I hate my life it started when i was like 11 i started having noticeable signs of being autistic and i was prescribed to some therapy thing where they took my iq and diagnosed me with autism i don't really remember what they all did there because i just remember not wanting to go really badly, and i struggled with school all my life so i started having insane troubles at school and i would get really angry and just crashout and want to go home, i still have this because i love my home and my computer as much as i physically can i love inanimate objects. And i had a really difficult time because at the same time my troon sister (ftm) was being a monster for no reason and prior to this my parents went through a divorce that really hit me (so i barely see my dad anymore), i really like my dad i love him more then anything else but my mom who also got depression after the whole school divorce and troon sister running away from home and arguing alot and all i could do is sit in my living room on my laptop (i didn't have my own room till my troon sister went out the home) because i'm in poverty and whilst in all of this shit my mom had massive arguements with family and shit so now i only have my grandma on my dads side who is a normal person (i don't speak her language tho) and so whenever i came home my mom was also drinking wine and being really annoying (she stopped wine when i was like 14) and yes this has been going on for years because i left out alot of details because i just wanted to type something out, and so when i went to middle school or high school i don't know what you call it but the school you go to when you're like 12-13 ish i also had no friends for the first year and for the rest of the years i had my little group but i also kinda got bullied and i have hated my physical appearance since as young as i can remember because i always used to avoid pictures and i regret ever being handed unlimited internet when i was like 7 because in my life span i've probably been online groomed like 14 times by fully grown adults so i probably have some cp of me flying around. i don't know where i'm going with this i just wanted to type up something so there's a backstory or something i guess
