Brutal Did anybody here have selective mutism? It's brutal

[ItsOverMan]

From 5th grade on I was already getting a lot worse every year with my high inhibition and social anxiety (was bullied at school but otherwise ignored), but in 8th grade I didn't speak to any kids at school even when they spoke to me, like I literally refused to say a word when they spoke to me, and yeah I was bullied really hard almost every day that year for it. Wanted to run away from home and kill myself. I actually tried to run away from home one night and my mom called the cops on me and I got in trouble. I spoke to teachers at school only because I'd get in trouble if I didn't. I think what was happening was I was so tired of being ignored at school and I was so hurt by it, I thought not speaking at all would at least get kids to notice me. And I thought "since they ignored me and I wasn't worth talking to, I won't talk to them, ever."

I also refused to speak around my extended family (aunts, uncles, cousins, etc.) even when they spoke to me. But I spoke freely to my mom at home with no problem because I felt comfortable around her. She was the only person I felt comfortable talking to. But in 9th grade I came out of it and started talking a little bit to kids at school again.

8th grade was also the year I scored a 0 out of 100 on the social skills test they gave us in Career class. The school counselor told me the only job I would be able to do is nighttime security guard.

At the time in 8th grade I thought I was the only person in the world with this.

Anyone have something like this? Is this what Cho had?

@Gyros_Pretcel @cripplecel @willystroker @turbocuckcel_7000 @Chudwaffen @mariomariuss

 

[tired as fuck]

too brutal for me to properly reply

 

[shyloser]

When I was in 9th grade someone slammed my desk went eye to eye to me and said "why don't you talk?" I didn't have an answer, and I think that even if I did I wouldn't have been able to say it, Well I didn't talk because I didn't have any friends at this point, I don't have anything to talk about with strangers

 

[ItsOverMan]

When I was in 9th grade someone slammed my desk went eye to eye to me and said "why don't you talk?" I didn't have an answer, and I think that even if I did I wouldn't have been able to say it, Well I didn't talk because I didn't have any friends at this point, I don't have anything to talk about with strangers

Yeah I feel that way too, I don't have anything to say to people. Like after I say "hi" I don't know what to say next. People also asked me "why don't you talk?"

 

[cripplecel]

Cause of autism, i didn’t talk in grade 3 & 4 and then again in grade 7 & 8

It fucked up my social development big time

 

[ItsOverMan]

Cause of autism, i didn’t talk in grade 3 & 4 and then again in grade 7 & 8

It fucked up my social development big time

Yeah man, I feel like 8th grade alone probably set me back a whole lot of development in life.

 

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[Oldcel_Narutofan]

Yes the exact same thing happened to me, believe it or not.
But i escaped into isekai animes and light novels back then lol.

 

[ItsOverMan]

Yes the exact same thing happened to me, believe it or not.
But i escaped into isekai animes and light novels back then lol.

what grade(s) were you in?

 

[Oldcel_Narutofan]

what grade(s) were you in?

Age 13 to 18 i became mute because of powerlessness. I felt powerless against the other students because the teachers always took their side. and i felt powerless against the teachers cause the Police were behind them, and I felt powerless against the police because the military is behind them.
that was how i thought (still do) and why as a Teen i got paralysed into Mutism

Sorry if i shared too much. I am just wondering if you had the same thinking as me.

 

[ItsOverMan]

Age 13 to 18 i became mute because of powerlessness. I felt powerless against the other students because the teachers always took their side. and i felt powerless against the teachers cause the Police were behind them, and I felt powerless against the police because the military is behind them.
that was how i thought (still do) and why as a Teen i got paralysed into Mutism

Sorry if i shared too much. I am just wondering if you had the same thinking as me.

so you didn't speak at all even when kids spoke to you? that's how i was. in my case, I had huge social anxiety for years but I was so frustrated, angry and hurt with people ignoring me I decided to not speak in 8th grade even if kids spoke to me. I guess I felt powerless in terms of that was the only way I felt I could get people to notice me and "care about me", even if it was bad attention and more bullying I got.

 

[Oldcel_Narutofan]

so you didn't speak at all even when kids spoke to you? that's how i was. in my case, I had huge social anxiety for years but I was so frustrated and angry with people ignoring me I decided to not speak in 8th grade. I guess I felt powerless in terms of that was the only way I felt I could get people to notice me and "care about me", even if it was bad attention and more bullying I got.

