Thinking about the time my insecurity due to ugliness made me scare the shit out of some foid from collage making her send police to my house

[trrrrrsarescary]

This was like a year after I dropped out from my last college course, almost everyone in that course stared at me weird which caused my already bad mental health to deteriorate so I just dropped out, about a week after I started finding the Instagram of all the coursemates who stared at me and messaged them individually demanding to know exactly why they were staring at me because I couldn't tolerate wondering if it was because they thought I was ugly or if it was for a different reason, then I ended up messaging this foid demanding the same thing and the conversation spiraled into me going round circles and saying some really fucking weird and unhinged shit until she blocked me, then I forgot about it and a few months later police showed up at my door and sat down in my living room with my mum explaining that this foid got the police involved because what I said bothered her so much, saying it was the volume of messages that stood out to them, ended up giving a stern caution to me then they left and the takeaway curry I was going to have with my mum was completely RUINED

thinking about it to this day is so brutal though because it's just a reminder of how demented and unstable seeing people's reactions to my face has made me, it has genuinely done measurable damage to my psyche and perhaps even my actual physical brain

 

[SubhumanOldcel]

Let me guess you are from UK or US.

 

[UndeadDeadMan]

Bad optics pal.

You have to go with the second best option which is body language analysis

Edit: if you still CARE about this sort of thing. If you don't, use earbuds

 

[Pancakecel]

I wish there was an answer for dealing with this shit, but I don't think there is unfortunately. The only thing that makes it hurt a bit less, is rarely leaving the house, and taking drugs.

You're right about all these experiences doing damage. After years of just ruminating and dwelling on shit that's happened, by brain feels like sludge.

 

[nihilum]

I wish there was an answer for dealing with this shit, but I don't think there is unfortunately. The only thing that makes it hurt a bit less, is rarely leaving the house, and taking drugs.

You're right about all these experiences doing damage. After years of just ruminating and dwelling on shit that's happened, by brain feels like sludge.

don't do drugs

 

[Anonymoutron]

This was like a year after I dropped out from my last college course, almost everyone in that course stared at me weird which caused my already bad mental health to deteriorate so I just dropped out, about a week after I started finding the Instagram of all the coursemates who stared at me and messaged them individually demanding to know exactly why they were staring at me because I couldn't tolerate wondering if it was because they thought I was ugly or if it was for a different reason, then I ended up messaging this foid demanding the same thing and the conversation spiraled into me going round circles and saying some really fucking weird and unhinged shit until she blocked me, then I forgot about it and a few months later police showed up at my door and sat down in my living room with my mum explaining that this foid got the police involved because what I said bothered her so much, saying it was the volume of messages that stood out to them, ended up giving a stern caution to me then they left and the takeaway curry I was going to have with my mum was completely RUINED

thinking about it to this day is so brutal though because it's just a reminder of how demented and unstable seeing people's reactions to my face has made me, it has genuinely done measurable damage to my psyche and perhaps even my actual physical brain

Foids give me the disgust stare all the time and it always fucks with my mental health. Brutal though, you definitely have a lot of confidence to stand up to that foid

 

[oraora_man]

100 foids vs empathy