NOTE: This is not a brag post or made-up story, I am genuinely asking for advice.
I believe i have found the perfect girl, she's incredibly intelligent, attractive ( but not that much, i must say ).
I am simply unable to distinguish love from connection, I'm keen on the idea that I am a psychopath, but never have been diagnosed further from 'Conduct disorder'.b
I met her online, about four years ago, I don't really remember how but I can say that we instantly established a friendship, we spoke several hours every day.
I don't think i was an emotional tampon, she would NOT open to me and would limit herself to converse about the game.
I also get to remember she was some kind of "suggar mommy" to me. ( yes, she actually would buy me shit )
It was a hard time for both, but everything faded away when roughly about one year before the pandemic struck, I got tired of her and cut all communication with her, and in a week, forgot completely about her existence.
Strangely, she continued to pursue me, attempting to establish contact with me, multiple times, but failed.
Rewinding to October 2022, i saw her on my contacts list, and tought that it was a good idea to say hi.
No, that was the stupidest mistake I've done in a while, we were back to square one, and there was slight, but noticeable sexual tension, it went like that for a few months and then, it hit.
She told me that she USED TO be in love with me.
My instinct told me that she truly meant that, I was happy, satisfied that all the brainstorming behind those well-written messages were finally acomplishing their goal. To sum it up, i added flirting from MY SIDE from now on.
February 14, she sent me a message MINUTES apart, telling me that she wished i had a happy Valentine's and who i was going to spent it with.
I assumed this was some mental schenanigan of her and just said basically the same thing back, ignoring her initial question.
But it all came down to me by seeing a selfie of her with some tall skinny fuck who was a hardcore Dragon Ball fan.
I felt humilliated, I could not believe what i was visualizing, a woman of such magnitude.. with a weak peasant, instead of being with an acomplished intellectual.. I was jealous, very jealous, i could simply not rationalise HOW she could be with HIM and not ME.
What should i do?
I believe i have found the perfect girl, she's incredibly intelligent, attractive ( but not that much, i must say ).
I am simply unable to distinguish love from connection, I'm keen on the idea that I am a psychopath, but never have been diagnosed further from 'Conduct disorder'.b
I met her online, about four years ago, I don't really remember how but I can say that we instantly established a friendship, we spoke several hours every day.
I don't think i was an emotional tampon, she would NOT open to me and would limit herself to converse about the game.
I also get to remember she was some kind of "suggar mommy" to me. ( yes, she actually would buy me shit )
It was a hard time for both, but everything faded away when roughly about one year before the pandemic struck, I got tired of her and cut all communication with her, and in a week, forgot completely about her existence.
Strangely, she continued to pursue me, attempting to establish contact with me, multiple times, but failed.
Rewinding to October 2022, i saw her on my contacts list, and tought that it was a good idea to say hi.
No, that was the stupidest mistake I've done in a while, we were back to square one, and there was slight, but noticeable sexual tension, it went like that for a few months and then, it hit.
She told me that she USED TO be in love with me.
My instinct told me that she truly meant that, I was happy, satisfied that all the brainstorming behind those well-written messages were finally acomplishing their goal. To sum it up, i added flirting from MY SIDE from now on.
February 14, she sent me a message MINUTES apart, telling me that she wished i had a happy Valentine's and who i was going to spent it with.
I assumed this was some mental schenanigan of her and just said basically the same thing back, ignoring her initial question.
But it all came down to me by seeing a selfie of her with some tall skinny fuck who was a hardcore Dragon Ball fan.
I felt humilliated, I could not believe what i was visualizing, a woman of such magnitude.. with a weak peasant, instead of being with an acomplished intellectual.. I was jealous, very jealous, i could simply not rationalise HOW she could be with HIM and not ME.
What should i do?
