Nigga, you are young. I can assure you that you're still affected by teen-brain. This is humiliating yes, but in 2030, when you're a real adult, it won't matter. Trends move so fast nowadays that TikTok might not even be around and any reference to this video is meaningless. I get that you're having a personal crisis. I'm 30, I did a lot of weird shit when I was your age, but people forget. You're not a Hawk Tuah-meme, even she will be forgotten by 2030.
It's the only thing that matters.
That's cope, because the Huak Tuah girl is likely going to likely stay rich for the rest of her life. She has a podcast, 2.7 million followers on instagram, she could make money from monetization, brand deals, advertising. The world is unfair, the influencers like her, Sneako, Hamza, they're likely going to stay rich forever whilst the person who actually works hard at their job is going to be struggling as inflation rises.
You did weird shit, but it wasn't broadcasted to millions and millions of people online. The reality is I permanently ruined my life, and if people think I ruined my life for 700 subs, that's stupid. It will matter if I'm still alive in 2030, because the reality is it will matter until my death.
Every person I know in real life saw the video, Youtube is going to stay up, FItxfearless's channel is only growing as time goes on, meaning the video will only grow in views as time goes on. I want to fucking kill myself because of how unfair this world is, but I won't.
Everyone says "People will forget." I know, but it doesn't change anything. If a rapist rapes a girl in 2016, in 2024, are people thinking about him raping that girl? No, but his life is still fucked. My life will always be fucked which is why I'm throwing away my life to do what I want. It's this or going ER, or roping. It doesn't matter, my life doesn't have fucking meaning at this point.