wereq
Cursed and Defeated by Fate
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The context which made me say this has to do with him always being miserable, always antagonizing me, always picking fights with me over the slightest of things. Every conversation we have gets derailed into an argument because his brain can't tolerate even the slightest of variation in opinion. Now I usually try to diffuse any tension he creates by blindly agreeing with him but sometimes I can't suppress my thoughts and feelings so I chip in with my takes, and when that happens, it usually lands me into an argument and shouting match that ruins my mood.
Now, my mood is pretty much always bad because I'm a KHHV wizard truecel dysgenic freak that would be better off dead, so when an argument adds to my suffering, I just mentally breakdown even more like I am feeling right now. What I am feeling is an overwhelming sense of despair and doom; an existential terror of sorts. It takes very little to create fresh trauma in me and tonight I had enough so I decided to tell my dad that he destroyed my life by giving me bad genes and even now he's continuing on his path of destruction by arguing with me and antagonizing me endlessly.
I told him that even though he's has learnt about the blackpilled and how his poor marriage choice ended up giving me bad genes, he still has no clue how much trauma & suffering I have, & that he'd die if he felt everything I endure daily.
I can't endure this for much longer. I can't live like this. This life is not worth all the meaningless pain and suffering.
Now, my mood is pretty much always bad because I'm a KHHV wizard truecel dysgenic freak that would be better off dead, so when an argument adds to my suffering, I just mentally breakdown even more like I am feeling right now. What I am feeling is an overwhelming sense of despair and doom; an existential terror of sorts. It takes very little to create fresh trauma in me and tonight I had enough so I decided to tell my dad that he destroyed my life by giving me bad genes and even now he's continuing on his path of destruction by arguing with me and antagonizing me endlessly.
I told him that even though he's has learnt about the blackpilled and how his poor marriage choice ended up giving me bad genes, he still has no clue how much trauma & suffering I have, & that he'd die if he felt everything I endure daily.
I can't endure this for much longer. I can't live like this. This life is not worth all the meaningless pain and suffering.
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