Venting Can't decide whether to live or die.

[JKlancecaster069]

Despite how accepting that my life most likely won't get any better than this and how tempting and liberating suicide sounds the thought of actually dying and abandoning what I have terrifies me.

Then there's also my anxiety surrounding the possibility of my attempt at suicide failing and only worsen my already shitty life. I'm torn between my desire for death and my cowardice.

I also hate the idea of just ending up as another suicide statistic just a nameless nobody who accomplished nothing with his life.

 

[fullofchagrin]

Only advice I can give you is if you decide to rope, make sure you don't fail because I did and it left me with brain damage

 

[Icarus]

Please stick around longer brocel

You have a lot to give to this world, you just have to find what you love.

 

[Lonelyus]

its over, Were born to rot

 

[HotDogCel]

I'm torn between my desire for death and my cowardice.

I think the best way to solve that is to let time do the job. With time, your life, if u are a truecel, will only go worse, and it will naturally destroy you mentally enough to remove the fear of death and make you able to rope. If you are not that cooked, with time, you will find ways to ascend and have a better life. Im letting time enabling me to pull the trigger

 

[fullofchagrin]

Please stick around longer brocel

You have a lot to give to this world, you just have to find what you love.

Thank you for being positive to op I wish normies were also like this

 

[fullofchagrin]

I think the best way to solve that is to let time do the job. With time, your life, if u are a truecel, will only go worse, and it will naturally destroy you mentally enough to remove the fear of death and make you able to rope. If you are not that cooked, with time, you will find ways to ascend and have a better life. Im letting time enabling me to pull the trigger

I'm also doing the same thing, hoping to God every day that I'm a fakecel

 

[Icarus]

Thank you for being positive to op I wish normies were also like this

I'm sorry to hear you've gone through a lot brocel. Failing to rope is one of the worst feelings.

 

[JKlancecaster069]

Only advice I can give you is if you decide to rope, make sure you don't fail because I did and it left me with brain damage

Yeah if I ever work up the courage to rope I'll make sure it works.

 

[TooSomething]

Don't worry, you will die eventually. We all will.

 

[JKlancecaster069]

Don't worry, you will die eventually. We all will.

For me that's both the scariest yet somehow most reassuring fact about life. At least the misery won't last forever no matter what I pick.

 

[JKlancecaster069]

Please stick around longer brocel

You have a lot to give to this world, you just have to find what you love.

Yeah I might try looking into getting some sort of hobby to keep going.

 

[Icarus]

Yeah I might try looking into getting some sort of hobby to keep going.

that's good fren

Take care

 

[WhereIsHamudi]

I'm torn between killing myself or killing everybody around me.

 

[JKlancecaster069]

I'm torn between killing myself or killing everybody around me.

 

[TooSomething]

For me that's both the scariest yet somehow most reassuring fact about life. At least the misery won't last forever no matter what I pick.

Yeah, I keep saying that I can't wait to die every ttime some normalfag at work talks about how beautiful life is or some of their lifefuel shit.

 

[fokusin]

I'm torn between killing myself or killing everybody around me.

 

[Ghost]

If I get absolutely convinced of atheist worldview being the truth, I'm ending it all.

But that is yet to happen...

 

[JKlancecaster069]

If I get absolutely convinced of atheist worldview being the truth, I'm ending it all.

But that is yet to happen...

Are you agnostic?

 

[Ghost]

Are you agnostic?

Spiritual Christian.

I believe in Jesus and spiritual concepts but reject organized religion.

 

[samsara]

Don’t rope

 

[VersoffenerAssi]

No rope no hope