When I was 14 I believed the in normie generic advice that anti incels love to give, I already had good hygiene and I tried to talk to women several different times. I was part of my middle schools tennis team I went to all the practices even won myself a medal for finishing in 2nd in doubles. I wasn't doing it for women I genuinely enjoyed it however nothing I did in school was ever enough to catch the attention of women, I was the weird "creepy" kid who was only considering creepy because I was ugly and had autism. Even when I moved to a completely different city normies still unfairly treated me as a creepy weird kid, I still approached not only women but also men just to make friends but they quickly lost interest.
Dating apps were a complete failure, I let family members do it for me, I changed my bio and pictures and none of it ever changed anything. Only ever getting likes from woman accidently swiping right and bots. By this time I became 18 and ended up getting my first job where my coworkers didn't have any interest in talking to me beyond telling me what to do, I was later laid off. I started going to the gym to improve my slender physical appearance and eventually bulked up, It still didn't matter because when I would cold approach women would just ignore me or shut me down with short responses and excuses of having to be somewhere.
As I became older I became desperate I did not know if all I ever wanted was just sex or love so I went on Omegle at first I would use the text version to convince women to give me their social media accounts, I was successful in doing so but once my face was revealed they almost always immediately blocked me so I adapted pretended to be chad and I was able to convince them to send me nude photos of them, This was a bit eye opening for me. That indeed I wasn't necessarily doing anything wrong I used looked wrong.
So I tried to improve my appearance in the best way I can, I was already going to the gym but I tried definite hairstyles long and short and different kinds of wardrobes and yet it still wasn't enough, Apart of me knew already what was really wrong. It was face my unchangeable face. But I was still in denial. I was vaguely aware of incels and the blackpill by I never accepted it.
One day I broke down I realized what I should have realized a long time ago that things weren't going to be ok, I was 23 and I just lost my 2nd job, a job where once again my coworkers didn't care for me, even though I tried talking to them. I didn't want to be like this I didn't want to hate women and didn't want to hate normal people but at this point enough was enough eventually this led me to creating my account here and the rest is history.
How could it have gone any other way? When now I see what happened to me in real life happening to others on this forum and online. How can accept anything else as the truth when a abusive drug addict without a job can get girlfriend but I can't. It's because he's handsome and I'm ugly there could be no possible other answer and everyday my beliefs vindicated by not only the people I see outside holding hands but the people on the internet, their nasty foid opinions and their nasty actions recorded online for everyone to see.
The only option to this is accepting it and not embracing the hate, Why should I? Did the blacks in the 60s accept Jim crow? Did see the white people who were racist against them as only a minority of white people? No they had every right to be angry, they were being discriminated against and now I'm being discriminated against not only in love but economically too, The handsome bum who doesn't do anything gets to stay but I'm laid off? Fuck him and fuck you for telling me I have to accept even if it was only love no human being female or male should have accept a life without love, It is the very foundation of what it means to human.
Dating apps were a complete failure, I let family members do it for me, I changed my bio and pictures and none of it ever changed anything. Only ever getting likes from woman accidently swiping right and bots. By this time I became 18 and ended up getting my first job where my coworkers didn't have any interest in talking to me beyond telling me what to do, I was later laid off. I started going to the gym to improve my slender physical appearance and eventually bulked up, It still didn't matter because when I would cold approach women would just ignore me or shut me down with short responses and excuses of having to be somewhere.
As I became older I became desperate I did not know if all I ever wanted was just sex or love so I went on Omegle at first I would use the text version to convince women to give me their social media accounts, I was successful in doing so but once my face was revealed they almost always immediately blocked me so I adapted pretended to be chad and I was able to convince them to send me nude photos of them, This was a bit eye opening for me. That indeed I wasn't necessarily doing anything wrong I used looked wrong.
So I tried to improve my appearance in the best way I can, I was already going to the gym but I tried definite hairstyles long and short and different kinds of wardrobes and yet it still wasn't enough, Apart of me knew already what was really wrong. It was face my unchangeable face. But I was still in denial. I was vaguely aware of incels and the blackpill by I never accepted it.
One day I broke down I realized what I should have realized a long time ago that things weren't going to be ok, I was 23 and I just lost my 2nd job, a job where once again my coworkers didn't care for me, even though I tried talking to them. I didn't want to be like this I didn't want to hate women and didn't want to hate normal people but at this point enough was enough eventually this led me to creating my account here and the rest is history.
How could it have gone any other way? When now I see what happened to me in real life happening to others on this forum and online. How can accept anything else as the truth when a abusive drug addict without a job can get girlfriend but I can't. It's because he's handsome and I'm ugly there could be no possible other answer and everyday my beliefs vindicated by not only the people I see outside holding hands but the people on the internet, their nasty foid opinions and their nasty actions recorded online for everyone to see.
The only option to this is accepting it and not embracing the hate, Why should I? Did the blacks in the 60s accept Jim crow? Did see the white people who were racist against them as only a minority of white people? No they had every right to be angry, they were being discriminated against and now I'm being discriminated against not only in love but economically too, The handsome bum who doesn't do anything gets to stay but I'm laid off? Fuck him and fuck you for telling me I have to accept even if it was only love no human being female or male should have accept a life without love, It is the very foundation of what it means to human.
