I've managed to keep myself busy... running around like a worker ant "effortmaxxing". It's worked to distract me for a while but I've made 0 progress ascending.
I was trying to figure out reasons why it might not be working...
"Incel culture is toxic and self destructive" okay, well I spent a while, a long while, not posting or browsing, not doing anything incel not THINKING of myself as an incel, it still didn't make a difference.
"Your failure is a self-fulfilling prophesy", well I tried to go against that, I pictured myself succeeding, I did everything I could think of, and then my failures slapped me in the face again and again. I WANTED to succeed, I TRIED to succeed, but it wouldn't happened.
"It's because you're bitter and hate women" I LIKED them, I did nice things and went around complimenting them. When that didn't work, I tried playing alpha, putting them down, pretending like I was a big badass. I tried watching the people around me and doing what they did. Acting regular. Nothing worked. Nothing ever works.
"It's because you're looking for it too much" I've spent YEARS AND YEARS doing nothing and trying to forget about my condition... that didn't help. It didn't magically make me "meet the right person". I've now spent the greater part of a year doing everything that I could. It didn't change shit.
"You just need to keep trying" HOW MUCH? How much effort is enough? If I try for a million times and fail a million times, isn't that enough?
It hurts so much, getting a girls number and then just having her ignore me. Being rejected over and over again. Being played around with. And then going out, again, still alone, always alone, and watching couples holding hands and kissing and snuggling and talking.
I wouldn't wish our condition on anyone. It's worse than a death sentence. We're damned, we're trapped in this lonely hell with no escape. Being an incel is like being a starving man looking out on a feast, watching everyone else gorge themselves while he fucking wastes away into nothing. I would give anything, I would do anything, I would die happy just if I could spend one day as a normal person with a girlfriend.
I was trying to figure out reasons why it might not be working...
"Incel culture is toxic and self destructive" okay, well I spent a while, a long while, not posting or browsing, not doing anything incel not THINKING of myself as an incel, it still didn't make a difference.
"Your failure is a self-fulfilling prophesy", well I tried to go against that, I pictured myself succeeding, I did everything I could think of, and then my failures slapped me in the face again and again. I WANTED to succeed, I TRIED to succeed, but it wouldn't happened.
"It's because you're bitter and hate women" I LIKED them, I did nice things and went around complimenting them. When that didn't work, I tried playing alpha, putting them down, pretending like I was a big badass. I tried watching the people around me and doing what they did. Acting regular. Nothing worked. Nothing ever works.
"It's because you're looking for it too much" I've spent YEARS AND YEARS doing nothing and trying to forget about my condition... that didn't help. It didn't magically make me "meet the right person". I've now spent the greater part of a year doing everything that I could. It didn't change shit.
"You just need to keep trying" HOW MUCH? How much effort is enough? If I try for a million times and fail a million times, isn't that enough?
It hurts so much, getting a girls number and then just having her ignore me. Being rejected over and over again. Being played around with. And then going out, again, still alone, always alone, and watching couples holding hands and kissing and snuggling and talking.
I wouldn't wish our condition on anyone. It's worse than a death sentence. We're damned, we're trapped in this lonely hell with no escape. Being an incel is like being a starving man looking out on a feast, watching everyone else gorge themselves while he fucking wastes away into nothing. I would give anything, I would do anything, I would die happy just if I could spend one day as a normal person with a girlfriend.
