i ran out of liquor and cigs rn and im scared to go to the gas station to get more because i already caught 2 dui charges in less than 2 months... and i cant fucking sleep im soo fucked
yo bro i've been here, i used to pop 4 fake pressies a day, would black out for days at a tiime, i tried killin myself with heroin , xans an drink multiple times, non of which attempts worked but fuck it , im here now. I don't want this benzo shit on my worst enemy, im sure you know how bad it can get. Fuck what your father said an fuck him, i too have a shitty father an would love nothin more than to follow all the glowies here "nudging" you to do the truly retarded thing, I aint going to lie to you bro , im a couple years sober from abusing xans an dope but my life has not gotten better, i don't feel happier or more content but you know what i'm thankful for ? a whole lot of bullshit i've spared myself from continuing my addict life, This shit is not it and i would much rather stick with my dead end peaceful job, using Porn , Weed an video games to cope an maintaining a cordial relationship with my parents whome i hold a deep seated seething raging hatred for an still live with sadly for the free rent as payback for years of childhood abuse an neglect.
It's still better than blackin out, waking up strung the fuck out, withdrawing an doin in general crack head activities that had everyone around me lookin at me weird or really worried. Just quit the Xans and bear the withdrawals, take some time off work if need be an just lock yourself in your room with alot of water an Gatorade, Don't try to kill yourself, That is exactly what your father an the rest of society want, They want to see you go "ER" or just in general end it, that is the stupid choice, you have to live out of spite, what has your father done to raise you ? has he taught you anything ? mentored you ? financially help you beyond what he is legally obligated to do ? any scumbag tellin their son to kill themselves isn't worth the spit in your mouth, you need to live out of spite to him an the rest of the faggot normie society that drove people like us into the addiction we're in, Yes we made our own choices , I take responsibility for my actions but i won't let off the stupid degenerate society an shitty parenting an upbringing to the side an act like it had no affect, almost every one of my uncles an cousins are either criminals or junkies, i didn't have much of a chance growing up with autism, adhd an parents who DGAF about me.
I'm willing to bet you had a similiar or if not worst time coming up, this is crazy i see this post because i turned 27 on may 23rd lmao , i feel like i had to say something here at least. I have literally been their an i'm telling you there is a way out , maybe not from our inceldom but i can help you with this addiction, that im certain off, DO NOT FLUSH YOUR XANS , at least not all of them , how many bars are you taking a day rn ? you will need to taper off or goin cold turkey on Benzos will give you seizures an possibly a painful death, not the quiet nice euphoric one we're all goin after. I literally got my license suspended because of that , some stupid polish foid doctor snitched me out an haven't driven in almost 5 years now but hopin to get it back since ive been sober atleast 3 to 4. Sometimes i miss it , i literally will go rummaging through my room because on so many occasions i've found random ass bars of xanax i've hidden in my room an once found a whole 100 pack after bein a couple months sober an yup relapsed lmao but for the most part i just don't think about it, smoking alot of weed helps but i also quit drink. You got this brother, don't lose to these faggots, your life is their loss, so make sure they lose every fuckin day because their stupid faggots.
