Alcohol has me by the balls again

[trrrrrsarescary]

Used to drink heavy every night then it progressed to getting drunk twice a day (4pm and then midnight) and then I started morning drinking just to go back to sleep until it landed me in hospital and that kinda scared me out of that pattern of drinking so I went sober in mid January and it was just miserable af so I gave in and had a couple beers in march and I've managed just two beers here and there for a while but now I'm slowly drinking two beers with kratom afterwards every night, I can feel it fucking creeping back in, it's getting harder and harder to not have a drink at night and feels kinda impossible, I just sit there feeling insane with racing thoughts and anxiety and bored fucking senseless no matter what I do, I notice I'm also thinking the same way I did when I was pounding whisky twice a day

I fucking hate this life so much, if I ever get back to the type of drinking that forced my parents to call an ambulance then I've made a pledge that I'll just rope before it ever gets that bad again

 

[INVERTER]

Is kratom any good?

 

[Extern]

Is kratom any good?

Yea, I'm addicted to it but its a decent cope

 

[Wolnir]

drink some shorts lil nigga, beer is faggot drink.

 

[trrrrrsarescary]

drink some shorts lil nigga, beer is faggot drink.

Spirits are what landed me in hospital, I guzzled that shit like it was water, at least with beer im limited by the amount of cans and I can better track how much units im consuming

 

[trrrrrsarescary]

Is kratom any good?

Used to be but started giving me horrible anxiety so I can only enjoy it with alcohol in my system

 

[AutismKing]

Damn, are you addicted? have you tried quitting?
Perhaps a doctor can help you.
That shit can really ruin your health ngl

 

[Homegrownman326]

Drugs and alcohol are better than porn, though. I'd rather be a folded-up fent zombie than consume some of the porn I have over the years. I'd retain more dignity that way.

 

[INVERTER]

Yea, I'm addicted to it but its a decent cope

Opinions on buying online?

 

[Extern]

Opinions on buying online?

Only good way to do it, smoke shop kratom is ass

 

[Pancakecel]

You should ditch the alcohol and just stick with kratom, dude. I get it though.

Do you buy yours from Kraatje aswell?

 

[INVERTER]

Only good way to do it, smoke shop kratom is ass

Good to know. SWIM might give it a try

 

[trrrrrsarescary]

You should ditch the alcohol and just stick with kratom, dude. I get it though.

Do you buy yours from Kraatje aswell?

It gives me wicked anxiety now instead of making me chill, I can only enjoy it with alcohol in my system

 

[DriveLikeNigger]

Yea, I'm addicted to it but its a decent cope

Do you smoke it or pin it?? Getting bored with nicotine and looking to try something

 

[Pancakecel]

It gives me wicked anxiety now instead of making me chill, I can only enjoy it with alcohol in my system

Damn, that sucks. Are you using the red strain?

 

[trrrrrsarescary]

Damn, that sucks. Are you using the red strain?

Yep, idk wtf happened it just turned on me and instantly makes me feel weird and panicky now

 

[GloomyGhoul]

I recommend switching to liquor. It gets you fucked up quicker and costs less

 

[GloomyGhoul]

Yea, I'm addicted to it but its a decent cope

Never tried kratum. Any info I should know before starting?

 

[GloomyGhoul]

Drugs and alcohol are better than porn, though. I'd rather be a folded-up fent zombie than consume some of the porn I have over the years. I'd retain more dignity that way.

Nicotine and liquor have been my primary cope lately. Considering other options though

 

[Extern]

Never tried kratum. Any info I should know before starting?

Been slowly cutting it due to a medical treatment. I think if you're going to be a addicted to anything, kratom is the best thing. Cheap, doesn't hurt your health, ur functional while high. If it keeps you off other substances it's worth it

 

[GloomyGhoul]

Been slowly cutting it due to a medical treatment. I think if you're going to be an addicted to anything, kratom is the best thing. Cheap, doesn't hurt your health, ur functional while high. If it keeps you off other substances it's worth it

Scratch that. I think I tried it once in the past, but I don’t think I took a high enough dose. I’m epileptic and I’ve heard long term kratum use can trigger seizures

 

[Aein_the_Nihilist]

Posts like this is why I don't drink