SuicideFuel Spending the best years of life in a mediocre way

[muharremabi]

I'm 18, and for most of oldcels, I'm in the best years of life. I've been leading a crappy life for about 5 years. I'm almost in the phase of not enjoying life.

I received a bad education so far, this caused by lack of necessary help from the environment, I was constantly prepared for exams. This year, I entered for the first and last time, hoping to build until 30 in the direction of my life in a good direction. Probably not the place I want to be paid for, because of the difficulty of the exam, it is easy when I want it to be difficult. I don't even know where this psychological breakdown will continue. Besides, I haven't had a girlfriend because I'm way below average. Plus I have health issues.I will be like this forever. Even after surgeries, i will never be normal because theres so much wrong to fix. Sometimes I go out and observe the happy couples and come home with no spirits. I can't find anyone to hangout with. No social life since 13. This is a routine that has been happening for yearsw. I want to do something else, but there isnt much energy left, nor is there environmental support to it. In these years I realized that the family and the environment that life offers us is very important for the rest of life. Because you're on your own thinking and doing something. In short, there is not even a development to get rid of mediocrity neither in my life nor in my environment. You're either lucky or not. I believe this life is hell for ugly people and we shouldnt have existed. It fucking sucks to realize how evil this world is as a child. I'd rather not exist than being ugly.

 

[Kirito3]

Just curious what happened in 13 that ended your social life. Puberty? Moving cities? I get some people being friendless from a young age, but usually if you are NT enough to have friends at one point in your life you can find some other cels to hang with.

 

[muharremabi]

Just curious what happened in 13 that ended your social life. Puberty? Moving cities? I get some people being friendless from a young age, but usually if you are NT enough to have friends at one point in your life you can find some other cels to hang with.

Puberty because my face got completely destroyed by childhood mouth breathing. Over the years I have become more ugly and as a result I have taken care not to leave the house and be in social environments. I just don't know if Its just me but people want to interact with you as less as possible when you're ugly. Doesnt matter if its a girl or a guy.

 

[TheMinimalist]

Puberty because my face got completely destroyed by childhood mouth breathing. Over the years I have become more ugly and as a result I have taken care not to leave the house and be in social environments. I just don't know if Its just me but people want to interact with you as less as possible when you're ugly. Doesnt matter if its a girl or a guy.

I'm almost 18 and in the same situation, expect the only problem is my face. I hate going outside. Best to just ldar

 

[RemoveNormalfags]

I'm almost in the phase of not enjoying life.

only almost?

 

[vic624]

You really should see an escort before you turn 20. Being a teen virgin is not bad enough to cause too much mental burden, but by your 20s you WILL feel like genetic waste if you've never P-in-V. It's just the way the brain works. Ideally your P-in-V would be with a teen QT, but if that looks statistically unlikely, you should satisfy your brain craving for the physical experience of sex, otherwise your mental condition will deteriorate hard during your 20s.