thechosenorder
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Age 10 or 11.
The closest answer to mine! Heya twinAge 10 or 11.
Not if they study in the same classroom as youIt's tough to actually look for your bullies before the police catches you lol
14.
I remember taking my dad’s shotgun from under my parent’s bed and looking at it for a long while
Salvador ramos / Adam lanza/ Virginia tech guy pretty much killed the whole classroom.. yeah, you can do thatNot if they study in the same classroom as you
The puberty thing applies to me too, I know how you feelAround age 12 or 13 I first truly became suicidal. My puberty not going right made me physically ugly on top of my already major struggle with autism.
That's what really pushed me over the edge.
Same here Mr Mossad Agent, its specific sadistic people who tormented me that I hate, not randoms. I still hate normies but it is a different level.Nah I just want revenge against people who did me wrong, I don't get why people who shoot up schools never kill their bullies, it's retarded
In pre-k I told my teacher I wanted to die and then in the 5th grade I actually attemptedfor me, it was when i was 9 years old. I used to think of ways to kms when i got yelled at. The most common story id think of was:
ill somehow make a gun -> give it to my friend(later changed to someone i wasnt close with because i figured no one will do it if theyre my friends + what if my friend gets arrested lol) and tell him to shoot me while i sleep. The reason i wouldnt do it myself was to avoid making my parents sad. I kept adding to this fantasy for a few years until i was fully into making it look like an accident.
Tell me your stories brocels!
Crazy
Same as ER
Crazy shi
Whoa, finally the young ones are commentingIn pre-k I told my teacher I wanted to die and then in the 5th grade I actually attempted
It's okay to be a christcel1/2 months after I turned 16. That was seriously the time I was planning out my attempt by Valentines Day, writing out a suicide note, etc; not a good fucking time to be alive.
Went Christiancel afterwards, learning suicide will send you to hell, and totally stopped swearing and everything lol. Despite my general dislike of religion nowadays, Christianity saved my life and I’ll hold up the belief to being beneficial to certain people in certain situations.
Ahh.... I was 9. Kinda relatable8 years old. Getting bullied by whites at school and abused by my parents.
It was a bad attempt I tried to hold my breath and then tried to use a hanger but I fell and felt stupidWhoa, finally the young ones are commenting
Like actually feeling like I want too? Probably not tell these last couple of years it gets worse each year. No way in my current state im gonna last many years its extremely overwhelming, I have bad waves of it atleast fee times a week that last a couple days its miserablefor me, it was when i was 9 years old. I used to think of ways to kms when i got yelled at. The most common story id think of was:
ill somehow make a gun -> give it to my friend(later changed to someone i wasnt close with because i figured no one will do it if theyre my friends + what if my friend gets arrested lol) and tell him to shoot me while i sleep. The reason i wouldnt do it myself was to avoid making my parents sad. I kept adding to this fantasy for a few years until i was fully into making it look like an accident.
Tell me your stories brocels!
at 13for me, it was when i was 9 years old. I used to think of ways to kms when i got yelled at. The most common story id think of was:
ill somehow make a gun -> give it to my friend(later changed to someone i wasnt close with because i figured no one will do it if theyre my friends + what if my friend gets arrested lol) and tell him to shoot me while i sleep. The reason i wouldnt do it myself was to avoid making my parents sad. I kept adding to this fantasy for a few years until i was fully into making it look like an accident.
Tell me your stories brocels!
That's crazySomewhere in high school
Same. Might muster up some courage one day8th grade, became a lot more serious this year, actually put a loaded gun to my head but was too much of a pussy to pull the trigger
Same, one day I'll do it hopefully.Stumbled upon my dad's handgun when I was 12. Was a pretty shitty year of my life and the peak of my bullying at school. Thought long and hard about it before pussying out.
Almost same as me... RelatableAround 10 or so.
Welcome back ERProbably 19 or 20
Puberty goes hard13-14 was when I first started thinking of ending my life, but I didn’t start thinking about it seriously/deeply until I was around 16.
Another young one... Finally.11 years old
It always gets worse. I ain't gonna be here for long too.Like actually feeling like I want too? Probably not tell these last couple of years it gets worse each year. No way in my current state im gonna last many years its extremely overwhelming, I have bad waves of it atleast fee times a week that last a couple days its miserable
Same ratio ngl. I've been suicidal for half my lifeSince I was 15
I am 31
Wild
Right at the beginning of adolescence.. tuffat 13
Yeah it was brutal, never had a normal childhood I've always been depressedRight at the beginning of adolescence.. tuff
at 15for me, it was when i was 9 years old. I used to think of ways to kms when i got yelled at. The most common story id think of was:
ill somehow make a gun -> give it to my friend(later changed to someone i wasnt close with because i figured no one will do it if theyre my friends + what if my friend gets arrested lol) and tell him to shoot me while i sleep. The reason i wouldnt do it myself was to avoid making my parents sad. I kept adding to this fantasy for a few years until i was fully into making it look like an accident.
Tell me your stories brocels!
Same man, I even tried asking for help. But they just downplayed my feelingsYeah it was brutal, never had a normal childhood I've always been depressed
Brutalat 15
same it was just brushed off for me tooSame man, I even tried asking for help. But they just downplayed my feelings





