but i can remember that i was talking on how she destroyed my family because of some of his actions towards my favorite uncle (who served as best father than my own father)
After what happened, my father come home with other parents but he didn't figure out the SMS that i sended to his phone, and so later i get his phone and erased all the sms.
but
EVEN AFTER THIS SAD SITUATION, MY MOM KEEPS MOCKING ME TO GET A GF, KEEPS SAYING ALL THE FUCKING SHIT YOUR MOMS SAYS TO YOU, AND THE ONLY FUCKING REASON IN LIFE THAT I HAVE NOW IS TO FUCKING LEAVE MY HOME AND GET MILLIONS OF KILOMETERS AWAY FROM MY MOM
AND THE FUCKING SAD REALITY IS THAT I NEVER EVER HURT ANYONE IN MY LIFE, NEVER PUT MYSELF IN DANGEROUS SITUATIONS, NEVER KICKED ANYONE, NEVER KILLED ANYONE, INSTEAD EVERYONE DID WHATEVER THEY WANT TO DID TO ME
AND I CAN'T HAVE THE FUCKING PEACE OF bEING A SUbHUMAN bECAUSE MY MOM
CANT LEFT ME IN PEACE IN MY OWN HOUSE