Yes i didn’t speak even when spoken to. I just ignored them and just like you it was anger and frustration.
Also prople made fun of my voice and accent too even my own family did s that didn’t help

 

[turbocuckcel_7000]

From 5th grade on I was already getting a lot worse every year with my high inhibition and social anxiety (was bullied at school but otherwise ignored), but in 8th grade I didn't speak to any kids at school even when they spoke to me, like I literally refused to say a word when they spoke to me, and yeah I was bullied really hard almost every day that year for it. Wanted to run away from home and kill myself. I actually tried to run away from home one night and my mom called the cops on me and I got in trouble. I spoke to teachers at school only because I'd get in trouble if I didn't. I think what was happening was I was so tired of being ignored at school and I was so hurt by it, I thought not speaking at all would at least get kids to notice me. And I thought "since they ignored me and I wasn't worth talking to, I won't talk to them, ever."

I also refused to speak around my extended family (aunts, uncles, cousins, etc.) even when they spoke to me. But I spoke freely to my mom at home with no problem because I felt comfortable around her. She was the only person I felt comfortable talking to. But in 9th grade I came out of it and started talking a little bit to kids at school again.

8th grade was also the year I scored a 0 out of 100 on the social skills test they gave us in Career class. The school counselor told me the only job I would be able to do is nighttime security guard.

At the time in 8th grade I thought I was the only person in the world with this.

Anyone have something like this? Is this what Cho had?

@Gyros_Pretcel @cripplecel @willystroker @turbocuckcel_7000 @Chudwaffen @mariomariuss

Yes, it started after i transferred schools, then I only opened up around select people who seemed nice. It never got better and even tho I got some short-lived friendships they never lasted usually because I couldn't get along with THEIR friends.

 

[ItsOverMan]

Yes i didn’t speak even when spoken to. I just ignored them and just like you it was anger and frustration.
Also prople made fun of my voice and accent too even my own family did s that didn’t help

Yeah, people made fun of my voice too saying I sounded feminine. I'm still self-conscious of my voice because of that.

 

[mariomariuss]

From 5th grade on I was already getting a lot worse every year with my high inhibition and social anxiety (was bullied at school but otherwise ignored), but in 8th grade I didn't speak to any kids at school even when they spoke to me, like I literally refused to say a word when they spoke to me, and yeah I was bullied really hard almost every day that year for it. Wanted to run away from home and kill myself. I actually tried to run away from home one night and my mom called the cops on me and I got in trouble. I spoke to teachers at school only because I'd get in trouble if I didn't. I think what was happening was I was so tired of being ignored at school and I was so hurt by it, I thought not speaking at all would at least get kids to notice me. And I thought "since they ignored me and I wasn't worth talking to, I won't talk to them, ever."

I also refused to speak around my extended family (aunts, uncles, cousins, etc.) even when they spoke to me. But I spoke freely to my mom at home with no problem because I felt comfortable around her. She was the only person I felt comfortable talking to. But in 9th grade I came out of it and started talking a little bit to kids at school again.

8th grade was also the year I scored a 0 out of 100 on the social skills test they gave us in Career class. The school counselor told me the only job I would be able to do is nighttime security guard.

At the time in 8th grade I thought I was the only person in the world with this.

Anyone have something like this? Is this what Cho had?

@Gyros_Pretcel @cripplecel @willystroker @turbocuckcel_7000 @Chudwaffen @mariomariuss

I didnt have mutism but I was ultra introverted and never started convos, also yes Cho was diagnosed with selective mutism when he was 13

 

[Gaelic-Truecel]

I still have it, it is part of the reason why holding down jobs has been so difficult. Normies will bully you if you don't interact with them at work. It is linked to autism. Anti depressants don't work for it although alcohol basically cures it.

 

[ItsOverMan]

I still have it, it is part of the reason why holding down jobs has been so difficult. Normies will bully you if you don't interact with them at work. It is linked to autism. Anti depressants don't work for it although alcohol basically cures it.

Alcohol doesn't help me with it. I've never been diagnosed with autism but I wonder if I'm on the spectrum. My dad was like 46 when I was born, mom was late 20s. I've only been diagnosed with OCD/anxiety/depression at various times.