Can't stop this shit. I stopped listening to music for a few years now that I've started listening in the past few days I'm back to the old patterns.
I try to tell myself "it's just some intentionally manufactured image so this rich bitch and a bunch of rich cunts and assholes in Hollywood/various companies can make a shitload of cash from idiots like you who get obsessed with this fucking bitch who is fake as fuck and rich and wouldn't piss on you if you were on fire".
But still, can't help it, my brain keeps going there. I guess I can't see myself with a real woman I actually know irl since I don't know anyone, so I fantasize about these women that there's no way I'll ever get. Much like weebs with their waifus. Except my fantasies have a weird solipsistic twist with a dash of delusions of grandeur where I start imagining like this will actually happen and that I deserve this etc... despite knowing it's all fake and bullshit.
God damn I hate my brain.
I try to tell myself "it's just some intentionally manufactured image so this rich bitch and a bunch of rich cunts and assholes in Hollywood/various companies can make a shitload of cash from idiots like you who get obsessed with this fucking bitch who is fake as fuck and rich and wouldn't piss on you if you were on fire".
But still, can't help it, my brain keeps going there. I guess I can't see myself with a real woman I actually know irl since I don't know anyone, so I fantasize about these women that there's no way I'll ever get. Much like weebs with their waifus. Except my fantasies have a weird solipsistic twist with a dash of delusions of grandeur where I start imagining like this will actually happen and that I deserve this etc... despite knowing it's all fake and bullshit.
God damn I hate my brain.
