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er8 yeah I'm dying Bros, so my "frens" treat me like I'm already a ghost.... emba radio, living the "pre-lonely death" life!
some very brutal shit about dying alone. especially, if you know about it.
(I finally figured out my health problem - bad heart valve - & I'm taking herbal action to fix it. I might be too late, but it seems like it's helping....)
anyway,
they treat you like you're already gone! a literal fucking ghostcel! the walking dead!
stfu!...
it's very brutal to be even more ignored than usual. especially in a time of emo need! surely I wasn't deserving of such treatment? especially from Christians! wtf?! ChriSTAINS is more like it! gdmf shit!
maybe they think I'm going to hell? why be nice to the doomed sinner?
ofc, I'd rather live another 20+ years, but I might not.
dying...
it really pisses me off to be so disposable... gdmf Randos on the street, larp about "caring about me" far more than people I've known for decades... they can't even be bothered to pretend. ); ); );
I should probably cry about it, but, I'm dry. tbh, I'm kind of shocked about it.
maybe everyone I know is an emoless NPC? worthless fucking normies! at least their not blatantly cheering, so there's that...
in a way I get it... no one wants to be reminded of their own mortality. but it's natural. inevitable. common.
I suppose caring about someone's death is based on how much you benefited from their life? like some kind of ratio?
family man is mourned, unknown stranger isn't. but these fuckers know me! some are almost in the same boat as me. maybe they have better FAMs? better frens? who knows...
maybe they don't want to be around to watch me die, keel over. because they might "feel bad" or be made "uncomfortable" at having to stick around and deal with cops and EMTs and all the questions... too much effort.
then again, wtf exactly does one say to the dying? (what I said, is probably best) tell them they were a joy to know! you were grateful for their company... it's not gay to care about a bro! to tell them that they improved you're life! it's a kindness!
I'm not fishing for care or sympathy from y'all randobros here, bros. I'm just saying.online strangers and rando street people care more than IRL people I've known for decades... and that's some brutal shit right there..
and yelling into the cybervoid is my only way to reach out for emo comfort. at least a way to say goodbye to "someone." anyone...
but then again, my herbology skills might cure me... I've cured other stuff with it. but, there no cure for death. (death is its own cure.) but damn, the lack of emo support sure is brutal. especially when I'm feeling all mortal like this.
any of you suifuckers think it's a great thing to die, unless you have been around death and dying people, you have no clue. you're unrealistic!
"dying is easy. it's living that's the hard part..." #shitwaffles #!
so, if you know how mortally doomed you are, it might be best to keep it to yourself!
how fucked up is that?
it's indeed brutal. and almost over. but not not yet! (I hope)
some very brutal shit about dying alone. especially, if you know about it.
(I finally figured out my health problem - bad heart valve - & I'm taking herbal action to fix it. I might be too late, but it seems like it's helping....)
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episode / topic guide / link (if available)
Emba radio! (no# @ hidden zone)
er2 kittens vs rats (updated)
er3 incels of the 80s 90s tributemaxx
er4 rude edgelordmaxxing
er5 (pending TBA) fifth anniversary!
er6 mannequin sexdoll fun!
er7 murderer ascension story
er8 I'm dying
er9 the woods
episode / topic guide / link (if available)
Emba radio! (no# @ hidden zone)
er2 kittens vs rats (updated)
er3 incels of the 80s 90s tributemaxx
ER3 (emba radio 3) incels of the 80's & 90's
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incels.is
incel trait: angery and bitter man, er4 (emba radio)
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incels.is
er6 mannequin sexdoll fun!
er6 EMBA radio my sexdoll mannequin weirdness tale! yes, it's gdmf pathetic.
er6 EMBA radio my sexdoll mannequin weirdness tale! yes, it's gdmf pathetic. my many years (decades) of coping with some mighty weird fake plastic women... I'm too poor to buy a real sex doll, and mannequins are affordable but the best ones are found via store supply stores... they are...
incels.is
er7 (emba radio) a bro ascended with a obese murderess!
er7 (emba radio) a bro ascended with a obese murderess! EPs 5&6 are coming soon! meanwhile here's a lovely story.... my local incel longtime buddy ascended with an obese murderess! I knew this bro for many decades! 30 years? close! I used to drive HIM around! back when I had a car and he...
incels.is
er9 the woods
anyway,
they treat you like you're already gone! a literal fucking ghostcel! the walking dead!
stfu!...
it's very brutal to be even more ignored than usual. especially in a time of emo need! surely I wasn't deserving of such treatment? especially from Christians! wtf?! ChriSTAINS is more like it! gdmf shit!
maybe they think I'm going to hell? why be nice to the doomed sinner?
ofc, I'd rather live another 20+ years, but I might not.
dying...
it really pisses me off to be so disposable... gdmf Randos on the street, larp about "caring about me" far more than people I've known for decades... they can't even be bothered to pretend. ); ); );
I should probably cry about it, but, I'm dry. tbh, I'm kind of shocked about it.
maybe everyone I know is an emoless NPC? worthless fucking normies! at least their not blatantly cheering, so there's that...
in a way I get it... no one wants to be reminded of their own mortality. but it's natural. inevitable. common.
I suppose caring about someone's death is based on how much you benefited from their life? like some kind of ratio?
family man is mourned, unknown stranger isn't. but these fuckers know me! some are almost in the same boat as me. maybe they have better FAMs? better frens? who knows...
maybe they don't want to be around to watch me die, keel over. because they might "feel bad" or be made "uncomfortable" at having to stick around and deal with cops and EMTs and all the questions... too much effort.
then again, wtf exactly does one say to the dying? (what I said, is probably best) tell them they were a joy to know! you were grateful for their company... it's not gay to care about a bro! to tell them that they improved you're life! it's a kindness!
I'm not fishing for care or sympathy from y'all randobros here, bros. I'm just saying.online strangers and rando street people care more than IRL people I've known for decades... and that's some brutal shit right there..
and yelling into the cybervoid is my only way to reach out for emo comfort. at least a way to say goodbye to "someone." anyone...
but then again, my herbology skills might cure me... I've cured other stuff with it. but, there no cure for death. (death is its own cure.) but damn, the lack of emo support sure is brutal. especially when I'm feeling all mortal like this.
any of you suifuckers think it's a great thing to die, unless you have been around death and dying people, you have no clue. you're unrealistic!
"dying is easy. it's living that's the hard part..." #shitwaffles #!
so, if you know how mortally doomed you are, it might be best to keep it to yourself!
how fucked up is that?
it's indeed brutal. and almost over. but not not yet! (I hope)