I waste all l day doing nothing and watching people who are sexhavers on internet, why do i give attention to people who would rather cut their wrist open than to be me ? Because m brain is a cucked bastard who cant see his own mediocrity, each day feel like an eternity, i woke up and started crying after dreaming of having a gf for the 5th time in 7 days, just to work so i can become a great member of society and transfer money from my boss to my landlord faster, my own mother hate me and i hate her too i have no friends, my past is shit my present is hell and i cant even imagine my future, I need something anything who make me wake up everyday, my life as no meaning, i have no goal and even if my goal was maximizing happiness then I should just pierce my skull with a bullet, all this people out there make me feel so much disgust to myself I stay up all night and spend dozens of minute just looking at the miror at the failure that i am, when i stare at myself too much time and remember the failure i am my brain cant cope anymore and i see my true nature, i start feeling a weight in my stomach and i almost throw up
