Shinichi Kudo
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It's about knowing no one has ever, EVER been truly close to you. It's about not knowing if you can attract a partner, that you missed out on learning how to attract a partner, that you will always feel terrible about yourself and your ability to lead a social life.
It's about knowing this thing people call a sex life is nothing more than fantasy to you. It's something so far out of reach that it hurts.
My mind knows intimacy is real. My body knows intimacy is real. I crave it so fucking badly, yet I've never even kissed a girl. I don't know what it's like to feel wanted... and it makes me feel completely worthless.
Girls like guys. That statement in itself is crazy to me. Girls actually like guys. Just, I guess... not me...
So, if I can't attract a girl, what am I? Guys attract girls. Guys kiss girls, they go on dates, they have experiences I can only ever dream of, so then what the fuck am I?
It's about knowing this thing people call a sex life is nothing more than fantasy to you. It's something so far out of reach that it hurts.
My mind knows intimacy is real. My body knows intimacy is real. I crave it so fucking badly, yet I've never even kissed a girl. I don't know what it's like to feel wanted... and it makes me feel completely worthless.
Girls like guys. That statement in itself is crazy to me. Girls actually like guys. Just, I guess... not me...
So, if I can't attract a girl, what am I? Guys attract girls. Guys kiss girls, they go on dates, they have experiences I can only ever dream of, so then what the fuck am I?