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nearcel, high maintenancecel, badluckcel, ethnicel
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I'm feeling significantly dumber than back then and I scored 7pt lower on an IQ test recently despite having giga sweated it opposed to back then.
I used cannabis frequently during part of my teens which may have cost me a bunch of iq points and who knows what else (this hasn't been studied sufficiently yet but there's evidence pointing to brain structure changes and depression being linked to it) and I can't confirm if it's the weed or the depression having done it.
The ironic thing is I researched it A LOT but somehow lost this one information of potential IQ loss somehow. Possibly, because it was usually quoted by anti-cannabis sources in conjunction with a bunch of false information. I was usually getting my info on rather cannabis-positive sites, catered towards adults who were legally allowed to consume in US states. And to be honest, if ma nigga Kurupt yung gotti says to blaze it and I'm like "I got you nigga" then that doesn't do me any good either in that situation
Also, my life was garbage during that time; I was abused by several people, including my parents in a way any sane person would describe as extraordinarily excessive and life-ruining. There were some sociopathic adults on the internet who made use of the fact that I was being abused at home and couldn't go anywhere to get help (if i went to eg a teacher they would, because I was physically abused, be obliged by law to put me into a youth home, where they would heavily limit my PC usage which was all I invested my money and time in; I wanted to become a streamer). They tried to gain my trust by helping me and showing compassion, just to then use me as their plaything, even recommending me detrimental things, including using Cannabis. They were so eager to bombard me with misinformation, oftentimes showing me (even fake) sources for their claims and trying to display strong disapproval and annoyance for me not trusting them "even though they just tried to help me".
They even actively ruined some of my friendships and baited me into sending some catfish "I want to freeze a turd and fuck you with it" and write "I <3 [name of catfish]" on my chest with nutella to then later leak all of it to everyone in my grade (truecel trait btw) and also forced me to send a bunch of creepy shit to foids from my school.
So, I wasn't able to build any intimate connections during that time and as you can see, there was quite an incentive for me to use weed/cope.
Since my parents were anti-Cannabis (despite being uninformed on it) and didn't respond to logic anyways I had to hide it and I was paranoid that they'd find out and abuse me even more which ruined a substantial amount of sessions for me cause I was anxious during them and also gave me compensation feelings, i.e. "I have to do another session now to compensate the last ruined one"
This part wasn't even primarily addiction; I just felt like I had the right to feel good for part of the day just as most of my peers did and that people who abuse me didn't have the right to ruin that for me so I compensate-vaped a lot of times
waste of time writing this honestly
kms soon in game
I used cannabis frequently during part of my teens which may have cost me a bunch of iq points and who knows what else (this hasn't been studied sufficiently yet but there's evidence pointing to brain structure changes and depression being linked to it) and I can't confirm if it's the weed or the depression having done it.
The ironic thing is I researched it A LOT but somehow lost this one information of potential IQ loss somehow. Possibly, because it was usually quoted by anti-cannabis sources in conjunction with a bunch of false information. I was usually getting my info on rather cannabis-positive sites, catered towards adults who were legally allowed to consume in US states. And to be honest, if ma nigga Kurupt yung gotti says to blaze it and I'm like "I got you nigga" then that doesn't do me any good either in that situation
Also, my life was garbage during that time; I was abused by several people, including my parents in a way any sane person would describe as extraordinarily excessive and life-ruining. There were some sociopathic adults on the internet who made use of the fact that I was being abused at home and couldn't go anywhere to get help (if i went to eg a teacher they would, because I was physically abused, be obliged by law to put me into a youth home, where they would heavily limit my PC usage which was all I invested my money and time in; I wanted to become a streamer). They tried to gain my trust by helping me and showing compassion, just to then use me as their plaything, even recommending me detrimental things, including using Cannabis. They were so eager to bombard me with misinformation, oftentimes showing me (even fake) sources for their claims and trying to display strong disapproval and annoyance for me not trusting them "even though they just tried to help me".
They even actively ruined some of my friendships and baited me into sending some catfish "I want to freeze a turd and fuck you with it" and write "I <3 [name of catfish]" on my chest with nutella to then later leak all of it to everyone in my grade (truecel trait btw) and also forced me to send a bunch of creepy shit to foids from my school.
So, I wasn't able to build any intimate connections during that time and as you can see, there was quite an incentive for me to use weed/cope.
Since my parents were anti-Cannabis (despite being uninformed on it) and didn't respond to logic anyways I had to hide it and I was paranoid that they'd find out and abuse me even more which ruined a substantial amount of sessions for me cause I was anxious during them and also gave me compensation feelings, i.e. "I have to do another session now to compensate the last ruined one"
This part wasn't even primarily addiction; I just felt like I had the right to feel good for part of the day just as most of my peers did and that people who abuse me didn't have the right to ruin that for me so I compensate-vaped a lot of times
waste of time writing this honestly
kms soon in game
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