MidnightMetro1
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I've often fantasized about killing myself right before 30, but as these nights drag on, I consider doing it even sooner. I'm currently 22, but I feel like I've lived a century. Every time I go outside and see couples holding hands, every time I lie in my bed at night without anyone next to me, the call of the rope beckons. What meaning is there in this existence? What meaning is there in this suffering? Everyone utters the same cliche "pain in life makes you stronger," but what of those whose lives are nothing but pain, and simply die? What was the meaning in their strife?
How do you cope with it? The unrelenting thoughts in your head every night telling you that you are a loser. Surely I'm not the only one. I've been drinking alone in a pitch black room and popping oxy's every night for the past 3 weeks. It doesn't help, it only temporarily distracts me. When I'm sober, my morbid thoughts come flooding back.
How are you guys coping? How do you deal with this constant suffering?
How do you cope with it? The unrelenting thoughts in your head every night telling you that you are a loser. Surely I'm not the only one. I've been drinking alone in a pitch black room and popping oxy's every night for the past 3 weeks. It doesn't help, it only temporarily distracts me. When I'm sober, my morbid thoughts come flooding back.
How are you guys coping? How do you deal with this constant suffering?