It's Over Too weak for this cold world

[Hoodpreet]

I feel like I’m not meant for this world.

As a child I had a very weak heart. I hated cuss words and slurs, and I at one point considered a diet where I would avoid not just meat but even plants like potatoes that were technically alive. I was that averse to the idea of killing or causing unnecessary harm to a life.

As I’ve grown, though, I’ve become VERY jaded by the real world around me, which is plagued by everything from violence to blatant hypocrisy to unhinged, instinctual group tribalism to the inherent, deep social inequality that stems from the blackpill and genetic determism. And it’s in response to observing all this that I’ve subscribed to a social darwinist worldview based in moral pragmatism, because I firmly believe global society ought to be cleansed from the ground up in order to be reconstructed in a manner that is as free from unnecessary suffering as possible. Without eugenics and mass population purges I see no way we can permanently improve the plight of this species and Earthly life at large. For substantial long-term gain, we need A LOT of short term pain.

At the end of all of it, though, I just feel empty. I can cope through ideology or whatever the fuck as much as I want, but that childlike sense of wonder being replaced with paranoia and dread is damage that can never be undone. On the outside my heart is hardened but the soft heart of a child remains buried deep within. Having a bad childhood, struggling with severe lifelong OCD, and missing developmental milestones of course contributes to this. I just hate this world so fucking much, and though I don’t plan on killing myself I do wish I could pass peacefully in my sleep at random. I want to drift away into dreams, to disconnect from this world entirely. This planet fucking sucks and so do most people in it

 

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[Hoodpreet]

@wereq @whiteboyhair

 

[zephyr]

childlike sense of wonder being replaced with paranoia and dread

 

[Methuselah]

I wish for death, blissful death

 

[Pikacel]

same

 

[whiteboyhair]

I feel like I’m not meant for this world.

At the end of all of it, though, I just feel empty. I can cope through ideology or whatever the fuck as much as I want, but that childlike sense of wonder being replaced with paranoia and dread is damage that can never be undone. On the outside my heart is hardened but the soft heart of a child remains buried deep within.

Yeah, life's been feeling like a cliche lately. I'm in my head all day just trying to sort things out. I don't know where I went wrong. I'm just internally seething with envy, self-pity, and wrath. I wish I could feel good for just one day. To feel nice physically, mentally, and spiritually.

 

[abdicel]

I miss how novel and ignorant childhood life was.

 

[wereq]

We were not supposed to be born this sensitive, disempowered, and weak, in and against a world that only has the facade of civilization which in reality, as you correctly pointed out, is a darwinian feudalistic meat-grinding hellscape that is built upon tremendous inequality, injustice, and a scale and spread of human failure that is pervasive and chronic. We feel these malicious forced of humanity the most as curries because curries are at the absolute bottom of the hierarchy.

If you're curry, the full force of hierarchy and feudalism is always acting against you, trying to marginalize you and erase you from social spaces. To cope with this, curries desensitize themselves into living like insects in whom there's no sense of dignity or courage, but since we are humanized with strong sense of justice and dignity and not insects like them, to be born as ourselves into such a horrifying environment is to be extra privy to evil and be terrorized by constant sense of existential doom. Our birthing was a tremendous sin and the sooner we can correct for it, the better.

 

[shitciety]

I'm not meant for this world

 

[Layollyus II]

Same

 

[Layollyus II]

Do you also feel insecure the moment you go out?

 

[SmhChan]

We were not supposed to be born this sensitive, disempowered, and weak, in and against a world that only has the facade of civilization which in reality, as you correctly pointed out, is a darwinian feudalistic meat-grinding hellscape that is built upon tremendous inequality, injustice, and a scale and spread of human failure that is pervasive and chronic. We feel these malicious forced of humanity the most as curries because curries are at the absolute bottom of the hierarchy.

If you're curry, the full force of hierarchy and feudalism is always acting against you, trying to marginalize you and erase you from social spaces. To cope with this, curries desensitize themselves into living like insects in whom there's no sense of dignity or courage, but since we are humanized with strong sense of justice and dignity and not insects like them, to be born as ourselves into such a horrifying environment is to be extra privy to evil and be terrorized by constant sense of existential doom. Our birthing was a tremendous sin and the sooner we can correct for it, the better.

Always felt that I wasn't supposed to be here. Nothing seems compatible with me. It's like I have to constantly adapt and work against my instincts.

 

[ANTAGONIST]

Beautiful thread

I can agree with and relate to a lot of what you said.

As a child I had a very weak heart. I hated cuss words and slurs,

Same

 

[Poopless One]

I wish for death, blissful death

 

[PTSD Marsupials]

Maybe as AI gets better it will eventually become sentinet and cleanse humanity

 

[OddsQkuad]

As a child I had a very weak heart. I hated cuss words and slurs

My classmates always bullied me because I was way softer than them apart from being weak too.
I relate a lot with you, we're too weak for this world

 

[Renegade#1]

Too weak for this cold world​

Don't worry,the Meeks shall inherit the world

 

[God's Lonely Man]

You grow up as a shell of a "man" if you had a terrible childhood. It's like having PTSD and suffering everyday for it. Except your trauma is your face/brain that will never heal.