If some girl suddenly showed affection toward me i would think she lost her mind.
This
Would you suddenly have all the confidence and have more communication skills?
Or dated this girl for short or had a short relationship. Or just had 1 sex night. Not escorts
The only people that think the "first time" matters are the people who have never had their first time
Just like with hunger, the only time that matters is "the next time"
The yearning never goes away, you're always going to want more sex and with different women too
Stop romanticizing sex in your mind as some kind of special magical experience, that's disney fairy tale shit, sex is just a natural part of the biological process of reproduction, just like defecation is a natural part of the biological process of digestion, you don't speak about taking a shit like its special now do you?
Was your first shit life changing?

Every normie guy I've talked to speaks about their first time like it was "just something that happened", it isn't some special magical thing, in fact a lot of them are kind of embarrased about it because you don't know what you're doing and you cum pretty fast, its usually a disappointment