What’s with the adds? Anyway, how do I set my mind from considering rope to actually moving steps towards it.

[Eternatus]

I lied when I said to keep pushing through and I don’t blame suicidal people. I have to face reality. I’m gonna be 25 in October so, the part of life that mattered already went by. I think there should be some sort of doctrine that if u fucked up past this age there’s truly nothing anymore saving you, not even making some moves either in romance or success later in life.

The woman I fell in love at 20yrs old didn’t love me back, that’s when couples ideally get to know each other before marriage and living together. What purpose does it serve “ascending” now… I don’t wanna be a late bloomer retard, I wanted proper life, and I realized too late. I lied to myself that I didn’t need those things.

Her Name the exact juxtaposition of what I lacked in a lifetime of darkness.

I hate myself, I hate the man I am, I hate being a goofy ass aspie retard , I wanted her to fall in love with me, escape from this cold hell Ive been wandering through. I loved her, I really did. Never gonna wrap this up or grow out of it. It doesn’t leave you, that pain is forever.

I will eventually renounce to the gift of life, hopefully where my body cannot be found.

 

[hook-nosed trash]

Assuming you're sub 5, even if you did end up dating that girl you loved when you were 20, it wouldn't have been a healthy relationship.
She would've expected you to betabuxx and simp for her 24/7. You would've been walking on thin ice in that relationship constantly and it would've severely fucked you mentally. Imagine, you were with her for these 5 years, and then today she decides to break up with you...

Never catch feelings for a specific foid.