SuicideFuel I have no friends or anybody. Another lonely Saturday night

[Ijustwannaslapahoe]

The only friends I've ever had in youth were people who saw me as a jester or a second hand option. They all aren't in my life anymore so I've been alone for the past 3 years. Im 21. I have no friends. And even when these people did go out of there way to see me, it was sparse and once in a blue moon, and usually for some sort of favour. While everyone else my age is out having fun on this Friday night, im spending another one alone. I dont even have any online friend either. I ditched the last online group I had because I realised that they didn't like me either. I have nobody but myself

 

[Ijustwannaslapahoe]

Nobody my age wants anything to do with a subhuman loser like me. Ever person who has tormented me and made my life all gets to enjoy the fruits of social interaction and making memories with othes, as I rot more

 

[ItsOverMan]

What are you supposed to be doing on a Friday night? What do you want to be doing?

 

[Ijustwannaslapahoe]

What are you supposed to be doing on a Friday night? What do you want to be doing?

Im alone all the time. I go months without irl interactions or even talking to others online.

 

[ItsOverMan]

Im alone all the time. I go months without irl interactions or even talking to others online.

yeah same. I was the same at your age too and I was in college living on campus with thousands of 18-22 year olds in my immediate vicinity at the time.

Throughout my 20s I used to always wonder "What am I supposed to be doing at my age? All I do is go to work and then sit in my room but I don't know what a 20-something is supposed to be doing."

 

[Ijustwannaslapahoe]

yeah same. I was the same at your age too and I was in college living on campus with thousands of 18-22 year olds in my immediate vicinity at the time.

Throughout my 20s I used to always wonder "What am I supposed to be doing at my age? All I do is go to work and then sit in my room but I don't know what a 20-something is supposed to be doing."

Kids my age literally do crazy shit like fuck in parties and post it on their Snapchat. Fffs my cousin whose a year older than me got to go to a huge ass house party for his hs senior year grad with a shit ton of girls, weed, beer, etc meanwhile I spent my whole youth rotting on niche Internet forums and spaces

 

[ItsOverMan]

Kids my age literally do crazy shit like fuck in parties and post it on their Snapchat. Fffs my cousin whose a year older than me got to go to a huge ass house party for his hs senior year grad with a shit ton of girls, weed, beer, etc meanwhile I spent my whole youth rotting on niche Internet forums and spaces

I'm 40+ years old and I've never even tried weed or any other drugs. I would have no idea where to even get it (illegal here). I don't like the taste of beer. Clubbing/parties never appealed to me...why would I want to stand around by myself watching everyone else have fun and make out? I'm not wanted there anyway.

(Truecel trait: You have no idea where to get weed or other drugs)

 

[anon65]

The rare few parties I have gone to, I was totally ignored and left after like 30 minutes. I will never NOT be an introverted loner. Never going to another useless party again.

 

[cursed]

The only friends I've ever had in youth were people who saw me as a jester or a second hand option. They all aren't in my life anymore so I've been alone for the past 3 years. Im 21. I have no friends. And even when these people did go out of there way to see me, it was sparse and once in a blue moon, and usually for some sort of favour. While everyone else my age is out having fun on this Friday night, im spending another one alone. I dont even have any online friend either. I ditched the last online group I had because I realised that they didn't like me either. I have nobody but myself

yeah bro same shit, after i was in an accident one of my friends that i had at the time came to visit me but right then and there i realized that i had nobody but my family and I nobody came visit or sent me any messages.

the loner arc i guess made me realize that rotting is not worth it long term and if my parents die ill have nobody else and probably kill myself.
my best advice is try self improvement, learning the basics like cooking on a deeper level other than eating goy slop made me hopeful for something else in life.
I still don't know how to do laundry or clean the house properly. Keep your mind and hands busy.
that's what has been working out for me.

 

[sub3genecel]

The only friends I've ever had in youth were people who saw me as a jester or a second hand option.

 

[nihilum]

Me too. I don’t have any friends.

 

[ultraincelmega]

Me too. I don’t have any friends.

why don't you make friends here? online friends are better than no friends